Doing what I do best.

Hey you lot :)

My last day at this godforsaken hospital. I can't wait till I can go home, go outside and just do stuff i love doing. Hang out with my friends at hom insted of having to be in this small room and try to have fun. An other thing that is just so great with getting out of here is that I don't have to meet Dr. Romano every single day!! It's great!! Okay, I still have to meet him later so that he can check so that I heal as I'm supposed to but I guess I can cope with that :P

Tove on the other hand is not very happy that I'm going home. She doesn't want to be alone, especially during the night and just because of that i wouldn't mind staying a few more days but I can't. But honey, I promis you that i will come and visit you everyday and when Nico has gone to China I'll come and hang out all day long. Because at that point I don't think you will need me as much as I will be needing you. + you have jensen and he will come by when ever you need him, you know that. He would never leave you.

If you read Toves inlay from yesterday then you know how much fun we had yesterday with my dear doctor. Especially when Jared and Jensen shared my bed and I was lying necxt to Tove. Well today we made him really really confused, let me tell you why.

First Jensen and Jared came over pretty early and crawled down in our beds and then we fell asleep again. When the clock had turned about 12.00 we woke up because someone was at the door. Then Shane, Mark, Nicky and Kian peeked in and asked if they could come in so we just said yeah sure. Dimitri usually comes in to our room around 13.00 so both me, jensen, jared and Tove thought we should have an other laugh with him, so when he then peeked in at that time he got a bit of a chock. Because this time he saw Nicky and Jared sitting by my bed and Jensen and Kian at Toves, then he saw me snuggleing with Shane while Tove were snuggleing with Mark. Shane did a really good job with the acting, he kissed me as soon as the door opened, I got really surprised and then he stroke my back and looked at me really sweet, I did my best not to laugh but it was really funny. But then I looked at Nico and Jared and they didn't think it was funny, both of them were just sitting there looking really mad at Shane but I just think they ot jealous. Marky and Tove ws doing a good job too and by the look on Dimitris face he got really confused. When he was supposed to examine me both Shane, Nico and Jared stood around me holding my hands and Jared were holding one hand on my shoulder. Dimitri got really uneasy and just did a quick examination and then he left. We all just bursted out laughing, I think we laught for like 15 mintuses!! Crazy but really really funny :P

When Nico, shane, kian and Mark said they had to leave I asked Nico to bring a new set of clothes with him back here so that I had something to change to. He just asked me why but I didn't feel like telling him so I just said "I just need them, will you plz bring them with you when you come back later?" He nodded and kissed my forehead and then left. Both Jared and Jensen looked at me like questionmarks but Tove knew why i needed them. I had to do something for her later that no one else can know about till after i've done it. The thing is i just hate to lie to them and especially Nico but I know he ain't going to like it so I need to be quiet about it till later.

When Nico came back later he had brought with him a pair of jeans and one of my favorite shirts and a pair of nice shoes. Before he handed them over ha asked again why i needed them and this time he was looking into my eyes and I knew he would be able to tell if I lied even though I'm a really good lier. I told him that I would tell him later and he asked "promis?" I just nodded and tried to look away but he forced me to look into his eyes, i don't know how he does it but he is really good at it. Anyway, then he said "Madde, promis me you won't do anything stupid that will get you or someone else hurt." To try and make it more convincing I looked really deeply into his eyes, said "I promis you." and gave him a deep kiss. When we broke from the kiss he smiled and said "good." then he asked if i wanted to go out to the park again and I didn't want anything else so we went out and left Jensen with Tove. (jared had gone home to fix some stuff).


When we were sitting there in the sun talking we heard a voice calling out my name. I looked at the direction and saw the face of my big brother and Sara. They came over and gave us a hug but when Niklas let go of me I punched him in the gutand all three of them got really surprised. Niklas just looked at me questioningly and I said "That was because it took you 6 days to come and visit you only sister at the hospital after she got shot!" He just shook his head and said "You can be such a pain in the ass sometime little sis." Then they sat down and we talked for awhile before we went back up to mine and toves room. There we found out that niklas isn't going to get full custody of his doughter but he get to have her as often as possible. In one way is that a good thing because Sara hates kids but it's bad for the kid because her mother is a very strange person. Then all of the sudden Sara asked Tove if she and Jensen were together again and Toves answer was "No, we're not." and i couldn't help but say as I did yesterday which is "yet!" hahahaha! :P everyone started to laugh and then Jensen gaev Tove a quick kiss and we all just smiled. I don't think anyone can be unhappy about Tove and Jensen, execpt henrik of course.

Speaking of that asswhole... When Jensen, Sara, Nico and Niklas had gone home I changed into the clothes that Nico had brought with him and then gave Tove a hug and left the room. I went to the desk and asked where Henrik might be, she just said that he had gone to his office, so that was where I went then. And she thought right, there he was, sitting by his desk working in the dark, the only lapm that was on was the one at the desk. I walked in and closed the door behind me, he looked up and when he saw me he got really surprised and aksed "Madde? What are you doing here?" I knew what I had to do because I had promised Tove, I had to do what I'm best at. So I didn't answer him but walked slowly towards him, when I reached the chair I slowly turned it so that i could look into his eyes. The thing is, his eyes weren't focusing on mine but slowly made their way over my body and stopped for awhile at my boobs and then they found my eyes. I slowly ran my fingers threw his short brown hair and then sat down in his lap. He smiled and put his hands under my shirt so i could feel his hands stroke my bare back, then he pulled me closer and gave me a kiss. I could feel how he got more and more eager and his hands were pulling my shirt off. I knew that I should go but he didn't let me go, he just held on and started to kiss me shoulder and neck and then my lips again. Then something happened that was just to much, he got alittle too excited if you know what i mean. Then I just pulled myself out of his grip and picked up my shirt from the floor. He said "What the fuck are you doing? You can't just come in here and seduce me and have fun and then leave when you got me worked up and ready to go!" I turned around and faced him and said "You are a real piece of work do you know that? You are hurting Tove and I won't let you do that anymore!" then he started to laugh and said "I'm hurting her!? you just came in here and made out with me and you are saying I'm hurting her! all you do is hurt her!" Then I just turned around and right before I closed the door I said "You are toast buddy" and then I went back to Tove to tell her what happened.

I do feel really sorry for her but I think it's for the best. I hate to see her hurt and if she's with henrik then she will get hurt. He is a player and it's really hard to take the player out of a person, ask me I know. Jensen is so much better for her and he truly loves her with all his heart. Henrik isn't going to be able to love anyone like that untill he stops fooling around or untill he finds "the one" if she is out there somewhere. But I hope this isn't going to complicate anything between them when it comes to getting Tove healthy.

Nicky is leaving for China on Monday which means I only get to spend time with him for 4 more days and three of them I will be spending with him at home. Then he will leave me and be gone for 2 weeks, God I'm going to miss him so much. I'm probobly going to call him like 50 times a day and he will probobly call me too so that he knows I'm okay. But what am i going to do when he isn't here? Sit at home doing nothing? that is just so boring!!! I suppose i can't do so much now because of my pain but Nico and I always have something to talk about. it's going to feel so empty here without him. But there is one good thing with all this ad you know what that is? He sad that when he comes back we are going to do something, just him and me. :D I think he has something planed but I'm not sure, but whatever he is thinking about it will be great I bet :D

Now I think I'm gonna go because Nico just called and siad that ha was on his way and Jensen is on his way aswell so I'm going to hang out with them soon.

Take care!
Love
Madde