I got it, not!

Hi!

I think the most boring ever you can do is to spe

nd a weekend at a hospital! Because evreything is exactly the same, th

ere is no diffrents beliween a wensday and a Satuday here! So it's hard to know which day it's all the time!

But I'm pretty sure that it's Monday today, or we can also call it Maddeday just 

because she hate Mondays!

I just have to start saying to you all that I don't think that with Tobbe was a mistake, even though Madde see

ms to think so. Now she is pissed of both me and Tobbe, but I think she is more m

ad at Tobbe, which I don't understand because it asmuch my faulit if now can call it a fauilt. So Madde plz don't yell at him, is not afride o

f you so he will just be mad at you!

I don't care what Madde say, I don't think even she has the power to control how visit me or not, and I think it's my busnisses who I meet or not! I know I'm not suppose to have sex but I just have to! Evrey bodypart in my body is just pine after

 sex and that's all I can think about!

So I just have to do it! Madde you should stop reading here if you not want to be even more anrgey with me right now! It's just a wardning!

I acutally called Tobbe this mordning before the morning roaund and asked if he wanted to come here, and he said yes. So in 20 minutes he was here. As fast as he walk inside my room we just started to make out on the bed, I took he's shirt of and looked at he's nice abs then I gently kissed he's cheast and then we started to make out again and I pull 

y hands trow he's

 messy hair, he slowly look off my top and then he kissed me on the neck so genly but it feelt so amzingly, I just wanted to ripe my heart out because it was

 so good! And ofcourse ripe he's pan

t's off too which I did ;) Grr I just love he's ass, he's just

 SOO hot!

Then my pants got off to, it was just wounderul to feel he's body over mine and he's hands touching me evreywhere and feel he's soft lips against mine! I could feel that the foreplay was working for he's sake, if you know what I mean ;) Then I just wanted to come to the sex part, I just wanted to feel him inside me right a way! But unfortunately we never got there!

!! I'm so fucking mad!! I could hear Henriks voice outside, they had started with the rounds ealier then uselly! I just wanted to hit him really hard!! I could hear that my room was the next one, so Tobbe went into the bathroom and got dressed and I just throw my clothse on as fast as I could!When Henrik walk into my room Tobbe just came out fr

om the bathroom, and I think Henrik got a little chocked, he just said that I had companie earlie. Oh I was so mad and honey!! 

Madde just told me that she will find me babysiter or that she will be m

y babysiter all day and night long if she find out that I have sex or get alchol from someone :Phaha We will see about that :P

I can tell you all  a little about my drinking plane I have :P Like y

ou know Madde refuse to give me any booze! So I had to a

sk someone else and I know exatly how to ask! ;) haha So sr

y Madde you just have t

o babysit me or someone else, a guy is never wrong ;) 

Well Maddes brother came and suprised me today without calling, but he was excatly the guy I wanted to meet because my whole pla

n is built on him ;) So when he came by I asked him

 if he could get me a vodka bottle from some friend, and he said ofcouse yes to help me

 ;) Sometimes I just love to be a women :P 

I did warn him that Madde was going to be really mad, but he just smiled at said that he diden't care and that he would do anything for me!

 ;) So know I think he's even more hot then before ;) So after 30 minuts he was back with a big bottle, I huged him and kissed him on the cheek, I think he wanted more then that, but I know Madde would kill me! 

He stayed for a while we flirtied alittle we talked alittle nothing more.

We had a great time acutally, and he said that he would come back really soon and visit me again  :) 

When Linus had got home Dr.Sexy stepped into my room again, I was in a better mood this time because I had my bottle hiden in the closet :P haha

He asked if I where alone this time becuase that almost never happends :P 

And I said I was. I had to undress myself I little like always so he can listen to my heart and lungs. He slowly pressed the colded stethoscope to my che

ast, I immediately started to freeze, but then I looked at him into he's eyes they are so amzingly blue and when he meet my glance I immediately got warm on the inside again. 

Then I thought I have embarressed myslef so many times for him right now so I can just kiss him, because if he dosen't kiss me back then it's not the first time I embarrassing myself infront of him, and what the fuck Madde has kissed him, I can't let her take the lead in all this an

d win! 

So slowly touched he's face with my hand, I genlt let it slide over he's cheek and he's lip

s, he just looked deep into my eyes, then he got even closer to me, and then he kissed me I 

could feel he's soft lips pressed aginst mine, I could feel how my heart was pumping faster and I thought my veins was going to explode inside my body! I know he could hear it too becasue he still had the stethoscope pressed against my cheast, and I could see that h

e heard it too, because while I was kissing him he started to smile, but I diden't care this time aslong as he has he's lips against mine. 

I don't understand what's up with me and guys this week, it i

s me how are to horney is that why evrey guy is all over me? 

Well the kisses got a little wilder between us, I was allreday undressed so he strock me on my naked back and I unbutten he's shirt and I touched he's cheast and he's abs with my hand, he was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much hotter then I have ever imagen! But then we heard someone call he's name outside in the corridor, so we had to wake up to reality and understand that what we where doing is illegal and I'm not even aloud to have sex! So he just got dressed and looked at me and smiled and when outside my room  again. I just lay there and coulden't move! 

Sex for me today isen't going that well, two guys but never

 gotten to the sex part! 

Madde you shoulden't be reading this either because then you think you really have to find myself a babysiter! But you don't! 

Madde was worried that I was going to make him disappointed with my kissing, but sy honey I think he was more then satisfied! ;) haha 

And to be perfectly honest I'm kisser of us two, when Madde is better at the sex part I think ;P haha But Madde refuse to admit that I'm a better kisser th

en her :P haha

So I don't think you have to worry about him ;) 

This is acutally the first time Madde find out about this, I wanted her to taste her own medicine! :P  But I think he was happy anway ;) I was ;) She dosen't know about Tobbe either or the wounderful visit from her brother, so I think she will not be so happy wit me right now...

A hour after Henrik had left Madde came to visit me like always :) 

I know she wanted to meet Henrik today but i told her th

at he had the rest of the day off because he's mother turning 50 years old today! :) 

But we talk about him like always I have ;) But she diden't know what I have done with him ;) 

Then we talked aliitle about Eddie and her father and then about Nico! 

I think Madde is starting to fall or Nico again, which is not good because she will just get hurt, but she told me that she don't want to feel like this because she don't want to loose him as a friend, so she just have to get over those feelings in someway... 

Madde told you yesterday that I maybe was not suppose to write today because I'm going to do alot of diffrent tests but that was postpone till wensday because Dr. Sexy wanted to be present then, so on wensday I probaly not going to write but on Thursday I will ;)

Well now I'm going to take my bottle and drink some pure vodka in my lonlyness, I'm not going to need much because it was ages seens I drank.  I just need to get aliitle drunk, I don't care what Madde say! I can tell you right now I'm sorry for this and when you call me soon like always I'm soory if I say something stupied! 

Well See ya! 

Peace out! 

Tove