Hot suprises!

Hello babes!

It's friday to day as you may know and hopefully it's my last night here at the hospital in like forever! I'm so tierd to be here in the weekend, but next weekend I'm going going out! I don't care if I have to go out alone I just have to do something!

But first I'm going out with Dr. Zetterlund on wendsday, so that can be intresting...

I don't know if I'm allowed to drink, or I'm allowed to drink alittle, but then I don't know if I'm allowed to drink because of Madde. Since we had a pact that we shoulden't drink intill both of us was feeling great again. So I just have to talk to her.

But the promblem is that I haven't had a drink in a very long time. Or that was a lie, I acutually took some drinks when I was here at the hospital. But I was really long time ago seens I took a drink when I was out and then I don't have to sneack around with it this time. If I know can drink. Well back to the problem, which is acutally that I haven't drink that much in a while and I don't know if I just can drink alittle... but I have Henrik with me, but if I get really drunk you never know what happends... So that's kind of bad.

And I have still not built the courage to ask Henrik if it's a date or not. I don't know if I ever going to ask him or if just wait and see. Or I beg Madde to ask him ;P I don't think she would mind, since she diden't had a problem to ask him about my heartrate ;P haha

Well earlier today I got to meet Henriks brother, he's little brother Albin but he is just like 2 years younger then Henrik, but he's still just as hot as Henrik if not hotter if that's possible!

Madde you would love him! He has like the most perfect body ever! Well it looked like that anyway, just imadgen to see him without of he's clothes that I would love and have him in my bed to even more lovly! ;) Grr

Or to have both Henrik and Albin in bed at the same time that would of been really lovely! ;)

Maybe I should of asked them ;)

I found out that he worked as a bartenter in a club where me and Madde use to hang out before I ended up here. So now when I'm back home soon then we maybe have to go and vistit him ;)

He is just makes me crazy! Now I have to stop talking about him before I like die of hottness! ;P

Instead I can tell you that Madde is feeling alot better right now, which is good! :)

So hopefully it will continue that way, so the Madde I know can come back soon! I miss her.

But I'm not going to write something sad about all this and her cutting and evreything. Because she complin in her inlay that evreyone was acting so diffrent to her, so I'm just writing as I use to and beeing as I would be if evreything would be fine. Because I do understand her, I hate when people are just so afried that something would go wrong so they can't even talk to you or touch you because they thing you will break, I hate it! So now I'm going to try to stop doing that to her. We will see how it goes, otherwise she just have to complin at me agian. :P

Well I can tell you that I have had may vititors today, which is nice. I can start telling you about Maddes vistit her. We talked as uselly, and she have keeped her promis about tell me evreything about how she is feeling but we talked about much other things too. But it was nice to hear what was going on inside of her blond brain.

And Hendrik came in and talked to her alittle too and flirted a little too, and today Madde was more open to that today then she was a few days ago. So I think she is coming back soon! :)

Madde coulden't stay that long because she had to go and meet Nico, because she had promis him to go out for a walk. So he picked her up and drow her home.

My next visiter was totally unexpected it was my ex Jonte!! He had meet Nisse yestarday and he had told him about me. So then he decided to come and visit me. He was sweeit he had bought me flowers. But he has always been sweeit and kind of romantic and he often brought me flowers and jewellery when we where together. I think he is the most romantic boyfriend I have ever had. It was fun to meet him it was likr ages ago seens the last time. But he looked alomst the same, and he was still absolutly gorgeous, such a hotti! I just wanted to throw myself ower him! ;) But I diden't. But he was actually still single ;)

Well we talked about evreything, I found out that my other ex Johan was married and had 4 children! So he had been busy seens we broke up :P So he had growed up anyway, good that some of us have that thay anyway, and then I don't count me ;P Because I'm back to square one again, single and desperate! haha

But Jonte stayed for a few hours then he had to go, but we agreed that we would meet someday next week and countine our conversation. So maybe you will hear more about that next week.

My third vistiter was Tobbe, it was a while seens he was here last time, I don't really know why, I wounder if Madde had yelled at him or something, but he was here today anyway. But he diden't just want to talk like my other two visters, he wanted something more if you know what I mean ;) and ofcourse I coulden't say no to that ;) Grr

But I coulden't have sex because I had promis Madde to not do anything stupied so then I coulden't have sex with him.

So we just did the foreplay and a little more, or I did a little more on him ;)

Madde you wanted evreything to be like it use to be so now it is :P

Well anyway we kissed alittle and undressed alittle and you know ;P I think it woulde be to dirty to describe it here ;) But it was... nice ;)

My fourth vistiter was Linus, why dose he always have bad timing when he showes up..

First that with Tobbe, then all that with my wig. Today I was making out with Henrik... he just looked worse than the last time ha had fined me and Tobbe. This time he wasen't just hurt this time he got mad too, he yelled at me that I'm was a fucking slut and then he and run away. This time I diden't find him and he diden't answer when I call him and I still hasen't talked to him... I just hope he is okay.

I think I startets to belive in Madde, because she says that he is inlove with me, which I haven't belived seens now. What I'm I going to do about that? I need to talk to him but I don't know what to say, help me!

I don't understand what he have seen in me, I'm not really looking my best right now. So that is kind of weird...

I hope he answers soon...

My last vistiter was my mother how had drooped of Emil at the hospital so they could run some tests to see how he's doing.

I'm kind of glad that my mother diden't caute me with Tobbe or Henrik or someone else! But I think she thinks Henrik is kind of hot, which he is but I don't want her to think that!

Because when she have meet him she has flirted alittle with him, which is just grossed, but I'm actually kind of use to it unfortunetly! She has even had sex with guys I have had sex with!! So that's just grossed!

Well anyway we talked for a while and she asked how I was feeling with all that with Madde, so I told her about that. Then she said that she wish that Madde could trust her sometimes and talk to her, and that she hoped that Madde know that she was always there for her when ever and that she was worried about her.

I think I have never talked to my mother this honestly for along while and without geting anrey with her. But that coulden't last the whole vistit right? So when Henrik walked inside the room she started to flirt with him! But the worsed part is that he flirted back!! I got a little angrey with them! I know that Krisen notice that but she diden't care, so then I looked at Henrik with a angrey look and he got the point, because he stoped flirting and concentrated on me instead! Which was much better! I listen to my heart and lungs as he always do, but I'm not really that embarrarssed anymore for that, now I really like it. Because 1, he touches me, 2, I can look deep into he's blue wounderful eyes, it's hard to not kiss him with that eye contact!

I think my mother noticed that look or something between us. Because when Henrik had left the room she asked me if I liked him, and I said no. Then she asked me if we had done something, and ofcourse I said no. But like I have told you somethimes before I'm a really bad lier! So I don't think she belived me.. Because when she had to leave to go to work, before she walked out the door she said" you know that it's illigal " and looked at me and then she walked outside in the hallway. I really ahve to become a better lier.

Well okay I just kiding my mother wasen't my last visiter, that was acutally my brother, who has been lieing here all day with me alomst because he had to get some IV so he could do he's tests. So we have had nice time I have acutally missed him alittle I can't deny that.

But that changed fast too. He told me that he had wrecked my TV! He had played something with he's friend and then they had gone into my room and he had just touched it alittle while they where playing and then it had fallen down from the wall and had died! So no I don't really miss him!! But I think he had made a plan to tell me this now when he was here, just because then I coulden't be as mad as I uselly would because then I had to remebere that he was here because of me. I yelled on him alittal anyway! I'm suprised that Madde diden't tell me about this, it wasen't like I was going to get anrey with her. Maybe she haves her reason.

Well Emil is at home now, Madde came and picked him up for two hours ago.

So now I have aabolutly nothing to do, but anyway I'm going to wrap this up now because I don't have anything mor eintresting to tell you.

So I hope you have a nice weekend!

Kisses

Tove