太陽

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Hahahahahah I just had to write it in Japanese :P You must think that i have lost my mind and I actually think I have. :P I'm starting to get really sick of lying in here and not being able to do anything fun!! It's driving me crazy!! I know that you all are going "yeah but you got alot of people coming over to visit you" and Yes I do but I still want to be able to do something fun!!! Okay this is starting off really really bad so lets talk about something else :P

I really hope you read Toves inlay from yesterday and if not; READ IT!!! I can't beleive what a romantic guy that is hiding in that body of Jensens. He is so sweet and when Tove told me that he was willing to give her a piece of his liver then I just wanted to kiss him!! He is going to save my bestfriend and I have no idea how to thank him, i suppose i have to think of something really nice. But Tove if you hurt him now I'm going to fucking kill you!!! Anyway, they are so sweet together, you should see them. Tove wants to know what Jared and I were saying when she kissed jensen the other day so I suppose I have to tell you all. I just told him that I hoped that it was just a metter of time before Tove and jensen were together again. Jared just nodded and agreed with me. Both of us hope they will be together again because i know or I can tell by the look on Tove that she misses him and she isn't the girl she used to be when they were together, she isn't as happy and Jared have seen that without Tove jensen is a wreck! So i just hope they will be together but somehow Tove has decided that Henrik is worth a second or rather a fifth chance. I don't beleive her!! She has one of the few, very few perfect guys right infront of her and still she takes an asswhole!!?? If i had the same feelings for jensen as she does i would take him and cherish him forever. I know Tove isn't so fond of "forever" but they don't have to get married!! Oh god sometimes she can be so idiotic.

Well anyway Jensen and Jared came by today as you can imagine and we had alot of fun today as well. Both of them saw that Tove looked much better because she finally got to sleep for about 5 hours and then she woke up. I woke up at the exact time as she did and asked her if she was okay because I'm so used to that she dreams nightmares but this mornign she said that she hadn't dreamt a nightmare. I was so glad. Anyway, when we had been talking with Jensen and Jared for a while (both of them lying in our beds) Tove said to Jensen that she had dreamt of him. Both me and Jared looked at them to hear better what she said. Jensen looked at her and said "oh really, and what did you dream? Nothing bad I hope." Tove just smiled and said "No, nothing bad at all. I dreamt about our date and that it never ended, then it all changed and we were at home in my bed and it was one of those days when we never had to get up. Everything was perfect.". I just smiled for myself, it was like music to my ears to hear those words leave Toves lips. Jensen gave her a quick but passionated kiss on the lips and said "That is what i'm dreaming of everyday", After those words had been said Tove cuddled even closer to him and both of them closed their eyes. I turned to jared and smiled, he just smiled back and gave me a kiss. Somehow i could feel a meaning in that kiss, something that was more then friends and even more then friends with benefits. I just hope he isn't trying to get back together with me and I hope I'm not leading him on. That is the least i want to do because he will just end up hurt and I will blame myself and hate myself for it. While all those things were running through my head Jared hugged me thighter and I felt the chills run down my spine. I love it when he does that, presses his amazing body against mine. It's just incredible and i always get chills form it. I gave him a kiss and cuddled closer so that my hear was right above his heart. I could hear it beat and feel his chest raise and sink as he breathed. I felt so safe and at home that i just fell asleep and slept like a baby.

I woke up when the door opened and there was my doctor!! Tove and Jensen were still sleeping and the look on Dimitris was drop dead hilarious!! He looked from jensen and Tove to me and Jared and then back at the other two again. I could tell that he didn't understand shy jensen was sleeping next to tove when he yesterday said he was my boyfriend :P Jared slowly woke up and saw the doc he then got out of bed and asked if he had to do a medical examination on me and Dimitri just nodded. I don't know what was going on in that brain of his but i bet he was wondering :P I was having a hard time not to laugh but then when he started to put his hand on my stomach and move closer to my boobs i just told jared to come closer and hold my hand. Jared did as i asked and the Doc tried his best not to move higher but he did and I looked into jareds eyes and then he did just what i wanted, he gave me the most passionated kiss ever and i could feel how Dimitri removed his hands. When we broke from the kiss he just said that he was done and that everything looked fine. When he had left the room both me and Jared started to laugh and unfortunatelywe woke Tove and Jensen up but when we told them what had happened they just laught as well and joked about it.

Jared had to leave earlier then Jensen for some reason so ther I was alone with those two lovebirds but then all of the sudden the most handsome man in the universe opened the door and peeked in. I gave him a huge smile and got up to give him a hug, then he just said wait here and then he left again. I was really confused and so was Tove and Jensen because Tove just said "What was all that about?" I just shruged my shoulders and then Nicky came back with a pair of shorts, a tank top and a pair of sneakers. He told me to put them on and I had no idea why, what so ever but did as he asked. When I had changed he took my hand said goodbye to Tove and Jensen and we left the room. I asked him where we were going but he didn't say anything insted he walked towards the elevators and stairs. He konws i hate elevators and I know that he does to but I just told him that i wasn't sure I could walk down the stairs because of my wound so he said "Okay then it's up to you, either we take the elevators or I pick you up and carry you down" I just looked at him adn laught and said "well i don't have so much to choose between because I don't want you to break you back do i? So we'll take the elevators I guess.". In the elevator both of us were just waiting to get out and when the doors opened we got out as fast as possible. Then he dragged me towards the door that leads out to a small park and when we got out the sun was shining and it was really warm. we sat down on a bench and I asked what kind of strings he had to pull to get me out here. He said "I just talked to your doctor and said that the best thing for you is to be outside in the beautiful weather, then you would heal better." I didn't know how to thank him but gave him a kiss which he replyed and then I put my head on his shoulder and we just sat there for a while. It was so nice to feel the sun warm my skin and to have nico there next to me was just ontop of the world.

When we got back to the room the door was closed and we heard laughter form inside. Fisrt both me and Nico thought Tove and Jensen were doing something but then we heard other voices and walked in. Both of us got a real chock but snapped out of it and gave Shane, Kian and Mark a big hug each. I asked what they were doing here and Shane said "Well, we had to come and see you of course!! are you okay?" I just laught and said yes and that i was feeling much better, then i told Tove that I ahd been outside and she got really jealous. Then nico asked what they ahd been laughing at because he saw Toves computer open and they ahd obviously watched a youtube video. all of them just started to laugh and I think Shane alomst died and then he started this video.



I don't think I have laught so hard ever before!! Nico is just so cute and when the video was done all of us turned to him and said mmmaaahhhhh :P He just hit Shane and then looked at me with an evil eye, i couldn't help but laugh and then he cracked up as well and started to laugh. After that we were just talking about everything and nothing. I think Tove was worried that something would happen between Jensen and Kian but they are just like before everthing happened. They are friends, making fun of each other and laughing, it's great to see. Jensen even congratulated to Kian getting married soon and the atmosphere was just so calm and relaxed.

Then it was time for mine and Toves examination because both Henrik and Dimitri walked in and asked everyone to leave. Jensen gave Tove a kiss and left and I could tell that Henrik wasn't too happy with that, then Shane, Kian and Mark gave us a hug each and Nicky gave me a deep kiss and said that he would be back later, I just nodded and sat down on my bed. Dimitri then came up to me and wanted to see the wound and listen to my lugns and heart again i did as i was told and he actually kept his fingers in place. maybe because Henrik was in the same room, i think it was. He then asked who Nico was and I just said "A friend" then he came with the most stupid question ever: "Do you kiss all your friends?" I ahd no idea what to answer to that but just said "no, but he is more then just a friend" after that he didn't ask anything more and that made me very very happy :P

When our dear doctors had left the room we got another pleasant surpirse, Pontus came by. He said he had been visiting Tommys doctor, asking how Tommy was doing and when they could take him to the station. Appeariantly Tommy is doing good and is awake but he wont be able to go to yale for a few more weeks. Its kind of creepy to have him here, he shot me and kidnapped, raped and almost killed Tove, so it's really creepy. But anyway, we talked for like an hour with Pottan before he had to go back to work. It was really nice and I have missed him alot, and he is super sexy!! I have a thing for police officers ;) ahhaha

I don't realy know what else to tell you, nothing more fun has happened. Nico and Jensen came over again and we just talked and watched tv, it was really nice and to have nico there holding my hand and me having my head on his chest felt so safe and comfy. I hate it that he is leaving me soon. I'm going to miss him like crazy!!

Anyway, Tove will wright tomorrow :)
Take care
Love
Madde