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Another day in prison with the white walls!

I just want to go home! I'm tired to be here, it's nothing to do! But I can't go home yet, so if you don't have anything to do, then come and vistit me I need companie! Yes I know I have my brother, but how fun is he! But it's better then nothing anyway, but he's going home tomorrow so then I'm going to be all alone!

But I'm lucky that my famliy vistit me evreyday, and Madde almost stay the whole day with me, but I still feel lonly, that's just because I'm use to have people around me all the time. But when I think about it is quite nice also, although not for several weeks.

But when I'm alone I read, so that's nice, because it was along time ago I had time for that.

Well today I have acutally walked around for a few minutes, but I diden't have that much energy, but a few steps I could take, that's positive :)

Madde look I'm positive right now ;) But I can't promis that it will last the whole inlay I doubt it! :P But we can hope anyway!

Like you now if you read Maddes last inlay, she brought her "new" brother here.

They have never meet before yesterday but they where exactly alike! I know Madde dosne't think so, but thet where! Both on the outside and on the inside, it was really fascinating!

Both of them just thinks about one thing and that's sex! You all know who Madde is, and her brother is just 15 and he's allreday like Madde. He was practically ALL OVER ME! It was kind of weird but kind of funny too :P haha

And to be perfectly honest it was kind of nice to ... Because it have been a while seens someone notice me as a women and not just a sick person, so that was kind of great but it was scare at the same time!

Yeah Madde I know he's 15 and he's your brother, but I'm just saying it!

Well Madde are lucky who has a brother who is just like her, because if she had a sister she would of killed her :P And that woulden't be good ;P

Then ofcouse my sexy docter have been with me for a while ;) He's to hot and sexy to be true!

Today he was the one who was going to examine me, he squeeze on my stomac and he listen to my heart and lungs. When he touched me, I just feelt like I was in heaven! If I had been a guy and he a girl, I would of been hard when he touched me! That's who I feelt! ;) haha

I thought I was going to have a heartattack! I just want to have him!

I hate that he has almost seen me naked and I haven't seen him at all, that's kind of unfair I think!

Now it hit me! Oh I hope not! I hope my heart diden't stared beeting faster when he was listning to it! That' just totally embarrassing!! But He acutally looked kind of funny at me, but that never hit then!

OMG I hope not! And Madde don't laugh!!!

I have to tell you about me and Maddes competition! ;P It's going to start when I get out from the hospital. The competition is about Henrik ;) How get to kiss him first, and it have to be a really kiss, so he kiss you back ;) But I'm pretty sure that Madde is going to win because she always win when the competition is about a guy, and I think she also thinks she's going to win ;) Because she always think so, and she HATES to lose! I just have to hope that he's not shallowed because then I don't have a chance, because she's so beautiful an I'm not. So I just have to hope that he likes my personality instead or that he dosne't like blonds with big boobs, but he is a guy so why shoulden't he!!

Madde thinks I have a little advantage because I meet him all the time and talk to him, but I just think that's worse because he only think about me as he's patient. So she has the advantage, just because she looked like she lookes! Maybe I should change wig to a blond one and to a boob job or something ;) haha

Well this competition is going to be intersting but I'm pretty sure I'm going to lose, but you will hear much more about it I promis ;) haha I just hope we dosen't start to fight abut him...

Today I talked to my famliy about Madde, because she thinks they hate her. Baby don't be mad because I talked to then, but I had to because I can't see you like this anymore!

And Madde they don't hate you, they just don't know how to act and especially now when Eddie is in the house too, but they said taht everything will go back to normal as soon as possible. And they said that they could never hate you, they love you like as a daughter and as a sister!

And my mum promised me that she would talk to you about this and some other things, so honey like I have said evreything is going to be just fine eventually, you just have to give ous some time! :)

Yesterday Kellan when from 23 to 24 years old :) So Happy Birthday Kellan! :D

Like you all know I know Kellan pretty well we have spend a lot of time together so I had to give him something special. And like you also know I have been in the hospital for a while now, and here they don't really have the best stores to by the best giftes in and for the second I can't even walk. So it was kind of diffecult for me. So when he and Madde showed up at the hospital the only thing he got from me today was a chocolate box and flowers ;P That was all I could find!

But when I get out of here, then he will get my real present ;P I just don't know what yet... Maybe I will cook for him hmm.. Or maybe I will bring him to the stable and give him a ride, that he would love.. NOT ;) haha

If you have suggestion, plz don't be shy! Tell me, I need your help!
Well we will see what's happing, I promis I will tell you more about this in some other inlay! :)

I just have to tell you about Madde, she always think she knows evreything about me ;P Like you all knwe she was obsessed with Kellan that I like him, and now she's obsessed with Kian instead, she think I like him, or like she said she KNOW I like him! ;P Which is just stupied!

So know I have to make out with him just to shut her up, because she THINKS that she can see if I like him while I'm kissing him, which I just think is totally ridiculous, but she dosne't! ;P

I don't know how we will fix this with the kiss things, it would be weird if I just kissed him when Madde was in the room, but I think that is Maddes problem to solved because it was her idea ;) So Madde use your brain now ;) I want the solution tomorrow ;) haha

Honey if you can't sleep tonight now when Nico is with Zara then you can just call me when ever you like! But you will meet Nico tomorrow so you will survive I hope! Because you know that you can call him too if you like! :)

Well now I have to go, because docter Zetterlund is here again ;) haha

See ya!

Have a nice day with Madde tomorrow!

Peace out!