Lovely!!

Heya!!

Today has been pretty fun and kind of mental too in a way but I'll tell you more about that soon. But we got some bad news too and that is that Sherri and Jerry are going home tomorrow. I'm really going to miss them and it's been really great to have them here with us and I have really had a good time to get to know them better then I did. I miss them already :P

Anyway this morning started out pretty good with me waking up to Jareds heartbeats and his lips pressing against my head. I smiled and stroke his abs and chest and tilted my head up so I could look at him and he smiled and stroke my cheek down to my chin and kissed me. I said "Good morning handsome." he smiled and said "Good morning love of my life.". I smiled even bigger and kissed him again and then I laid back down on his chest and couldn't stop smileing. We just laid there cuddleing for a while and then someone knocked on the door and Jareds said "Come in mum.". But then the door opened and jensen peeked in and said "It's me, I'm not your mum... you waiting for sherri?". I just bursted out laughing and so did Jared and he said "Sorry it's just that it's always been mum who has knocked on the door every other morning so I thought it was her now too.". Jensen laughed and sat down on the bed next to me and said "Well it was just me. You guys look cuddely." I smiled and cuddled up even closer to Jared and siad "Did you want something important?". Jensen nodded and said "yeah, Can you please come with me and buy baby stuff?". I sighed and said "Yeah sure I can do that..." and then my phone rang so I picked it up and Nicky said "Hey honey!". I smiled and said "Hey you. what's up?" he laughed and said "What's up? i was just wanting to know when we were going to go?". I tought for a while and tried to figure out what he was talking about and then I rememebered the boxing and said "I don't know... hang on a sec nico.". then I said to Jensen "i'm going boxing with Nicky..." jensen looked really sad and said "but I need you Madde.". i bit my lip and said "Can't you take Jared and go or maybe sherri?? or Krisen? or johan?". He sighed and siad "fine..." and Jared said "i can come with and maybe mum wants to come to or Johan... I mean i have nothing to do anyway if madde's going boxing with nicky.". Jensen smiled and siad "that sounds great! let's go!" and Jared said "Wiat, hang on... Can we get a few more mintues here and then I need a shower and some breafast before i starve to death.". I laughed ad said "yeah exacly, give the man a few more minutes!". Jensen sighed and left and then I turned back to nicky and said "nico... Can I get like 2 hours or something and then i come and pick you up in the lambo and then we go to the gym?". I could almost hear him smile on the other end and he said "2 hours and counting! hurry, I'm totally excited!!". i laughed and said "yeah me to man! i'll hurry and then I'll come over so get your stuff ready so i don't have to wait for you too!". He laughed and said "Will do! now hurry. bye!" I smiled and said "Good, see you soon. bye!" and then we hung up. Jared smiled as I laid down on his arm and he kissed my forehead and said "You seen excited?". I smiled and said "yeah I'm so excited to finally box with nicky again, it's going to be so much fun!". he smiled and said "I hope you'll have a good time." I smiled and stroke his abs and said "I'm sure I will.". Then he looked really thoughtful and I said "What is it?" he hesitated and then he said "Can you promise me something?". I put a hand on his cheek and said "Anything." he siad "Can you promise me you won't take you shirt off?". I sat up and looked at him and said "I swear to god that I won't do that, I only do that on you.". He smiled and said "thank you." I smiled and leaned down and kissed him and said "you don't have to worry... and i have something I want to tell you, my feelings for nikcy is starting to cool off and I love you more and more for every day that goes by so soon it will be you and I and nicky and I will just be good friends.". Jared smiled and said "that makes me very happy." I smiled and kissed him again and then Jensen knocked on the door again and said "hurry!". We both laughed and then Jared got up and took a shower and I tought it would be pretty stupid to shower before going to the gym so I just put some clothes on and then I went downstairs.

I met Jensen, johan, Krisen, sherri, jerry and Johanna in the kitchen and they all greeted me with a cheerful "Good morning.". I smiled and said "Morning to you too, you guys seem very cheery.". they laughed and sherri said "Well it's a beautiful day, it's been snowing all night so it's a beautiful white snow cover and the sun is shineing. It's just wonderful.". I smiled and said "Snow!? Jensen when I come back from boxing we have to go outside!". Jensen nodded enthusiastically and then Johan said "So you guys aren't going to go to tove anything today?" then Jensen smiled and said "No becuase she is comeing home today so jared and I are going shopping for baby stuff and then get everything ready so if you johan or someone could like pick tove up at the hospital later so we can set everything in order for her.". Johan nodded and said "i can do that, no problem.. just tell me when to get her and I'll go as soon as I can.". Jensen smiled and turned to me and said "And then tonight we can play in the snow!" I laughed and clapped my hands with excitement and then I got a text message from nicky telling me to hurry up so I made myself some breakfast and began to eat. After a few mintues Jared walked down the stairs and he looked so fucking sexy so I just couldn't continue eating. I stood up and walked over to him hugged him and gave him a kiss while I let my hand wander down his back and over his ass and I squeezed it alittle. He laughed and I gave him a cheesy smile and said "I can't let you go out like this without a bodyguard.". He smiled and said "Why don't you come with us, my little bodyguard?". I sighed and said "i can't stand Nicky up, sorry. but I trust jensen to take good care of you and not let any woman within 2 meters of you.". He laughed and I looked at Jensen who saluted me and said "I'll protect him with my life ma'am.". I gave him a sharp nod and then we all bursted out laughing and Jared gave me another kiss and I said "But seriously, I don't know if I can let you go out looking like this.". He kissed me and said "I'll make myself look alittle bit uglier before I leave okay?". I smiled and nodde dnad said "that sounds good." then I sat down again adn ate and Jared made his own breakfast and joined us at the table.

After breakfast I went upstairs to change clothes and to make myself ready and then I packed my gloves (I've bought my own pair :D ), my hand wraps, my work out top and shorts and a pair of really comfortable shoes and of course my CD filled with good boxing music, like Eye of the tiger and such. After that I went downstairs again and into the kicthen and gave Jared a kiss and he said "You ready to go?". I nodded and said "Yep, finally!" Jerry laughed and said "I still can't believe you're a boxer.". I smiled and said "Well I am so deal with it. Wanna see my gloves?" he said "alright sure.". So I picked up my black Everlast boxing gloves and Jerry just smiled and said "Nice Madde." I smiled and put them back down in the bag and then I gave Jared another kiss adn sadi "I'll miss you.". He laughed and said "No you won't, you're going boxing but I will miss you.". I hit his arm and said "I will miss you on't be stupid. love you bye." he smiled and said "love you too, have fun. bye.". then I gave him a last kiss and then I said to Jensen "look after my sexy man.". He nodded and said "have fun!" I smiled and said "i will. Bye everyone!" and then i went into the garage and got the keys for my baby and sat down in it and it felt so welcoming and I turned it on and drove out of there and I just smiled all the way to Nickys place. I parked and honked a few times and then he quickly opened the door and had a big bag with him and a huge smile on his face and he walked over to the car and got in and gave me a hug and said "Hey gorgeous!". I smiled and said "Hey handsome, ready to go?" he laughed and said "ohyeha! let's do this!! I'm so thrilled!". I smiled and backed out of the drive way and drove off and said "me too! it's going to be great!". We laughed and talked alot during the ride and it was really nice to do this just me and nikcy as friends becuase everything else we have done has been so... I don't know, intimately but boxing isn't, it's just a passion we share.. like the cars and bikes and I love to be able to share that with him.

Anyway when we finally got to the boxing gym we parked the car and got out and then we heard a voice say "What are you guys doing here?". So we turned around and there was Pontus and dennis. I smiled and gave them a hug and said "We're going boxing, what about you?" they nodded and pontus said "okay, we have already done that so now we are going to work and and drink some coffee.". i laughed and so did Nicky and said "Is that all you do at work? drink coffee?". Dennis laughed and pontus said "Yeah it is, when you madde isn't there." I gave him a cheesy smile and said "no because then there is so much other stuff to do.". We laughed and Nicky said "We gotta go now Madde so you and pontus will just have to talk about you sex experiences later." I laughed and gave pontus and dennis a hug and followed Nicky into the gym where we met up with Charlie who gave me a hug and shook nickys hand and said "It's been a while. where have you guys been? I've missed you.". I smiled and said "I know, it's been so long! but so much stuff has happened and it just never happened but I promise that we will try and get here more oftern form here on.". Nicky nodded and said "Should we go and change?" charlie said "Yeah you do that and I'll go and see if we have one of the better rooms available.". We smiled and then went to the changing rooms. When we had changed we went out to charlie again and followed him to one of the rooms that were available and then he began to pick out some stuff like jump ropes and things and I turned to Nicky and said "can you please wrap my hands?". He smiled and took the hand wrap I was holding out for him and he took my hand and slowly began to wrap them. I looked at his hands while he worked and I must say he is really good at wrapping hands because it never gets to tight or to loose. When he was done with one hand he took the other but just as he was about to begin he stopped and looked at my hand and I asked "What?". He didn't say anything he just slowly stroke a finger over my scar from when I cut myself and my heart just dropped. I ran my fingers through his hair and put a finger under his chin and he looked at me with sad eyes and I said "Why do you do this?". He said "I'm sorry... Everything just came back to me...". I stroke his cheek and said "It was not your fault." he sighed and began to wrap my hand nad said "You keep telling me that but I can't help feeling that it is.". I siad "Nicky, it's not your fault. It's all my fault, I had no real reason to do what I did but did it and we only have me to blame.". He sighed and continued to wrap my hand slowly and I said "nicky please, stop beating yourself up about this. I thought you were over it...". He said "I thought so too... I can't help feeling that my heart breaks when I see that scar, it's really horrible memory and I can't tell you how many times I have relived that day in my dreams...". I shook my head and said "I'm so sorry Nicky. I never meant to hurt you but I was selfish and idiotic and i did it and I'm so sorry but please tyr and stop thinking about it.". He said "It's not just that day... It's the day of the shooting too... I should have hold on to your hand ahrder then I did and I should have followed you up there... taken that bullet for you.". I felt how close I was to tears and I said "Nicky look at me. Nothing I have done is your fault! I was the one who cut myself, I was the one who let go of your hand and I was the one who let myself get shot. You couldn't possibly have done anything to prevent it. And if you were the one who would have taken that bullet insted of me... I don't know what I would ahve done.". He slowly finished wrapping my hand and said "You keep saying that but I can't stop these feelings... In my dreams I see other scenarios and they always end up with yuo being okay.". I said "But nicky I am okay... Thanks to you, me getting through this year has been mostly thanks to you.". He swallowed and said "thank you." I smiled slightly and stood up and pulled him to his feet and wrapped my arms around him and gave him a big hug. Then I pushed him down on my seat and I began to wrap his hands and after a little while we were done so we walked over to Charlie who gave us each a jumping rope and told us to jump for about 10 to 15 minutes. I smiled and ran over to my bag and got my CD and told him to put it on which he gladly did and then we started to jump. Nicky looked really funny when he was jumping because he was so focused that it was crazy and once I just bursted out laughing at him and I had to stop jumping for like 2 minutes because I was laughing so ahrd but then I started againa dn after about 15 mintues Charlie said "okay, now I want you to do 20 jump jacks for me. okay. Start when I say go.... Go!". And both Nicky and i started doing jump jacks while charlie was counting. After those 20 jump jacks charlie said "Good.. feeling okay?" both of us nodded nad he said "Good, now I want you to touch your toes 10 times, up and down slowly.". We nodded and slowly bent down and touched our toes and then slowly up to standing againa dn then down adn up 10 times. I felt how I was starting to get warm and my muscles where starting to get warm and flexible and then Charlie said "and now,10 side to side so you get your side muscles warm too..". we nodded nad began to slowly do 10 side to side which is when you move you upper body from one side to the other. When we had done that he told us to do about 10 mintues of push-up which I hate but I got through them and then he made us do 10 minutes of situps which I also hate but I got throught them too. After that he told us to stretch alittle which we did and then he gave nicky a pair of boxing hand pads and I went to get my gloves which Charlie helped me with and then we started to spar. It was so much fun and Nicky really made me work out bot upper cuts and cross and jabs and all sorts of things and we had so much fun adn he tried to make me pissed off all the time so that I would hit harder and get my whole soul into the work out. That is what i love about working out with nicky, he always pushes me to be better then I am and I love that and I do the same with him and he has really improved his skills in the ring and I'm so pleased with it.

After working out for about 2 hours we stretched out or muscles and then Charlie put on some relaxing music and Nicky and I laid down on the floor and charlie turned the lights off and we just laid there with our eyes closed and relaxed. I love to do that after working out, it's really soothing and you can really feel happy with yourself after working so hard. While we were lying there in the dark Nicky said after a while "We have to do this more regularly. I love to come here with you and work out... I don't really have anyone else to work out with because zara would rather eat a bulls balls then work out like this.". I laughed and said "A bulls balls?" he laughed and said "It was the only thing that come to mind, sorry. But seriously.". I smiled and said "I would love to. I know but you can always go with me and jensen and jared when we go but we don't do it wso often either. Usually Jared goes out running or lift some weights at home then go here and they are not really as much fun to work out with because they don't push me like you do.". He siad "I tought yuo didn't lke it when I pushed you so much... but I wouldn't mind going with you and jared and jensen.". I laughed and said "I don't but it's good and i like that it's good. I hate you when you are pushing me but I love it at the same time... does that make any sence?". He laughed and took my hand and said "No honey it didn't but I love working out with you and you make me push my own envelope and I love it.". I smiled and squeezed his hadn and said "Well in that case we should try and work out like this every week.". He siad "That sounds great.". then I remembered Tove so I looked at the clock and saw that it was almost dinner time so I sat up and said "We have to go... but what if we talk some day about when to do this next time?". He smiled and said "Sounds great, now let's go.". We packed our stuff and said goodbye to Charlie and then we got in the car and drove off to nickys to drop him off. when we got there I said "thank you for a really really great day, I had so much fun and I'm going to be soooo sore tomorrow!". He laughed and said "Well thank you too, it was a blast and you're not alone... I think my day tomorrow is lying on the sofa watching tv.". I smiled and said "sounds great! Call you later." he nodded and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek and said "Yep, love you. bye." I smiled and said "Love you too, bye have a good night.". He got out of the car and said "you too." and then he closed the door and I back off the drive way and he waved at me and I waved backa dn then I drove off home.

When I got home I found everyone in the livingroom with tove and dennie and I walked over to tove and was about to give her a hug when she said "No thank you, you stink!". I laughed and said "Well I have been working out." jared smiled and said "How did it go?". I smiled and said "It was so much fun. God I've missed it so much!! and it went great!". Jerry smield and said "Did you beat him up?" I laughed and said "No Jerry i did not." and sherri said "Oh so it's just our son you break bones on?". I said "Sorry about that but like I said it was his own fault. Now if you excuse me I'm going to take a long warm shower.". they smiled and said "Good, you stink!" I just stuck my tognue out to them and went upstairs to get in the shower. I had almost just put the shower on and gotten in when a naked Jared opened the door and walked in. I smiled and siad "What are you doing here?" he didn't say anything, insted he put his hands on my hips and pushed my against the wall and began to kiss me with such passion it was insane! I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back and I could feel his beast against my thigh and it made me so worked up. His hand slowly moved from my hips and between my legs and ge began to caress me and it was soooo good!! I moaned alittle and ran my hands over his wet back which got me even more turned on. I moved my hand to the front of him and slowly began to caress his beast but there wasn't alot I had to do because he was already hard and ready to go. I smiled and said "You've missed me." he moaned "Told you, I would.". I smiled and then I wrapped my arms around his neck again and he carefully lifted me up and pressed his beast inside of me and I moaned out with pleasure. He kissed my neck and collor bone and slolwy began to move in me and it felt so good. I ran my fingers through his wet hair and over his sexy neck and down over his arms. I felt his his muscles was stiff for holding me up and it just turned me on even more and I moaned louder and louder. He pushed me up against the other wall and then he ran his hand from my thigh over my back and shoulder and to my boob which he started to caress and I moaned even more. He kissed my neck with so much passion and my stomach got a really wierd but really amazing feeling. I ran my fingers through his hair and over his back which the water was pouring over and I turned my face up against the faucet and felt the warm water pour over my face. Jared started to move faster and I moaned louder and then he moved alittle to the side and found the right spot and I ran my nails into his upper arm and I moaned loudly. He smiled and stroke my thigh and moved faster, both of us started to breath faster and more shallow and I put my hand behind his neck and pulled him into a deep kiss. I felt how his tognue eagerly played with mine and it was like my mind just went blank and all I could feel was his hands, his body, his tognue and his beast in me nad it was the best feeling ever. Jared moved his lips to my neck and shoulder insted and I smiled and I pulled my fingers through his hair agian. After alittle while he started to go faster and I felt that I was getting warmer and warmer and I was so close. I wrapped my arms around his neck adn pulled him closer and he moved faster and deeper and after just alittle while I came nad it was sooooo good!! I bit his shoulder and he pushed me harder against the wall and then he got all stiff and came inside of me while the water was pouring over our naked entangled bodies. I gave him a deep kiss and he put me down on the floor and gave me a smile and said "I've missed you.". I smiled and said "Good becuase I love the welcoming I get when I come home.". He smiled and kissed me nad ran his fingers carefully over my bare body. I smiled and then we took an actual shower and when we were done we went out to our room and put some cozy and soft clothes and then we were about to go downstairs for dinner but Jared took a hold of my arm and pulled me into his arms and hugged me. I just smiled and closed my eyes and enjoyed his strong arms around my body and his scent and just everything about him at that moment. He whispered "I love you so much." I smiled and said "I love you too.". He gave me a soft kiss and then we walked down the stairs hand in hand.

When we got to the kitchen everyone was already sitting around the table so we joined them adn then we started to eat. It was so nice to have tove home again and we had a really nice family dinner. All of the sudden Jensen asked "So now you have found a new boxing buddy?". I laughed and said "Are you jealous or something jensen ackles?" he said "no..." and then everyone started to laugh and I said "Well... anyone can come with me and nicky when we go boxing, if you want to. And we can go without Nicky also.". Jensen nodded and Jared took my hand and said "I'm glad you had a good day with Nicky today.". I smiled and then I said "Thank you so much baby. So how did it go for you and Jensen shopping today then?". Jared just laughed and Jensen said "It was really fun becuase everyone that saw us where like staring at us really funny.". Everyone started to laugh nad I said "They must have thought you guys were a couple. Not that I blame then because tove and I have wondered the same thing.". Jared and Jensen stared at me and Tove and said "What? why?". I looked at Tove and we just smiled and I said "Becuase you guys are so close adn soooo cute when you are together.". Jared just shook his head and said "Well I think both me and Jensen can say that we are straight and that we are happy with the girls we are in love with.". I smiled and he kissed me and then we just continued talking about everything and nothing.

After dinner we all just sat down in the livingroom and watched a few movies and the grown ups took a glass of wine or a beer and we just had a really good time. But after a such eventful day i was really tired so I said goodnight to everyone and went upstairs to blog and now Jared came too so we are going to sleep now. i can't wait to feel his strong safe arms around my body soon. And if you're wondering about where that playing in the snow went... I'm to fucking tired to do that :P We'll do it tomorrow insted :D See ya!!

Take care
Love
Madde