Friday, good or bad?

Yo what's up?
Today it's friday again I think the weeks going to fast! I think it's just was friday weird...

Today I been with my houses for the whole day just so I can be alone somewhere, I have been in the stable more then uselly this week so I think madde is starting to think that I'm havening an affair again, If she's not to pissed with me but I acually don't care anymore.
For the first time in my life I am acually considering to move away from here I think I need that in all of this.. and madde I know that you probly are going to apologize for alot of stuff that you think that you done so I don't move. But this has nothing to do with you this is just my problem and I haven't decided anything yet. So don't freak out.. yet!

Well you all know what madde thinks about me right, that I'm a bitch, maybe it's just you who thinks that because you are the only one who has complained, the guys haven't ven said anything, so I just think that she should shut her mouth because she isen't that much better because she are starting to get a little bit like a bitch herself just because she can't have SEX!!!!!
Well I think I have a better reason, I have cancer for crying out loud so I have more right to be a bitch, I can die of my problem you can't!!!
So shut up!!!

Tomorrow we are going out, I don't really looking forwad to it so I'm not sure that I will follow them, but madde is going out with her guys anyway now when criss are here and all.
I will see tomorrow how I feel about it and decide..

I have told you about both my parents and how they are!
there are some things that are worse than cancer, and one of them is that my parents are becoming friends again and it feels like it could be more than that, I saw them hugging yesterday!! If they are anything more than friends then I really move away from here for good! I promise!
I can't stand it anymore, they are annoying individual but together they are... I can't even find word to describe how awful it is!!!! I just hate them!!!!

One more person that I hate is TIM!!! He has called me alomst everyday after that kissing accident!!! what's he's problem?!
I can't belive that I ever loved him it have almost been ten years since we broke up and he's still abstinence with me. Like I said I can't belive that I loved him so much and that he was the first one I had sex with, that's crazy! But I can't take it back unfortunately!
Like I said he calles evrey day and useally I don't answer but today I did just so he would stop sometimes! He wanted to meet, so I said yes just so he would stop calling! So I will soon set off on a walk with him to talk .. I have no idea what he wants to talk about .. : S
Maybe madde will tell you tomorrw when I have told her if she's not to pissed with me and vice versa!

So I have to go now, wish me good luck!
Peace
Tove