The big day

Hi... we just got home from the hospital vistit...

Madde broke down like she said she would I don't blame her, the moste importantly is that she was there for me for evrey moment, I love you!

But we are lucky that you are the weak one of us this time and I'm the stroger one.

But I don't know what's going to happend now, I don't know how to react to this...

Maybe you all ready have understand that the hospital visit didn't go so well, they told me that I had lever liver cancer and it was kind of serious so I have to start with chemotherapy next week... So I just have to enjoy my hair this week, madde kan you shave my head then? because I don't think I can do it by myself, then we can cry together during the shaving .

So last party weekend for a while now, I'm going to drink my sorrows away I need that!

I think madde need that too, because she a little down now, as my whole family.

I don't get it why just me, It have all ready been my turn why again, why. I know that's selfish but sometimes you just have to be selfish evreybody have been there I'm sure.

But I just don't get, but ít explains why I have lost weight for a few month now.

Everything start to look more and more like when I was a kid... I'm sick again and evrybody are afraid that I'm going to die and Niklas is back again just like it just to be..

I hang out to much with madde I think because now I always do just like here while I write I always use this dots...

I can't be good to hang out with her to much because I get more and more like her evrey day that gose by, she's an amzing person but I don't think It woluld be good for us if we where equal because then we would just fight even more :P

And madde stop saying that it is kellan i never said that, and even if it was that dosen't matter because I don't have lovers like you ;) so sry ;) haha

This was all from me for to day, but I will be back.

Take care of yourself and other around you!

Peace!