Enemy? best friend?

Hola!

Still no money, still upset, still having to clean the house, still the victim of everynes anger, still can't keep my hands off Jensen, still in love with Nicky. Well that pretty much sums up everything that is going on in my life right now. But let me tell you alittle bit more specific about today.

At once when i had woken up this morning I got up and put on a top and walked over to Jareds bedroom in just a top and panties. I knocked on the door but didn't get an answer so I guessed that he was still sleeping so I carefully opened the door and peeked in and I was right, he was lying in his bed sleeping. I smiled, walked in and closed the door behind me, I walked over to his bed and nestle down in bed next to him. He mumbled alittle but wrapped his arms around me and I just laid there watching him sleep for a few hours but then I closed my eyes and just laid there in his arms. All of the sudden I felt a finger run over my face so I slowly opened my eyes and looked into Jareds beautiful eyes. He smiled and said "Well this was a nice way to wake up." I just smiled and gave him a soft kiss and asked "How are you feeling today?". He said "I don't know, you havn't given me time to feel anything yet, but I wouldn't mind if you wanted to go and get some painkillers for me.". I kissed him again and got out of bed and started to walk to the door when he said "Wow, woman you are so fucking hot!" I just turned around and smiled at him and the walked out the door to get his painkillers. When I got back he sat up in bed at took the pill and waterglass from me and drank, I sat down on the bed next to him and put a hand on his strong arm. I asked if he wanted some breakfast and he just nodded then he laid back down and he said "You don't mind making me breakfast and bringing it to me?" and then he smiled a very cheeky smile, I looked at him and smiled and said "That was what i was thinking about doing but you know I'm not as good as tove in the kitchen so I thought I should ask you what you wanted to eat.". He put his hand on mine and siad "I don't care because it's you who will bring it to me. a cup of coffee and one of those sandwiches you used to do when we were together and you wanted to spoile me." I smiled, kissed him and said "Coming right up.". I walked downstairs and met Tim and emil in the kitchen, Tim said "Well goodmorning Madde." and looked at me from top till toe. I just smiled and said "Good morning lads. So what are you guys going to go today then?". Emil said "I'm going to hang out with Wilma." and tim said "Well, Molly is coming over later so.". I turned up my nose to that and started to make Jareds sandwich and our coffee and then tim asked what i was going to do so I said "Jensen and I are going to go and look at a *beep* and then I don't know.". The boys just smiled and asked a few more questions that i can't write here because Tove can't find out yet. When the sandwich and coffee was done I brought it up to Jared and he sat up in his bed and I put down the tray infront of him. He smiled and held out his arm so that I could sit down closer to him and he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forhead and said "Thank you babe." I smiled and said "No problem, I promised I would take care of you.". When he had finished his sandwich I put a hand on his forarm and looked into his eyes and said "I'm sorry Jared. I hate that i hurt you all the time because I love you so much and you are such an amazing man.". He looked down but then it was like he had plucked up his courage and looked me in the eyes and said "I love you so much Madde." then it was my turn to look down because I was to afraid to meet his gaze. I said "Maybe you should do what Tove told you yesterday and go on a date with someone." he put a finger under my chin and forced me to look at him and he said "Hey, you can't choose who you fall in love with and I'm not blaming you for falling for Nicky, he is a pretty great guy. And this whole thing with me going on a date, I've thought about it and I think I will do it, but know this... a date will not change how I feel for you, I don't know what will because a broken heart doesn't seem to stop these feelings.". I felt a tear fall down my cheek and he smiled and stroke it away with his thumb and he said "This is why I love you so much, you are an amazing woman, you are stong, independent and beautiful but at the same time careing, loving and emotional. There is no one like you Madde Karlsson.". Then more tears fell down my face and I threw myself around his neck and hugged him, he hugged me back and stroke my hair and back. I said "I love you jared and I'm so sory for hurting you in every way possible." he just shook his head and said "Don't worry about it.". We talked for a while longer and I must say that I miss him alot, he is such an amazing guy and he is really to good for me and he deservse so much better. But I have to admit that it's really hard to let him see other women and to just think that he might have sex with someone else is really killing me... to know that that amazing body of his is pressing against someone elses then my body and that his goegeous lips kisses someone elses neck then mine... Sorry now I'm being really really selfish

When we finished talking I went back to my room and changed clothes and walked downstairs where i found Jensen, Johan and Krisen this time. Jensen and Johan said goodmorning but Krisen just ignored me and continued with their breakfast. I asked Jensen if we still were going to look at the *beep* but he said "Do we have to do that?" I took a step closer to him and asked something that he couldn't say no to and then I turned to Krisen and said "I realyl have to go into town today because me na dJensen are going to look at *beep* and therfor I need my car.". She said "okay fine, but you can take another car then yours." I said "But I want to take my lambo!" she said "Yell at me more and I'll add 3 more hours.". So I shut my mouth and walked out of there and told jensen to come to my room when he was done.

I sat up in my room when i thought that I should call Chad and tell him happy birthday for yesterday so I picked up my phone and dailed his number. He picked up after a few tones and I said "Happy Birthday for yesterday chad!" he satrted tolaugh and said "Thank you madde! I never thought you would call me.". I said "What?! how can you think that about me!? Nah just kidding, but of course I would call." he said "Sorry love, I'm glad you called, thank you.". I smiled and said "Your welcome. So how are you doing?" he said that he was just fine and asked how I was and I said "Well, I'm not so good, I don't have any money and Krisen is forcing me to clean the house and I hit Jared when we were boxing realyl hard and borke his rib!". Chad said "What? okay first, why no money and why cleaning? And how on earth did you manadge to hit him that hard?" I said that I had done something that made krisen angry with me and then I said "Well, it's not really my fault because he started it. He took his shirt off and I couldn't focus so then I took my shirt off and then he couldn't focus so I accidently hit him on the ribs and he broke one.". After that chad just laught and said "That's awesome! tell him that I don't feel sorry for him." I just shook my head and said "You are a very nice friend, do you know that but I will tell him.". Chad just laught and said "yeah but come on, ig he can't focus when you take your top off then he has only himself to blame." I said "So you would be able to focus would you?". then he stopped laughing and siad "Okay, fine maybe not." then it was my turn to laugh becuase it was like he really thought about it and noticed that it wouldn't be possible. God men are so easy! :P We talked for a while longer but then Jensen peeked in and said he was ready to leave so I said goodbye to Chad and hung up.

We walked down the stairs and said goodbye to Krisen and Johan and walked to the garage where my beautiful, gorgeous, sexy Lambo greeted us. I walked over to it and stroke his beautiful cruves and said "i'm sorry baby, Krisen is stupid and won't let me get my money so i can buy gas and take you out for a spin. so the little gas we have is something we have to save." then i turned back to Jensen and he looked at me like I was crazy but I just asked "What?!" he just shook he head and said "nothing. so which car? I'll drive.". I picked out the Alfa Romeos keys out of my pocket and said "We are taking the Alfa and honey, no offence but I don't ride shootgun, I drive.". So I walked over to the Alfa and stroke its curves and opened the door and sat down in the driversseat and started the car. It really doesn't have the same sound as my baby or the same seat but it's still a nice car. Jensen sat down in the other seat and looked abit gloomy because he couldn't drive and I said "Hey, don't be all moody now just because I'm a better driver then you.". He just looked at me and then I stepped on the gas and we drove off. Jensen was still all moody and shit so I thought I should make him happier so I put a hand on his thigh and moved it up and he siad "Not now! Keep your hands on the steering wheel and your eyes on the road!" I just laught and siad "i'm a great driver and a woman so i can do two things at the same time, don't worry.". Then I unbottuned his jeans and put my hand on his beast but not inside his boxers. He sat up more and more and began to breath heavier and heavier and I felt that his beast was starting to get harder and grow even though it was still trapped inside his boxers. Just when he was starting to breath faster and faster I stopped and put my hand on the wheel again and he just looked at me and I said "Sorry but I can't let you come because you can't walk around with wet boxers and pants.". He buttoned his jeans and said "Fine, but I ahet when you do that.". I laught and siad "They day is young yet mr ackles." he just looked at me and then he looked out the windscreen. When we parked the car and I stepped out of the car and Jensen followed me but then I looked down on his pants and saw that they were pointing like crazy and I said "Jensen, are you going to walk around the city like that?" he looked down and siad "Fuck! does it show alot?". I just laught and said "Do you want me to help you out?" he just said "No! I can take care of it myself!" I just laught and he sat back in the car, I said "Jensen ackles not in the Alfa Romeo!". Then he got out again and said "Fine, then I'll let my pants point!" I just shook my head, locked the car and dragged jensen with me to a near by supermarket. I asked in the cashpoint where their bathroom was and she gave me a key and pointed to the other end of the store. I dragged jensen with me there and pushed him inside and walked in with him and locked the door. I pushed him down on the toiletseat and sat down infront of him, he shook his head and I told him to just shut up and then I put my hands on his knees and moved them higher and undid his jeans and pulled them off. I pulled down his boxers and his beast was still big and hard so I took it in my hand and started to move it. He started to breath faster and superficial adn his thing grew even more and got harder and warmer. I moved my hand faster and soon he breathed even faster and then he got all tence and I moved my hand even faster and then he moaned and came. I contined to move my hand fast when he came and he moan even more and then when I removed my hand he just sat there for awhile and then I washed my hands and told him to get dressed and he did and then we walkd out of there after cleaning up alittle.

We went and looked at the *beep* and then we were just out walking watching people and then I couldn't really keep my hands off so it just happened to land on his bum and he looked at me and shook his head and I moved it under his shirt. All of the sudden we heard someone say "Madde, Jensen. What are you guys doing here?" and then Jensen ran away from me and got behind Nicky and he looked like a questionmark. I smiled at Nicky and gave him a long hug and said "We were looked at *beep*. What are you doing here?" Nicky siad "Oh I see, nice. Nothing really, didn't feel like sitting in all day so I ran away from Kian and shane. Ehm, Jensen are you okay?" he asked and turned around and looked at jensen. I just started to laught and jensen said "No I'm not okay!! She's mad!" Nicky turned to me and once again he looked like a questionmark and I said "I'm not mad, just helping him out alittle.". Jensen said "No you are not!" Nicky laught and siad "Man you look scared." Jensen looked at him angry adn said "Of course I am! How on earth can you be around her!?". Nicky looked at me and then Jensen again and said "Becuase I love her. I thought you guys were friends." Jensen just shook his head and said "Fine okay, you are strange. We were but I don't know what we are now.". I walked closer to Nicky adn jensen and siad "Nicky is not strange and we are still friends but Jensen we should go home now." Jensen looked at me with huge eyes and then he took a hold of Nickys arm and said "Nicky, you can drive us home! thank you come on!" then he satrted to drag nicky away from me. I said "Nicky doesn't want to drive us and what about the Alfa? We can't just leave it, then I never will get my money back!". Jensen said "Yes nicky would love to drive us and we can get the car later, it's just a car and we can say that it was me who came up with the idea so you will not be blamed.". Nicky said "Fine I can drive you guys." then Jensen said "Great!" and took a new hold of his arm and followed him to nickys car. I walked behind them and smiled by myself and then Nicky sat down in his BMW and Jensen sat down in the passangerseat and I sat down behind Nicky. We talked alittle and I stuck my head between their seats and looked at them and then Nicky asked "Madde, do you want to come over to my place next week and have dinne with me, shane and kian? it's their last night so we all want to hang out with you.". I wrapped my arms around him and his seat and kissed his cheek and said "I would love too!" he smiled and siad "Good.". after a few more minutes we were home and said goodbye to Nicky and walked inside.

When we got home I walked up to my room to change clothes before dinner and I heard Jensen talk to tove so she must have gotten home from Henrik. Anyway I didn't really know what to put on but I wanted to dress up alittle, I can feel for that sometimes so I put on a black and red dress and a pair of black pumps. When I walked downstairs I met Sara and Zara in the hallway and said "Hi." then sara walked up to me and looked me in the eyes and siad "I can't believe Kristina would do that to you! I feel so sorry for you and I'm totally on your side! Btw you look gorgeous!" then she hugged me. I hugged her back and siad "Thank you so much Sara! I know she is so mean to me! I told her not to leave me with the kids so she sould know better then to leave me with My!". Sara said "Yeah she should! she should really pay for this! And that she is maing you clean the whole house!!! that is just madness!". I said "I know! I don't have the time or anything to clean the whole house!" Sara hugged me again and said "Don't worry I'll help you out.". Then Krisen said that it was dinnertime so we sat down at the table and started to eat. Then sara said "Kristina you should give Madde her money back, she did nothing wrong." Krisen just stopped eating like the rest of the family except for Johan who mostly just keeps eating when people around him starts to argue. Krisen said "No way! she did everything wrong that she could possibly do wrong!" SAra said "No you did something wrong, you left her with My even thought you konw she doesn't want to take care of the kids!". Krisen said "No but she is 25 years old and should have enough responsibiliey to take care of her little sister but insted she runs off to Nicky!". I thought that zara would pick a fight when Krisen said that but insted she siad "Exacly! that is just wrong!" Sara siad "You stay out of this!" then she turned to krisen and said "maybe but she doesn't want to and I knwo that I would have done the same!". Krisen said "She will not get her money back before she has cleaned the house and been nice to me and the rest of the family. she has to prove to me that she can take care of herself because she said that a 5 year old girl should be able to do it.". Sara said "You have no right to do that and you have never punished anyone else that bad before! she needs money to take care of herself so give her the money back! and I will help her with the cleaning and you can't say anything against it because you can't do anythign against me.". Krisen said "I have every right because it's my money! she can get a job! You will not help her with it!" I said "A job?! what do you think I should do? sell myself?! that's the only thing I'm good at!". everyone started to laugh except Krisen, sara and tove and then tove said "Guys, she is serious." and everyone stopped laughing and just looked at me. The krisen said "Well sell the car then!" I yelled "Sell the car!!!??? then I would much rather sell myself!! I will never sell my baby!" Sara said "That's right! and you don't want your doughter to sell herself do you!?". Krisen said "She wouldn't!" I yelled "Try me!!!". Then Alex asked "Okay what the hell has happened? last time we were here all of us you two hated each other and now you are best friends and standing up for one another?" and looked at me and sara. Then Kristina told the whole story and the sara said "but that is no reason to cut of her money!" and I said "exacly! You could have done that to sara and zara when they where babysitting us!" then Krisen just looked at me like a questionmark and I said "They let us party, drink, smoke, have sex.. do what ever we wanted!" Sara looked at me and said "That was not necessary!". I said "sorry." and then Alex said to krisen "What on earth have you done to my kids? what kind of mother are you?" Then Krisen had had enough and she stood up and yelled "You should just shut up because you where nowhere to be found! I took care of your kids and my kids and I have a very important job!". Alex yelled "You could have called and you don't even need your fucking job!!" Krisen yelled "You wouldn't have comed back! and my job is important and I want to work!!". when they had yelled at one another for awhile they sat back down and continued to eat then all of the sudden Niklas siad "Sara honey, can you babysit Ida tomorrow because I'm going out tomorrow." Sara just looked at him and then hsi doughter and she said "Noway!". I said "Hey, I can help you out." but then Nikals siad "No way! I will not have thw both of you babysitting my doughter.". Then sara said "But then Zara can babysit her." Zara just looked at her and asked why but then I tought of something and asked "Hey where are your kids anyway?" then zara said "Emma is babysitting Kim and David.". I looked at sara and she at me and then we both said "Poor her!" and I said "I ahve to call her!" so I picked up my phone and dailed emmas number and she picked up adn I said "Hi Emma it's madde. I just wanted to say that I feel so sorry for you and I know that you must go through something horrible and so boring right now!". Emma just said "Ehm... okaaaaay... why do you feel sorry for me?" I said "Because you have to babysit your siblings!". Then emma said "I know! my mum sucks because I have to babysit them insted of being over there!" I said "Hey why don't you come over here and you me and sara can take a drink and watch a good movie with a lot of really hot guys!" then zara said "No way she is staying home and she is not drinking!" I just looked at her ad emma said "I would love to! but what should i do with kim and david?" then sara took the phone and said "Lock them in or take them with you." then she gave the phone back to me and she siad "Okay great!" but then zara took the phone and left the room. when she came back she said "My doughter is not coming over here and she is not drinking!" the sra just huffed ad zara asked "what?" and sara said "Well she is drinking.". Zara said "What, how do you know? are you buying for her?!" sara ust smiled and said "Yeah, she needs it!" then sara and zara started to yell at each other and then I said "Sara now you and I are going to go and clean the house" and then I took her arm and we walked upstairs.

We sat down in my room and I said "Thank you SAra for standing up for me." sara said "No problem. I can't believe she would do this!" I just shook my head and said "Me neither.". Then I asked what she wanted to watch and then we put on She's the man. Channing Tatum is one hot bastard!!! anyway after the movie we went downstairs and it was time for everyone to go home and when everyone had left I called Nicky and asked what he was doing and he said "nothing, I'm broed as hell... Can't you come over, I miss you.". I smiled and said "Sure I can, I'm bored to but you aren't going to bring me back home this time are you?" nicky laught and siad "No I won't, i promis.". we hung up and then I said goodbye to everyone and walked the 20 minutes to Nickys place. When I reached the door I was sure that kian or shane was going to open the door because it has always been them before but this time it was nicky himself. He hugged me and kissed my cheek and said "Come in." the house was totally silent so I asked "Where is Kian and Shane?". Nicky sat down on the sofa and I sat down next to him and he said "They went to one of the irish pubs here, I didn't really feel like going." I smiled and cuddled up closer to him and said "Good, because I've wanted to come over here since I saw you this morning." He smiled and laid down on the sofa and I was lying ontop of him with my head on his chest and he said "I've wanted to see you too. What have you done tonight then?" I smiled and ran my hand up and down his chest and stomach and said "I ahd dinner with the whole family including sara, zara, niklas and his doughter ida.". he stopped stroking my hair and said "and how did that go?" I smiled and said "well, me and sara are like friends if we don't talk about you and she stood up for me. It was a pretty normal Alexandersson dinner." Nicky laught and kissed my hair and said "You guys are just incredible!" I smiled and said "So are you. I love you." he said "I love you too honey. Then we put on a movie and just cuddled for a while. It was great!

After about 2 movies we saw that the clock was getting near 1.30 so I kissed his cheek and said goodbye and walked off home and now I'm just lying in bed alone... Hum, it's broing I don't know what to do because I can't sleep... maybe I should go and see if Jared is sleeping. Night!

Take care
Love
Madde