Madde!

Hey guys!
What's up? Well let me tell you about another intresting day a pretty good day acutally :)

I woke up with my back agianst Jensen and I looked at Dennie who was still a sleep in the crib and she looked so cute, I almost just wanted to eat her up because she was just so cute, I smiled and got up from bed and walked over to the crib and looked down at her sleeping so peaceful and I couldn't stop smiling. I reach after her tiny hand and touched it and I just stood there a while smiling and looking at the most beautiful girl alive and I can't believe she is mine. Then I heard that perfect voice behind me and he said " That sigt makes me so happy. " I smiled and tured around and looked at him in the bed and he had a huge smile on his face and he said " That you are looking at our baby with so much love and happiness, I never thought in a milloin years that would happend" I smiled and said " I'm so glad I make you happy" He smiled and recah out his arm as a sign showing me that he wanetd me back in bed, I smiled and took his hand in mine and he pulled me into the bed and kissed me and I got up and sat astried over him and stroke his naked cheast with my hands and he smiled and I bend my head down and started to kiss him and he kissed me back with even more eager and his hand moved up under my top over my back and to my boobs. He started to carness my boobs and I kissed his neck and cheast then all the sudden he brust out laughing and I stop kissing him and stare at him like he is totally insane! I asked what he was laughing about and he laughed and said " I think I carness your boob to hard because it started to leak. You really need to get milked soon " I said " Ha-ha really funny now it sounds like I'm cow" He just laughed even more and I said " Shut up farmer man! " He laughed and he said " Make me" I sign and strated to kiss him again and he pulled my top off and I kissed his neck and stroke my hand slowly into his boxers but then Dennie started to scream and Jensen said " Is she all reday starting to inturrupted her mom and dad for having fun. " I laughed and said " Yeah I think so. " I gave Jensen a last kiss and got up and picked Dennie up and then she stopped crying, so I walked back to bed and lied down and Jensen kissed her head and then he kissed my cheek and smiled and said " My two favorit girls in this whole world " I smiled and said " I love you " He stroke my cheek and said " I love you too honey" I smiled and then Jensen said " So are things with you and Madde good now? " I sign and said " Have things between me and Madde ever been good this year? " Jensen said " Maybe not... but it seems like you are friends when you, me, Jared and Madde is hanging out then it seems like it's okay.. " I said " Yeah it is okay, but not more then okay. Not like it use to be.. it feels like we are just moving around in a bad circle all the time. It's more unusual that we ate friends this days then fighting because that is all we do. And it feels like every day we fight we slowly slip away from each other more and more.. yesterday I asked her if we maybe should just give up and go our separate ways just to stop this pain we are causing each other from every fight... " Jensen said " Would you be able to live without her? " I could feel tears started to burn in my eyes and I fought them back and said " No.. I can't live without her, I would rather die, she means the world to me and I would never be happy without her by my side everyday, I need her.. " Jensen said " But? " I sign and said " But.. I can't live like this either.. " Tears started to roll down my cheeks, and a tear dropped down on Dennies head and Jensen gently dried a few tears away from my face and he took Dennie from me and walked over to her bed and gave her a toy and lied her down. Then he walked over to me and pulled me into his arms and I cryed agianst his shoulder, and he just sat there holding me and comforting me just was I needed, I'm the luckyiest woman in this world to have him and to have a baby that is so perfect and for having an amazing best friend and for having a greta family, I just wish we could stop fighting..

When he let go of me he kissed me and said " Are you okay?" I shocked my head and said " No I'm not okay " Jensen nodded and kissed my forhead we just sat there for a while longer then I got up and got dressed and Jensen put on pair of pants and picked up Dennie and we walked downstairs into the kitchen where the whole family was sitting. Jensen said good morning but I just looked at Madde and she looked back at me and I could see tears buildig up in her eyes and in mine too. We stood there looking at each other for a few seconds then she got up from teh chair she was sitting at and took a few steps closer to me and then she brust out crying, I just walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her and she hugged me back a tear rolled down my cheek and I kissed her bare shoulder and then she cried " Don't leave me, please!! I will be better I will make it up to you, just don't leave!!" I stroke her head with my hand and said " I will never leave you honey, never. I need you and I love you so much " Then she just cried even more and said " I love you too!" I kissed her cheek and she cried " I don't want to fight anymore, I need you in my life as my best best freind!" Another tear roll down my cheek and I said " I'm also tired of that why can't everything be like it use to be.. " Madde cried " Let's not fight anymore, okay? " I said " Okay.. but we have said that before too and that didn't work so well.." Madde said " this time it will it need to.. And I'm so sorry how I have treated you this year. " I said " I know you are sorry, I'm also sorry how I have been treating you, but I'm not sorry for what I have said.. " Madde said " I know your not.. but I love you so much and I can't live without you I would never be happy, so we need to try agian and again and again intill we are where we where.. " I said " I love you too, so much, I would never be happy either without you, you are a part of me, and yeah we will make it we just have to start talking about everything again and often. " Madde said " Yeah we do like everyday.. " I nodded and then we just stod ther holding each other for a while. When we let go I looked at her and tried a few tears away from her face with my hand and then I took a grip with my hands on her hand and pulled her closer to me and kissed her forhead and she looked into my eyes and said " I love you, I really do and I really do need you more then anyone else and I mean that. " I smiled and said " And I love you and I need you too, it have always been you and me against the world and I want it to countinue like that always" She smiled and took my hand and stroke it. When she let go I smiled and I walked away and made breakfast and sat down next to her and Jensen and everything feelt so much better. What I have realized this year is that I can't be without her no matter what she do and that is a amazing feeling but at the same time scary but I like it :)

When everyone had eated we sat there talking and then Dennie woke up and she was hungry so I walked away into the livingroom and said that everyone was going to stay in the kitchen and when I had feed her I walked back into the kitchen and said " I think I'm going to go out running and I take Ebba with me " Everyone was staring at me with big eyes and there chin almost droped to the floor and I looked at them and said " What?" Jensen said chocked " You running? " I said " Yeah me running, I have to get ride of this stomach I have" Madde said " What are you talking about? You don't have a belly, not a big one anyway " I said " Yes I have more then before I was pregnant anyway and I will lose that before next week trust me" No one said anything they where just staring at me I just shocked my head and walked upstairs and changed clothes and walke downstairs and gave Jensen a kiss and all of them still lokked chocked and I got Ebba and weny outside in the cold winter day. I started to run, I hate running or working out at all but if I have decide to do something then I do it, so soon I will have my body back, YAY!!
When I had been running for like 45 minuts I went home and got straigt up to my room and took a shower and got dressed and when I got out of there Jensen was sitting at the bed and he smiled and said " You have acutally been running? " I nodded and he pulled me closer and I bend down and kissed him, he smiled and said " Now I have to take a shower. " I nodded and he gave me another kiss and walked into the bathroom. I lied down on the bed and read a book and then Jensens phone strated to ring and I looked at the phone and it stood grandma and grandpa and I have acutlly never talked to them before and don't ask me why it just never happend, so I thought for a few seconds if I was going to answer but I decided that I would so I picked up and said " Hello? " I heard a old woman voice so I understood that it was his grandma Chleo and she said " This is Jensens grandma, is this Tove? " I smiled and said " Yes it is, nice to finally talk to you " She laughed and said " Yeah it really is, and I have heard so much about you both from Jensen and the whole family Ackles and I have heard over and over how amazing you are" I smiled and said " They are so sweeit, so Ms. Ackles how are you and your husband then? " She said" Me and Jack are just good sweeit, and please call us Chleo and Jack. " I said " That is great and I will do that thanks. " She said " So how are things with you and Jensen then? " I said " Everything is amazing, he is an amazing man in so many ways and so handsome and I love him so much" She said happy " Yeah he really is I'm so proud of my grandson he has growed up to a great man " I smiled and said " Yeah he really have, he so sweeit and considerate and emotional man not as anyone else I know and that makes him so special. " She said " I'm so happy he haves you by his side. To be honest when he told me that he had found the love of his life in sweden and he told me about you and your family and I wasn't that happy about that and when he said you where engeged I got really upset because I thought you was going to be a rich spoiled young woman that wanted everything served on a silver plate and was use to get what you wanted all the time and just wanted Jensen because he is famous. But after talking to you now for a few minuts I relize that my thoughts of you where just in my head and I know you love Jensen more then anything. " I smiled and said " What made you change your mind if you don't mind me asking? " She said " Because everyword you say about him, you say with your heart and with so much love, and I don't think anyone can be such a good actor to talk like that without meaning it " I smiled and said " I'm the worst actor you can find in this whole world trust me " She laughed and said " Good that your getting married to an actor then so he maybe can teach you something" I laughed and said " Maybe. " Then she said " So what do you like to do to make the days go? " I said " I'm a really animal person but I bet Jensen have all ready said that.. and I like cooking that is just so fun to try out new things, and of course speanding time with my family and Jensen included and I love speanding time with my best friend Madde, then I don't know " She said " You cook? that's great " I smiled and then she said " Don't you have a sister called Madde too? " I smiled and said " Yes I have but my best friend also of is my sister. " Chleo said " Oh that must be nice it's not many sisters that is so close. " I smiled and said " We are not sisters by blood but she have almost been in my life forever and she is living here so I think of her as my sister and my best friend. " She said " So nice, you must have an amazing mum to take in kids who isn't her own " I said " yeah she is amazing, she also took care of her brothers kids Sara and Carola and then Saras best friend Zara. " She said " That is amazing, I'm really looking forward to meet her, and you of course " I smiled and said " We are looking forward to meet you guys too " She said " So sweet, so teel me a little about your best friend? " I smiled and said " She is a blonde beautiful woman that I adore so much and look up to. She is always there and I can talk to her about everything. She is sweet, honest, thoughtful, carring and aboultly gorgeous woman. She have been there with me for every part of my life, the first time I embarresed myself, the first time I kissed a boy, the first time I got heartbroken, the first time I got cancer, the first time I got teasen in school, first time I was in love, the first time I drank to much, the first time I meet Jensen and so on. She is always there and I love her so much" Chloe said " She sounds like an amazing woman" I smiled and said " yeah she is" Then she said " So how are my grand grand daughter doing? " I smiled and said " She is just great and so beautiful" She said " I can imadgen that, I can't wait intill the weeding for so many reasons and one of them is that I get to see her " I smiled and then Jensen walked out from the bathroom and he looked at me confused because I was talking in his phone and I smiled and looked at Jensens sexy abs since he was just wearing a towle and I said to Chloe " Now your gorgeous grandson is standing here looking at me confused woundering who I'm talking too" She laughed and I said " Do you want to talk to him? " She said " I would love too, it was great talking to you, you wasn't even close what I imadgen and this was so much better " I smiled and said " Thanks, I'm really looking forward to meeting you guys " She said " So are we, bye honey " I smiled and said " bye " I reach out the phone towards Jensen and he walked over to me still just as confused and lied down on the bed next to me and took the phone and said " Hello? " When he hear who it was he started to talk. He looked so sexy there on the bed in just his towle so I smiled and started to stroke his amazing abs that was still a little wet from the shower and it feelt so great under my hand. Jensen looked at my hand on his abs and then at me and smiled and I stroke his cheast and then his abs agian and I looked at the towel and I could see that it started to point up alittle, so I smiled and slowly undid the towel and throw it on the floor. I looked at his beast and it was allredya little worked up and I looked at Jensen who was still talking in the phone and he looked at me and shocked his head as a sign that I shouldn't toouch it, but do you think I listen, no. ;) I stroke his abs down to his beast and before I touched it I looked at Jensen and he just shocked his head agian even harder but i just gave him a cheesy smiled and let my finger tops gently touch his beast up and down and I could se that he liked it because it got up a little more and I smiled and took it in my hand and started to move and I looked at Jensen and he looked terffied at me and I could see how he was holding himself back from moanig, because he was closing his eyes and made funny faces and he whipser to me " Please stop " I just laughe and countinued and said " If you want me to stop why don't you just take my hand away for you " He whisperd " I can't " I laughed and said " Then bad for you " I started to move faster and it gpt even hader and I could see how hard it was for him not to moan and I smiled and started to use my tounge insted on the top which I know he loves and I looked at him and he had squeezeing the cover with the hand he wasn't holding the phone with and then I started to use my whole mouth and he was really hard right now and I could feel how his muscels got more and more tence so he was pretty close and he had a really hard time to keep it together and I stroke his abs with my hand and I could see how he started to breath faster and faster and he had a really big problem to talk like a normal person. And then I heard him say " I sound funny? Maybe it's a cold or something.. " I just laughed and countinued with my tounge and lips and he got more and more teance and he got harder and harder to not moan and his cheast was moving faster and fastr up and down. I started to go even faster and then I hear him say with a really strained voice " I'm coming now.. " Then he relaized what he just had said and he chnaged fast and said " Grandma I really have to go now Tove is waiting on me, bye love you !" I don't even think she got a chance to say bye because he just hand up and he moan really load of pleasure and I tok it out and started to use my hands and I said " Did you just say that you where coming to your grandma?" He said " That is so embarassing and it's your fauilt " I laughed and started to lick the top of his beast again and he was moaning really load more then he useally do and he moan " I'm coming! This is so good!!" I smiled and stopped useing my tonuge and stared to move my hand really fast and he moan really load and he came and he could barely sit still. Then I smiled and gave him a kiss and said " Was it good?" He nodded and said " I just wish you can have sex with me soon, I miss beeing one with you " I smiled and said " So do I" He kissed me and I said " I just wonder what your grandma was thinking " jensen laughed and said " Shut up!" I laughed and then the door opend up and Jensen was still all naked on the bed and Madde walked throw the door and she just looked at Jensen and said " OMG!!" Then she started to laugh and closed the door. I lauged too but Jensen looked so embaressed and he was so cute and he just said " I'm talking a new shower " Then he walked into bathroom.

I walked over to Madde and Jareds room and opend the door and Madde was sitt in the bed with her computer and when she saw me both of us started to laugh and I lied down on the bed and we just laughed and laughed and luaghed. When we had calm down a littlse she said " So what had you two been doing then? " I said " We didn't do anything, I helped him because he was talking to his grandma" Then me and Madde brust out laughing again and it was so great to just be able to do that with her. Then I said" So what did you want? " She smiled and said " I thought maybe you and me could hang out, if you want to? " I smiled and ook her hand and said " You don't ask that of course I want too honey, so what do you want to do? " She smiled and said " I don't know, watch a movie? " I said " Just if there is super sexy guys in it" Madde smiled and said " Of course what else. " I laughed and said " Yeah what else. " She smiled and said " This feels so amazing to just sit there with you just you and me and having a good time and look a guys " I smiled and said " I know excatlly how you fell. " Madde said " I can't wait intill we are going out on friday, party! We are back!" I lauged and said " Yeah we are! Here we come!" Then we laughed again and Madde said " What are we going to watch? " I smiled and said " I know, we can have a supernatural marathon " She smiled and said " Oh yeah best idea of the whole day " I laughed and walked over to a movie room and started to watch the first season where the guys look so young and cute it's crazy how much they have growen up in this years. Then it knocked on the door and we pressed pause and Jared and Jensen steped in and Jensen had Dennie with him. Jared said " You are watching supernatural and drooling over us? " I laughed and said " Of course we are Jared and Madde is totally in love with Dean" Jared said " Why not Sam? " Madde said " Because me and Dean is like meant to be he is me but a guy, he has everything! " Then she looked at Jensen and said " Can't you be Dean someday for me? " jensen laughed and said " In your dreams" I laughed and he said " Me and Jared is taking the car and is going to drive around and maybe go the gym we will see what's happend since we are not welcome her with you, and I my qustion is can you take care of Dennie? " I smiled and said " Of course I can, go and have fun" He walked over to me and gave me Dennie and gave me a kiss and Jared gave Madde a kiss and then they left. I lied Dennie in the middle of me and Madde and I could see how Madde was looking at her all the time smiling and how she touch her hand a little since she thought I didn't see that and they wheer so cute :) After a few episodes I said " I need to go to the bathroom, look after Dennie " Madde looked at me teriffied and said " No! Think if she fall down or somthing!" I said " Don't worry she will be fine and so will you" Before she got the chance to say anything else I walked out from the room and into the bathroom.
When I was done I walked back and quitly upend the door and I looked at them and Dennie was awake on the sofa and Madde had a huge smile on her face and she was talking to her and touching her and I just smiled. When I had stood there for a couple of minuts I walked over to them without pretending I have seen them and Madde just changed face from happy to scared, I just schocked my head and laugh and we countinued watching. I picked Dennie up and kissed her and she was smiling and I looked at Madde who was lookig at me in the corner of her eye and she had a little smile on her face so I sat up a little and looked at Madde and gently lied down Dennie in Maddes lap, she siad terffied" Take her away! I don't want her " I smiled and said " If you dn't want her then you take her away " Madde said " Fine I will!" I nodded and after 5 minuts Dennie was still in Maddes lap. Then she started to screm and Madde got really upset and said " What?!! What should I do?! Help me?!!" I laughed and said " She is just hungry, I be back soon " I took her from Madde and left the room and walked away to feed her. When I was done I walked back to the movie room and lied Dennie in Maddes lap again and Madde said " How can you hear that she is hungry? It's just a horrible sound!" I said " I don't know, I just do. " Madde nodded and tured on Supernatural again.
Then Johan called out that it was dinner, so we walked down stairs and Jensen and Jared was still not home so we had to eat without them. It was a really great dinner we talk and laughed about everything, the only bad thing was that I missed Jensen so much!! I know I'm a geek but I did miss him!!

After dinner me, Madde and of course Dennie went upstairs and countunied watching Supernatural. Around ten it knocked on the door and Jared and Jensen walked in and Jared said " Are you still watching that!" We nodded and then Jared said " Me and Jensen was has decided that you two are going to join us and play video games" Both me and Madde started at them like they where crazy since non of us are not that big of a fan of video games, Jensen said " It's not any game it's Nintendo 64 and Mario party, come on" We sign and said " fine. " We followed them to the game room and sat down and started the game. I was peach since she pink of course which everyone was bullying me for, Jensen was D.K without a dick, Madde was Yoshi with cheeks like melons, and Jared was Luigi who is tall like himself :P
We started to play and it was pretty fun since I won the first games and just made those other three so pissed off :P haha then we got into teams on one games, me and Jared aginst Madde and Jensen and they where all reday fighting and threating each other, when the game started they sucked and me and Jared won and we started to yell and gave each other high fives. Madde was in first place becuase she had most money, but then Jared got to a ghost and stolded 21 coins from her and she got so pissed off and hit him and said " Jared padalecki you are not getting sex in a whole week do you hear me?!! Dick!" Jared just looked at her said and we countinued playing. Then Jensen bought a star and Madde and Jared started to yell at him and I just laughed and after a few more rounds I also bought a star and they stared to yell at me too. Then that fucking bitch also called Madde stol the star from me, bitch!!! And she was like juping around on the floor of happiniess, bitch! Then Jared got to another ghost and he had 50 coins so of course he took the star from Madde since she has most money too and do think Madde reacted well? NO :P She was hitting him and yelling at him like crazy!! Then she said so angry " I'm sleeping with Johan tonight!! i will never sleep with you!" Jared looked at her like he didn't believe her but Madde just ignored him and then I got another star and all three of them look furious at me and I just smiled. After a while Madde finally bought a new star but she didn't have most money now because Jensen had. After a few more mini games Jensen bought another star, and Madde wad yelling at him and hit him and Jensen just smiled and countinued playing. Then Madde bought also another star and Jensen was now lead with a few coints, but I was teh one with the most money but I just had one star so I was still in thitd place. When it was like 5 times left it was so thight between Madde and Jensen and both of them look furious at each other there eyes where black almost. At the end Jensen was at first place, but then it is that part left where like Toad out stars for like most money, most stars and so on. I got the star for most money so now I had two. Jared got for like best fight or something so he also had two. And then Jensen and Madde got a star for most stars and then it was one star left and it looks could kill then Madde and Jensen would be death right now. And the winner was...... Madde!! She was like jumping up and down and teasing Jensen and the rest off us and Jared said " Now you can sleep next to me, you won" Madde looked at him like he was crazy and said " No way! I'm sleeping with Johan!! " Then she left the room and walked over to Johan I think.

Jensen was so pissed of that I can't even describe ít and we said good night to Jared and I draged Jensen back to our room where dennie was sleeping. Jensen didn't say a word he just looked furious he got undressed and crawled down in bed and I smiled and tried to kis shim but he didn't kiss me back and I stroke his cheast but no reaction, so I started to get really pissed of at him too. Then it knoked on the door and Jared walked throw it and he looked sad and said " can't I sleep here with you guys? I hate sleeping alone.. " I said " No you can't.. " he looked even more sad and I said " Because I'm going to come with you and sleep next to you insted of Jensen!" Jared smiled and I got up from bed and Jensen just stared at me and I just ignored it and followed Jared throw the door and into his and Maddes and his room. We crawled down in the bed and we talked for a while and then he said " should we sleep it's all reday over 4? " I smiled and said " Yeah soon, I just have to blogg " He nooded and started to read a book and I picked up Maddes computere and stared to blogg and here I'm. Now I'm going to go to sleep next to Jared which is kind of cozy I love hanging out with him. Jared just said " This was kind of cozy if you ask me and I love talking to you. " I smiled and said " Yeah it is and I love it too " jared smiled and said " Maybe we should change so you get me for a night and Madde get Jensen to talk to and then I just mean talk. " I smiled and said " Yeah I would like that. Because I want to show Madde and Jensen that I really trust them when they are together in bed like they use to do back then I want them to be those friends again if you know what I mean. " Jared said " Yeah I know and I still think that they understands that they are to afrid of hurting you again " I said " I know and I really trust them and I would love it they speand the night together now and then talking as they did this summer, I want her to be abel to talk him. " Jared said " So do I, tell them that" I said " Thanks Jared I will " He smiled and said " I love you" I smiled and said " I love you too" he smiled and said " Should we sleep? " I smiled and said " Yes, I'm just going to wrapp this up" He nodded so now I really have to go.

I just have to say that now I have named two of my inlays with two amazing people that have affected me in so many ways and that I love so much. So Madde and Jensen I love you guys so much more then every word on this earth can say, you guys are the best :)

So tomorrow you will probaly here about Maddes night with Johan and what mom thought about that :P haha
Well now I'm going to sleep next to one of my best freinds, so good night people!
Kisses
Tove