To much fighting on a party day!

Hey guys!

Hope you all having a lovly easter weekend with alot of eggs and candy!

Well I'm anyway!

Tonight we are going out to celebrate Maddes 25ht birthday, my oldy ;) haha But her birthday is acutllay on monday but we decided to go out tonight instead of a monday night because they are uselly not so fun. So hopeful it will be a great night tonight.

Tonight I'm going to drink again! YAY! I know that Maddes wasen't so happy with me after I was out with Henrik. But I don't care, I'm going to drink anyway. Because I REALLY need it! And we are going to the club where Albin workes so it's going to be free drinks for me all night long! And Madde you don't have to babysit me I will be fine! I feel great right now anyway, I just hope I will do that tomorrow too, but I will never find out about that if I don't try to drink. So alchol her I come!

My last visit at Albins club when I was there with Henrik. I told about my little phonecall to Madde that night. I diden't know what I said then. But apperntly I told Madde that I was inlove with Henrik and that I loved him!! Which is not true!! So Henrik when you read this, not true!! Do you hear me not true!! I'm so embarressed! My and Henrik are just friends and that's it!! It was like the most amzing sex I have ever had, but that's it, just friends! So Madde don't belive in anything of that, okay? :S :P haha

I reason why I really need to drink tonight is because horrible suprise knocked on the door today! It was Johnny, Jared and JENSEN!! Madde diden't looked so suprised so I think she knew and that she had told Jared to bring Jensen!! I got so angry with her!

Madde gave all three of them a hug. I just stood there, since me and Jared and Johnny isen't really best friends because they know what I think about them. But they walked torwards me eventually and gave me a hug and said that they where glad that I was okay and home, I just said thank you. Then I looked at Jensen, I diden't really know how to act, but he walked towards me and I could feel how nervous I got, then when he stood infron of be he gave me hug. It was kind of stiff and weird. I diden't say that much I just went up to my room because I don't know what to say to him. While I was sitting there alone, I could feel how angry I was at Madde because I had told her not to talk to Jared about it because I diden't want to meet Jensen, and ofcousre she had just ingored that! When she came into my room ten minuts after I just coulden't keep it!! I was SOOOO mad! And I still am! I just started to yell at her! It makes me so angry that she never respect my feeling!! She just do as she wants, and she never cares about what I think!! I had told her may times that I diden't want see Jensen face to face, but here I'm, with him in the same house!! How good is that!! Because Jensen have to meet Kian tonight, which probably not going to end well and James will also be there so that's just meens trouble!! But Madde never think that far, sometimes I don't even know if she thinks at all, because sometimes it dosne't seems that way!! I'm so pissed of right now!! But I just ahve to try to aviod Jensen all week! Because I really don't want to talk to him! And I will probably get together with some guy tonight to when I'm drunk, like Henrik or Albin or someone else!! I don't know if Jensen is that over me yet! Like I said just trouble!!

But I have decided that I will do this night exacutlly like if he wasen't here! So we just have to see what happends, but it probably not going to end well!! But Madde will tell you all about what happend tonight tomorrow.

I can tell you that Linus stopped by today and he wasne't so happy! Madde was out on a walk with Jared and Johnny. So he just run into my room and stared to yell at me about all of that with he's party! He said that we had emabarressed him infront of he's friends and some of he's friends didne't even wanted to talk to him! I tryed to stal calm, but I could feel inside how he's bubbled of angry and wanted to come out. Madde told you all about those 15 drug addict who also was at he's party and how they had treated Madde. They had apperntly asked Linus who that bitch was with the blond hair and big tits was, and they had told him how they just wanted to do her and just use her as there own sextoy and do what ever they wanted! He had told them that she was he's big sister and now they want to hang out with him because they thinks he's a fucking wimp because he had he's big sister there. And Linus accused me for bring Madde there and everything was our fauilt!! Then I coulden't be calm anymore!

Since I wasen't in the best mood either with all that with Jensen and Madde, so I got pretty angry too! First at all I yelled at him because he shoulden't accept that anyone talkes about he's sister that way! When I said that or yell that, all Linus said was " Yeah well it's true!" then I just wanted to grab him and pound him right into a wall as hard as I could!! But I diden't do that! But I think I have never been so mad before on a person who is 10 yeras old younger then me and isen't realted to me. But I just coulden't help it, I just care so damn much about it! And I can't let him say so about he's sister!! That's just to much even for a guy who having a hard time right now! I just yealled at him I don't even remebere what I said because I was so angry!

Because I hate guys who thinks women like object insted of humen beings, and those who thinks so is often the one who becomes the rapists later!

I hoped he got into he's little brain that he's wrong to say things like that and he should never accept that about someone he's care about and no one else for that matter! And I told him that it wasen't true about Madde and if he thought that then he would hurt her feelings alot! And I told him too it those guys just abandon him for that then they wasen't anything to have! And that they where useing drugs and he shoudlen't hang out with them at all!! But I don't think he listen, he just looked aways as if he pretenden no to hear me!

Then he just yelled something back at me with I diden't get and then he ran out throw the door.

I just hoped he listed to something I said anyway..

Well back to something more fun, like Maddes party. She isen't geting any presents today she have to wait to Monday! ;) I hope she can handle that, because I think she is longing herself to death almost! :P So on Tuseday she can tell you all about it! ;) I just hope she loves my presents.. I'm pretty sure that she will love one of them anyway ;) But I'm not going to tell you anything more about this because then I will just give it away I promis! So you also have to wait intill monday, sorry ;P haha

Well people are coming at eight a clock here on a preparty then we are going out to the club where I was with Henrik and there Albin workes ;) We are going to be alot of people. Since all the Westlife lads are coming, James, David and Sarah, Lilly and Dom, Tobbe, Lukas, Keira and Orli, Zara, Sara and Brian, Nicklas, Johnny, Jared and unforrtunetly Jensen, my mother ( :S) and Henrik will be there and alot of other people. That Madde maybe will tell you about tomorrow too.

But hopefully it will be a really fun eveing! :) But some drama it will be because on our partys it always dose! And I hope I find a guy too, otherwise I can take Albin again or Henrik ;) That woulden't be wrong at all ;) haha Sexy guys ;) Grr

Soon I have to go and get ready because I just have like 2 hours and 30 minuts to go now and that not much time for me. Yeah I know I'm slow! And as uselly Madde will come and knock on the bathroom door and I refuse to open and then she will get mad because she have all of her things in there. But I think that is hear problem because she never learn! We have been doing this I don't even know for how many years but it is many years, but still she hasne't learn that she should go there before me or take her things out of there. I think she will get even more angry today since she is allreday mad at me for all that with my drinking and that with Jensen, but like I said it's hers problem not mine. :P Sorry baby! ;P

Well now I have to go and get ready! :) I hope you all will have a nice eveing, because I will anyway! ;) So tomorrow Madde will blogg and tell you evreything if she is not to hang over like she always is ;P But I don't think she have a choose because she have to blogg because you want to know what happend, right? :P haha

So like I said have a nice eveing!

Kissed

Tove