Valentine's day

Hey everybody and lots of love!!

It's valentine's day today!! the day of love!!! the day I love ;) hahha



I guess you all know this but I have to tell it to myself. Madde Karlsson you are a Loveoholic!!!
Yes I know and I loooooooooove it!!! :D

Hahah anyway I supposed you want to know what happened yesterday when we were partying.
We went to the club around 22.00 and Rob and Kellan looked smoking ;) and so did Tove and me too ;)

I'm kind of superstitious and you know yesterday was Firday the 13th so I was sure that something bad would happen.
Btw speaking of Friday the 13th, Jareds new move "Friday the 13th" has it's premier today on swedish cinemas!!! He lookes great in it!!
Back to the subject...



Tove didn't want to drink so much and she didn't but whe took a few beers. she and Kellan danced alittle and had alot of fun and they just looked soooo cute together!!
Rob bought me a drink and we danced alot and then something happened. We were out on the dancefloor and then suddenly some guy grabed me and turned me around to face him and he was really drunk and looked like crap. He started to grab me and was just freaking me out and then Rob like pulled me away from his armes and called on the guards whom came and took the guy away. Me and Rob followed them outside and when the guards had left told the guy: "If I see you around this girl again I will rearrange your face beyond recognition and I will tell her to charge you for sexual harassment!" and then ha put his arm around me and we walked back inside :) he is so brave! :] Love him!

Okay, now I will tell you what more that happened but it will be kind of short.

I got pretty drunk, and I told Rob I loved him. he kissed me and I kissed him back. The club closed and we all walked back home, I needed some support from Rob which he gladly gave me :] and then he put me in bed and I fell asleep so fast! I can't believe I didn't have sex with him but i'm also kind of proud of myslef. :)

Okay, so today it's Valentine's day!!
The guys (this time without Robert and Kellan) has planed something for like weeks now. I still don't know what it is but they have told us to be ready to leave at 8 p.m. So I guess you know what Tove is up to right now, Yeah you are right she is getting ready :P I don't get why she needs so many hours to get ready, I only need like 30 minutes :P crazy.
I hope they have prepared an amazingly romantic night. You know Jared is like so romantic so i guess he has comed up with most of the stuff :] love him!

I still have a problem though, I'm so totally inlove with Robert and I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel for him like I felt for Lukas you know. It's insane!
I can't just leave Johnny and go to Rob. I wish Johnny would just give me a call from L.A and say that he can't come back and that he is sorry but he doesn't love me anymore. I'm sick and tired of hurting the people I love!
Why do I have to fall for everybody? it's not fair!
I wish life could be easy and that everybody would juust live a full and happy life and that no one would die young or never feel the amazing feeling when somebody says "I love you!".

Whoops! I have to get going!! I need to find the perfect outfit for tonight and all that!!

Just one more thing... To everybody out there who hasn't found that special person, don't worry... He or she will turn up and he/she will love you for the rest of you life! and To all of you who has found that special someone... Lucky you!!! I want you to go to him/her and tell him/her that you love them with all you heart and that you could never picture you life without him/her.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!!!
This is the day of love and not hate!!! so live and forgive!
Love
Madde
Ps. Let somebody heal your heart. Ds.