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Heya!

Sorry that I didn't blog yesterday but sooo fucking silly of me I totally forgot that it was my turn and then when I was turning on my computer to read toves inlay I noticed that it wasn't her turn but mine... I'm so sorry!

Well anyway I can tell you that our cake turned out amazing, zara and Tove did most of the work and I mostly just watched two very beautiful women work :P hahaha And then when our little evening was over Zara staied the night with me so we slept in one of the spare bedrooms :) It was great :)

And then I drove Maja to her party after we fixed her up and she looked so beautiful and when I drove her there we talked alittle and it was really good. Everyone at the school looked at us when we came driving and when I said goodbye and she stepped out of the car I could see everyones faces go from wonder to surprise and it was really great to see. When I was going to pick her up again I called first so that she new I was on my way and when I parked outside the school she walked out of there followed by a guy and she looked so happy! :D And when she had said goodbye to the lad and she sat down in the car she just had a huge smile on her face and I just had to smile back and ask if that was Edwin. She just looked dreamy and nodded and I laughed and patted her leg and siad "Good girl!". She smiled and I started to car and we drove off and when we came home Tove asked if she had had a good time and she just nodded and said "Amazing!". I smiled and then she ran off to bed and i told tove about how amazing it had been ;) hahah

Anyway yesterday was pretty old and boring until Zara came over last night and we hung out, watched some movies and had a good time and of course she staied the night. So this morning when I woke up I was lying on my side and I felt zaras arm rest around my body. I smiled and slowly turned around and faced her and she was still sleeping and she looked so beautiful and peaceful. i smiled adn gently touched her face with my fingertips and she took a deep breath and slowly opened her eyes. She has such beautiful blue eyes and when she looked into mine she smiled and whispered "Good morning beautiful.".I smiled and gave her a soft kiss and said "Good morning angel.". She smiled and said "You are the angel." I shook my head and wrapped my arm around her body and pulled her alittle closer and I felt how our boobs pressed against each other and she smiled and looked down on them and said "Look at the difference!". I looked down and looked at our boobs and sure mine are bigger but she was exaggerating a little and I said "not that big a difference.". she looked up on my face and said "Are you nuts? You have huge amazing, wonderful boobs and I just have these tiny now... Even tove has bigger then mine right now..". I laughed and stroke her cheek and said "I have bigger boobs because I am bigger then you and tove just have her big boobs because she's got a baby.". She sighed and laid down on her back and said grumpy "I want big boobs too...". I laughed and then put on a cheesy smiled and slowly stroke her stomach up to her boobs and I gently squeezed it and said "I love the once you have.". She looked at me and tried to look grumpy but she didn't manage and I gave her an eager kiss and she said "I love yours" and started to massage my boobs too and it felt really good. I smiled and she laid down ontop of me and started to kiss me more and more and I ran my hands over her naked back and bum while her tongue was playing with mine. I stroke my hand over her bum to the front and started to caress her just like we did the other night and she began to kiss me with even more eager. When I felt that she was turned on I gently rolled us around and i gave her a cheesy smile and started to kiss her on her neck, over her chest. Down over her boobs where I stayed and played with her nipple with my tongue for a while and she ran her hand through my hair and moaned. I smiled and continued to kiss her over her amazing stomach and I gently started to caress one of her boobs with my hand. I let the other hand slowly wander over her thigh and then I placed my hands on her knees and gently parted her legs. She smiled and I kissed the inside of her thigh and stroke them higher and higher with my hands. She started to breath more shallow and I kissed her higher and soon I was between her legs and I started to slowly use my tongue on her down there. She moaned and squeezed the covers with her hand and I stroke her stomach and thighs with my fingers. Soon she wasn't far from coming at all and I knew it so I slowly replaced my tongue with my fingers and I started to kiss her lips again and I gently pressed a two fingers in her and started to move adn she moaned loudly. She ran her hand over my back and neck and pulled me down for an amazing kiss and I moved my fingers faster and faster and she could hardly lay still and then she ran her nails into my arm and then I felt how she came and she just became totally stiff. When she relaxed again she just smiled and stroke my cheek and I gave her a soft kiss and took my fingers out. I laid down next to her and she quickly wanted to please me as well and started to kiss me with eager and caress me. It felt really good and the fact that I had helped her had already turned me on alot and soon she kissed me down my boobs and stomach and started to lick me between my legs too and it felt so good! I moaned loudly and ran my fingers through my hair and she started to gently caress my boobs while her flickering tognue was still licking me. After alittle while she replaced her tognue with her fingers and she started to move and it felt amazing. I moaned loudly and she started to kiss me while I ran my fingers over her sexy body. I wasn't far from coming and she noticed that on my breath and moans so she moved her fingers faster and faster and soon I came with a loud scream and it was soooo amazing! Then she laid down next to me and we cuddled for a while and she stroke my arm and said "I love you.", I smiled and said "I love you too.". Then I looked at her and said quietly "Do you have to leave?", she looked like a questionmark and said "What do you mean? i'm not leaving.". I said "For new years... You said to Jodi that you guys would go to Ireland for new years... I want you to stay here...". She gave me a soft smile and stroke my cheek and said "The whole family is going and I miss everyone over there.". I said "I know... And I know you miss them becuase you have no idea how much I miss all of them too... but please stay with me... Atleast till after new years.". She said "I know you miss them honey, they miss you too. You really want me to stay?". I slowly nodded and she smiled and said "Then I'll stay... Nicky and the kids are leaving today but I can stay till the day after new years.". I smiled and said "Yay! Thank you!" she smiled and I gave her a kiss adn said "How long will you be gone?". She said "About a week and a half... the kids need to come back for school and all..". I nodded and said "I guess I will just have to manage without you then for a week and a half.". She stroke my arm adn said "Yeah well don't think that I won't miss you because if you do then you are crazy. I'll call you everyday, I promise.". I said "Yeah you'd better." she laughed and started to kiss me again. But then she stopped and said "maybe I should head home and tell nicky adn the kids that.". I nodded and she said "Nicky will probobly come by and say goodbye before he leaves..". I nodded again and said "Will you be over tonight then?". A smile cracked up on her face and she nodded and said "Absloutly.". I smiled and kissed her nad said "but I'll call you because I have some things planned in that are kind of important.". She nodded and said "okay but maybe I can come by anyway and hang out with Tove and the others and wait for you.". I said "Yeah you can do that.", she smiled and kissed me and then we both got up and got into the bathroom and I took a bath while she took a quick shower and then we got dressed and went downstairs for breakfast.

In the kitchen we found Jensen and his whole family, tove, dennie, krisen, jared and johan. We walked in hand in hand but I slowly let go of Zaras hand when I saw Jared, I don't want to hurt him more then I have. Tove just smiled adn said "So did you have a good nights sleep?" and gave us a meaningful glare. I smiled and looked at Zara who just smiled alittle shyly and I said "Yeah we have.". Tove smiled and Zara and I joined them around the table and ate some breakfast. Then I said "Zara is staying for new years!", everyone looked a bit shocked and Jared said "Wheren't you going to ireland?". Zara nodded and said "Yeah I was but I'm going on New years day insted because Madde wants me to stay.". She looked at me and smiled and I smiled back and took her hand under the table and said "Yeah... it's going to be great!". Zara nodded and then when we had finished our breakfast she said that she had to go home and I followed her to the hallway and she pulled me in for a kiss and said "I'll see you later.". I smiled adn said "Yeah, miss you already." she smiled and kissed me again and then she left and I went back to the kitchen and everyone just looked at me and I stopped and said "What?!". Everyone quickly looked away and I just shook my head and then Maja walked into the kitchen and I said "Good morning Maja.". She smiled and said "Good morning.", I took the seized the opportunity to ask "What do you say about you and me going out today to watch a good movie at the cinema and then go and eat some dinner and then come back here?". She smiled and said "That sounds really great, I've wanted to see New Moon but I've never had the opportunity to do that... If you want to see it.". I smiled and said "Hey, there are very handsome guys in it and alot of abs, so of course I want to see it.". She laughed and Tove said "We know atleast three of them... and so do you.". Maja nodded and said "Yeah it was really cool to meet them at the wedding." I smiled and said "Well, I can go and book the tickets and see if there is a show at three or something and then we can take that one?". She nodded and I went up to mine and Jareds room and picked up my computer and booked the tickets for New Moon at 14.55. While I was doing that it knocked on the door and I just thought that it was someone from downstairs so I quickly said "Come in.". The door opened and Nicky walked in, I smiled and slowly closed the computer and said "Hey.". He smiled and sat down infront of me on the bed and I put the computer away and he gave me a hug and said "Hey you.". Then he said "So you convinced Zara to stay here for new years?", I nodded and said "Yeah... sorry.". He laughed alittle and said "It's okay. Soo... How are you?". I said "I'm good Nicky. Atleast I think I am.". He nodded and said "That's good.", I nodded and just sat there looking at him for a while and then I carefully took his hand and said "Nicky... I'm sorry I lied to you about zara and I.". He looked at our hands and said "It's okay... It's just hard to believe.". I nodded and said "I know. It's hard to believe for us too, believe me. We don't know what this means or what we want with it.". He nodded and said "I can tell that both you and zara are happier anyway.". I smiled slightly and said "I suppose, but you know what... I miss you alot nicky... To hang out with you, as much as before.". He looked into my eyes and I just looked into his blue eyes and he said "I miss you too, I miss those times but I don't miss the mess.". I said "Who does..." he slowly nodded nad then I said "Do you know what I have desided?". He shook his head and said "No what?", I smiled and said "I'm getting a tattoo.". He said "You are?" I nodded and he said "No...". I wrinkled my eyebrows and said "Why not?" he said "Don't destroy your gorgous self with a tattoo..". I said "You don't even know what it will be and I really want this tatto becuase it would mean alot to me.". He siad "Fine, what will it be and why would it mean alot?". I let go of his hand and stood up and walked over to the window and looked out, I didn't know if I should tell him what I had been thinking of. Then I felt his hand on my shoulder and he slowly turned me around and he said "Hun... tell me.". I said "What I want to get is a beautiful Lotus flower and then three cherry blossoms falling around it.". He said "Why?" I swallowed and siad "As a thank you...". He wrinkled his eyebrows and said "For what and to who?", I took his hand and led him back to the bed and said "As a thank you to Krisen, Tove and... you.". He said "me?", I slowly nodded and said "The Lotus flower stands for life and beauty and the cherry blossoms represents you, mum and Tove. The cherry blossoms stands for beauty, power and love which is something all three of you have given me.". He pulled me down on the bed and said "There are more people then just the three of us that has given you that...". I said "Yeah I know... but you guys are the only once who has saved me. Krisen took me in when I was a kid adn helped me, Tove has always been there for me and saved me a thousand times from myself and other thing and you... you have litterly saved me a thousand times this past year and not just by stopping me from bleeding out but just by being there for me all year. I want to get this and I want all of you three there with me when I do it...". He squeezed my hand and said "Really?". I nodded and said "You guys have given me life and even if life isn't the best right now... I want to make the best out of it and I want to show you how much I love you and how thankful I am for everything you have given me. I owe you guys my life, so let me give you some of my skin.". He smiled slightly and pulled me in for a hug and I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him close and he said "I'd love to be there.". I smiled and whispered in his ear "Thank you, I love you.". We let go of each other and he smiled and said "I love you too, and I would save you over and over if I had to.". I smiled and put my hand on his cheek and said "You have and you always will do.". He smiled and then he said "I suppose I really should head back home now and go to ireland...". I removed my hand and sighed and said "Yeah I suppose... I wish I could go with you, I miss everyone over there so much.". He nodded and said "Me too, everyone over there misses you like crazy and Shane even asked if you were coming too but...". I nodded and said "Send my love to all of them and tell them that I will come and visit.". He nodded and said "I will and i think that if you won't go there soon, Shane will come and get you.". I laughed and said "And from what I understand you will help him?" he smiled and said "Of course I will.". I laughed and we stood up and I wrapped my arms around his neck and said "I'll miss you nicky, take care of yourself and call me... don't forget that.". He held me tight and said "I'll miss you too honey and I will call you, don't worry about that. Take care of yourself and don't get totally wasted of new years okay?". i laughed and kissed his cheek and said "i'll do my best but I can't promsie anything handsome. Come back safe okay? I love you.". He smiled and nodded and said "That's all I ask. I will, I promise. I love you too honey. See you in a week and a half.". i nodded and he gave me one last hug and then he left. I sat down on the bed and looked at the closed door and thought about Shane and desided to give him a call. I picked up my cell and dialed his number and after a few tones he picked up and I said "Hey you handsome devil!". He laughed and said "Hello you beautiful woman! How are you darling?". I smiled and said "I'm okay, how are you Shay?" he said "I'm just fine thank you very much. I'm standing in the kitchen making a sandwish for my beautiful pregnant wife.". I smiled and said "Aw you are such a gentleman Mr. Filan.". He laughed and said "That I am. So what are you doing?", I said "I just said goodbye to Nicky... So now I'm not doing so much.". He said "Oh okay... I wish you could have comed with too.. I miss you, we all do.". I sighed ad said "i miss you guys too, I really do and I promise that I'll come and visit as soon as possible.". He said "yeah I sure hope so otherwise I'll come over there and kidnap you.". I laughed and said "Yeah nicky has already warned me about that.". He laughed and then suddenly someone knocked on the door so I asked Shane to wait and said come in and Maja walked in. I asked what she wanted and she said "It's almost two o'clock and we need to be at the movies a half an hour before the movie.". I nodded and she left and then I said to Shane "Look man, I have to go.. i'm going to spend the day with my little sister. But I'll talk to you on new years and send my love you your beautiful family and tell them that I miss them.". He said "okay sounds lovley. yeah talk to you later and I sure will tell them that. Love you honey, miss you loads.". I smiled and said "Love you too Shay and miss you too, so much. Take care, bye.". he said "You too, byebye honey." and then we hung up and I quickly changed clothes, grabbed my bag and ran downstais to fine Maja and Tove in the kitchen. I smiled and said "You ready?", she smiled and stood up and I walked over to Tove and said "i love you honey, see you later. Oh and btw, Zara might come by later and hang out with you untill I get back home..". She smiled and said "Love you too. Okay that sounds great. have fun my beautiful sisters.". I looked at Maja and we smiled and said "Thank you Sis.". and then we went into the garage and got in the Lambo and drove off.

When we got to the cinema I bought the tickets and then we went to a table and stood there for a while and then I asked "Do you want some popcorn or something?". She nodded and I said "Okay, well stay here and guard the table and I'll be right back.". She nodded and I went to the paydesk and bought a large popcorn and two large cokes and then when I was about to head back to Maja I saw three girls there talking to her and she looked really uncomfortable. I walked over to them and put the popcorn on the table and turned to maja and said "I bought a large coke for you, if you don't want all of it you can just throw it away.". She nodded and then I smiled, took a popcorn and turned to the girls. They looked at me like i was some wierdo and I said "Hello, who are you?". Maja quickly said "They are some girls from my class...", I nodded and one of the girls said "And you are?". I smiled and said "Hi, I'm Majas big sister Madde. how are you?". She said "Oh, fine...", then she turned to Maja and asked "So what are you going to watch?". Maja shyly said "New Moon...." and the girl said "Really, so are we. You do know that there will be half naked guys in it...". She nodded and I said "The more the better, right Maja? but we et alot of that at home too so...". Maja smiled and nodded and the girl said "What? from your brother?" and Maja said "No.. from two of the hottest men in the world.". I laughed and another girl said "Whatever... is it your father or what?" and all of the girls laughed. I felt anger bubble up in me and i said "no, their names are Jared and Jensen and jared is my boyfriend and Jensen is our other sisters husband.". They just stared at me with doubting eyes and then the first girl said "Yeah well, no onw is more sexy then Robert Pattinson.". I laughed and said "I can agree that Rob is handsome and a really good kisser and pretty good in bed but sexiest.... nah I don't think so...". Everyone just stared at me, even Maja and she said "hang on? You and Rob?". I laughed and said "Yeah, earlier this year, before everything turned into a mess.. If some things hadn't happened we might have been together now...". One of the girls laughed and said "Yeah right, you have met Robert pattinson.". I nodded and maja said "So have I." I smiled and said "yeah, Rob, Kellan and Peter was at Jensen and Toves wedding last month. And Peter is an old boyfriend of toves.". They just looked at me even more funny and I sighed, picked up my phone and dialed Roberts number. He sounded very surprised that i called and I said "Hey handsome.". He said "Hey! Wow, how are you?", I laughed and said "Rob, you sound surprised, but I'm fine thank you. how are you?". he laughed and sad "I am surprised but it's really good to talk to you. I'm good too.". I smiled and then I said "Can you answer like a question and prove to a friend of Majas that it's you?". He laughed and said "Anything for you sexy.", I smiled and said "Where did that come from Robert? You flirting with me?". he said "If you want me too..", I smiled and said "I don't mind it, but first this.". I handed over the phone to the first girl and said "Ask him anything you want.". She slowly took the phone but quickly handed it back after saying hi and she said "he wants to talk to you.". I sighed and said "What is it rob?", he laughed and said "Call me as a videocall and then they can see me.". I laughed and said "You're smart, sometimes. Call you back.". And I hung up and called him as a videocall and soon I saw his handsome face in my cell. i turned the phone to the girls and I said "Rob, meet Majas friends. Girls, meet rob pattinson.". All the girls just stared at the phone and then I turned it to Maja and Rob said "Hi Maja, is good to see you again.". She smiled and said "Hey Rob, you too." then I looked at him and said "Hey handsome.". He smiled and said "hi beautiful, wow you look even more beautiful then I had in mind.". I smiled and said "thanks babe, but you know what... we gotta run. We are going to watch new moon.". He smiled and said "Well enjoy and I really hope you'll like it. But it's alot of abs in it so I bet you will.". I laughed and said "I bet I will too otherwise I want my money back.". he alughed and then I blew him a kiss and said goodbye and then I looked at the girls and they were still staring so I told Maja to take the popcorn and then we went to the man who rips the tickets and then went inside and took our seats and Maja said "That was so cool that you called Rob.". I laughed and said "you think? who where they?", she sighed and said "Some of the girls from school...". I looked at her and said "Do they bully you?", she shrugged and I said "maja, tell me.". She nodded and I said "You know what, don't take crap from them. Stand up for yourself and for what you believe. Know that your family loves you, I love you and I will always be there for you... epecially when someone is treating my sister badly, then I hate them.". She nodded nad siad "i love you too Madde." I smiled and gave her a hug and then we watched the movie and it was really good and DAMN that 17 year old guy Taylor Lautner has some MAD abs!! SO HOT! Shame is is so young ;) hahahah

After the movie we drove to a restaurant not far from there and ate and after a while I said "Maja, I want you to understand that I really love you and that I really care about you and will always be there if you need me.". She put the fork down and said "I know and I love you too." I nodded and said "You don't need to be shy around me... I don't want you to be afraid of me.". She didn't say anything so I said "I know i have a temper and that I yell and get angry but if I would yell at you it wouldn't mean anything. You have no idea how many times i have yelled at Tove or Tim or even My who is just 5, but I still love all of them so much because they are my family. And so are you, and I love you.". She nodded and said "I know but..." I quickly said "And I would never ever hit you. I don't do that.". She looked down on the table and I put my hand on her hand and said "Does Eddie hit you?". She slowly nodded and I clenched my teeth in anger and I said "I'm sorry... Eddie is a jerk and I can't believe he would do that. When Tove and I was young he was really sweet, a perfect dad but then he just left... Maja you should know that you're not the one with the problem or who is making the mistakes... He is. He has big issues and he should seek help for it but he won't. I sometimes wish I was able to see him again and tell him what I really feel about him.". She looked at me and said "Why can't you meet him?", I said "Because he isn't allowed to go anywhere near me becuase if he does then he'll go to prison.". She said "Why?", I swollowed and said "Becuase I'm afraid that he might hurt me but I think that the rest of the family is more scared then me... i can take care of myself.". She nodded and said "Why would he hit you?", I took my hand away and bit my nail alittle and said "i didn't mean hit... We're afraid that he might hurt me in another way...". She looked at me sad and said "You mean rape?". I nodded and she said "I think he would be able too...", I said "Maja, if you are afraid then you have to tell us. has he ever tried anything with you?". She shook her head and said "no... he only beats me...". I said "That is not just only... My father was a mean drunk and he was drunk 24/7 nad he beat both me, mum and Niklas and then mum just left and it was just niklas and I there so he began to beat us even more and Niklas took the worst hits because he protected me but... It was so horrible... I know the fear.". She quietly said "But dad isn't drunk... I'm scared of him...". I said "I know and that makes everyhting so much worse.. I can understand that... earlier this year I suddenly got a call from my dad and he said he wanted to meet me... I first didn't want to because I was so afraid of him but then I took Nicky with me and we met him and it was so strange to see him again.. It felt like I was 5 years old again and I looked into the face of the man who caused me all that pain. i could almost feel the beats or the belt hitting my body over and over... I was soooo scared that day, the monster had returned and I couldn't hide.". I felt tears build up in my eyes when I tought about it and then maja put her hadn on mine and said "Nicky was there for you.". I nodded and said "I don't know what I would have done without him then... And Maja... I will always be there for you, forever. So if there is anything I can do for you, please tell me and I'll do it.". She nodded and I agve her a hug and she said "Thank you." I nodded and then we continued eating and talking about some other things and then it was time to drive home.

When we got home everyone had eaten so I tought that Tove, jared and jensen was upstairs so we went upstairs and then maja gave me a hug and said "Thank you for a really great day sister.". I smiled and said "And thank you too." she smiled and went into her room and I went into mine wish was totally empty. I sighed and threw my bag on the bed and went to Toves room and knocked on the door. Tove yelled come in so I did and there I found Jensen, tove, Jared and an amazingly beautiful woman on the bed. I smiled when I saw Zara and she got up and gave me a hug and a kiss and said "I've missed you.". I smiled and stroke her cheek and gave her another kiss and said "I've missed you too. God you are so beautiful.". She smiled and wrapped her arms around my neck and started to kiss me even more and I put my hands under her top on her back and slowly stroke her skin. Then we heard Tove hawk and we stopped kissing and looked at the three people on the bed and Jared and jensen were drooling like crazy and tove was just smileing. I smiled and said "Hey guys.", they smiled and said "hi.". And then I said "Is it okay if i steal this beautiful woman from you?". They nodded and we said goodnight and went into one of the spare bedrooms and Zara said "I really missed you today.. it was strange to hang out with those three and not with you.". I smiled and said "I missed you too but I had a good time with Maja.". She smiled and laid down on the bed and said "Wanna watch a good movie and just cuddle?". I smiled and nodded but said "Let me just blog and then we can watch a movie.". She nodded and turned the tv on and I started to blog so here I am now. I think I'll wrap this up now and go and watch a good movie with zara and cuddle alittle. Night!

Take care
Love
Madde