Sweeeeet?!

Hello guys.
I'm notging to start my inlay or episode that madde have start calling it as philosophical as Madde did yesterday, that was maybe just once in a life time.

Well I will just startt from the beginning of the day instead.
I woke up after a couple hours sleep like always and when I opend my eyes Jensen was still a sleep since it was still early, I walked into the kitchen and mum and My was all ready up eating. When My saw me she rand towards me and I picked her up and gave her a big hug and a kiss and put her down and she strok my stomach and said " Good morning baby, what do you want for breakfast? What do they eat?" Mum looked at My and then at me and smiled but i said to My " My I don't have time for this, ask mum " My said " What are you going to do? " I said " I'm making breakfast for Jensen, do you want t help? " She smiled and said " Yes!" My helpded me do the whole breakfast, which sadwiches, eggs, alot of fresh berrys and so on. And of cousre a glass of orange juice and a cup of coffee an d last but not least we walked out in the garden and My picked out a beautiful pink rose then we walked inside and I put everything nicely on a tray and put a little vase with water on it and My helped me put ther rose there.
Then I picked the tray up and me and My walked upstairs. My carefully opend the door to not wake Jensen, and he had closed eyes so I whisperd to my to go and scare him so he woke up. She sneacked next to bed so quit she could and he had the back toward her and when she got to his head and was just going to scare him he tunred around and scared her instead, she yelled and Jensen grabed her and pulled her into the bed and she was laughing, she was so cute and when she had come down I walked over to them and put the tray on the bed and My said " We have made you breakfast" Jensen smiled at My and said " Thanks for this nice surprise " Then he looked at me and I had sat down on the bed and he smiled and said " So what have I done to desrve this? " I smiled and said " You desrve so much more then this but I thought I should start small. " He smiled and said " Yeah but still what have I done to desrve this? " I said " You are an amazing man Jensen Ackles and maybe you haven't noticed that I have been so happy this last month, but I have and it all because of you. You are one of the reasons that makes my life worth living " He garbed my wrist and pulled me down on the bed so I was closer to him and he gave me a kiss and said " I love you " I looked him into his eyes and said " I love you too" Then My said " Don't you two love me? " Me and Jensen smiled and said " Of course we do, I love you" Then we hugged all three at the same time. Then My walked up from the bed and towards the door and before she left she said " I will scare you sometimes too Jensen" We started to laught and My left. And Jensen started to eat his breakfast and I lyed down in the bed and when he was done and everything was empty he smiled and gve me a kiss and said " Thanks honey for the berakfast, I wish you always would make breakfast " Then he laied down in the bed too. I closed my eyes for a afew seconds just to rest my eyes and when I opend my eyes I looked straight into Jensens hazel green. He just looked back into my blue eyes and he strok my cheek with his hand and then he wander down to my chin and took a sofy grip of it and then he let go and then he let his index finger follow the outlines around my lips and then he conutinue stroking my cheek again and then he came even closer to my body and kissed me and strok my back with his hand and when our lips let go from each other then smiled and strok my cheek again and then it knocked on the door and before I got the chance to say come in the door opends and there was Krisen and she looked at us and said " Sorry for inturpting, but can you two keep an eye on My, I needed to go to work for a fw hours? " Jensen sat up and smiled and said " We would love too " I said " We would? I had other planes then too look after my sister " Jensen laughted and gave me a kiss and looked at Krisen and said " I will take care of her, since your oldest daughter seems a little grumpy today " I hit him on the arm and said " I'm not grumpy, I just brougt you breakfast so you should be nice " Krisen smiled and closed the door and Jensen said " What's up with you today? " I sign and said " Forgett it. " The I walk up from the bed and so did Jensen and he walk over to me and gave me a hug and a kiss on my forehead then he walked into the bathroom to take a shower while I walked down stairs.

Where I meet Madde who was on her way out throw the door, I asked where she was going and she didn't answer she just looked at me carefully and I said " So he is not coming over here today, good beacuse I will kill him if he steps his foot near this house again, and you know I mean it!" Madde just looked at me angry and walked thrw the door and closed t with a bang. I was so angry aftr reading Maddes "episode" yesterday. I can't belive that man also called Nico he is sick and I juat want to hit him really hard and I don't understand how he is thinking! I mean he said to Madde that he never can leave her because he love her so much and he have promised Zara many times that he would never leave her but if he really cared about her and loved her then he would leave Madde, but he don't so apapretly he have all reday made his choose if you ask me and it's not Zara and the kids. I wouldn't be suprisde if his kids never talk to him again,I wouldn't have if I was his kid, since eh haven't even tried to make an afford to fix things bteween he and Zara all he have done is to think about himself and what him needed and not what his family need. I told Madde yesterday that it feels like the only way that Zara and Nico can get toghtere is if Zara except that Nico has two women in his life which is sick! I mean he was the one who did something wrong and now she neededs to live under his termes if there realtionship is going to work!! All he dose is beeing selfish and hitting on Madde, he is a fucking asshole!! I also tried to convince Madde to convince Nico that he need to leave Madde even thougt it was hard but if he ever wants to see his kids again he have too. But Madde couldn't do it, but i mean she feel inlove with that Nico who loved his kids and family over anything else and would do anything for them, a family man and now he is not even close to be that, he is not even close to be that person I always thought he was! I mean he is an adult and he is not acting like that at all, he is the one who is a totally wreak and all he dose is feel sorry for himself, instead he should do anything to fight for his family but he is not doing that and no one can say that he is!! He needes to start taking respsibility for his life and for his kids life, they need there father, but no like I said he always think about himself that selfish son of a bitch!!!! And if he dosn't change really soon then I will make him a visit and tell him what I really feel and that will not be pretty!! So just hope that fucking jerk stoppes being a jerk!! But he probably won't!! And I don't care that Made thinks it a bad idea that I visit him he fucking desrves that I yel at him and I'm jutst telling him the trust! Theat he should know himself but he is to stupied to understand it and soon he hae to choose between Madde and his family and I hope he chooses the right thing!! I just want to ripe his heart out and lungs and every other organ he have in that body of his!! I just don't understand what's going on in his head, idoit!!

Well let's talk about today again before I get to pissed off!
So after Madde had left I walked up to Mys room too see what she was doing and when I walked in there she smiled and ran ov er to me and gave me a hug an asked if I could play with her, but I told her that I aybe could do that later, so I walked back to my and Jensen room to see if Jensen was done showering so I coudl take a shower. When I walked into the room I saw jensen siting in the sofa and he had a big smile on his face, but he was crying and when he saw me he did the best he could to drye the tears away. I walked over to him and sat down next to him and dryed a tear with my hand and asked why he was crying, he showed me the picture of our baby that he held in his hand and he said " This is embarassing.. " I asked " What is embarassing? " He said " That I'm crying because I'm so happy about this baby, that's embarrasing " Then another tear ran down his cheek and I smiled and said " That is not embarrassing that is the cutes thing ever " I gave him a big hug and a kiss on his neck and he gave out a little laugh and I said " I love you Jensen" He pushed me away a little and looked me into the eyes and said " I love you two, both off you " I smiled and kissed him then I laughted and said " madde is appretly moving out if our kid is a screamer and I told her that we wanted her to be our nanny but I don't think she liked that idea " Jensen laughted and said " I wounder way and let's just hope that it isen't a scremer for everones sake " I laughted and said " Yeah that it have your temper and not mine and Madde is the perfect to be a nany weird" He laughted and said " Yeah maybe so, but we can't ask to much from her but I have been thinking and when the baby gets born I think Madde and Jared should be his/hers godparents if they want to of course, what do you say? " I smiled and said " So you don't think it's to much to ask to ask for godparents? " He laughted and said " No, or do you want it to be someone else? " I smiled and said " No of course not, they are our best freinds that we love. I'm not so sure that Madde wants too.. but maybe. But don't you think this is to eraly to think about? " Jensen smiled and took my hand and said " Good then we agree, I hope both of them wants too. No it's not, it can never be to eraly" Then he smiled and kissed me. Then I asked Jensen if he could watch over My because I needed to do something. And of course Jensen said yes, so he gave me a kiss and walked towards Mys room.

I got dressed and walked down to the car and drove to the city and found a parking lot really fast then I walked into to a bookstore and I search for a while intill I found what I was looking for a babybook I choosed a purple one since I didn't know if it was a boy or a girl and before I drove home I drove to Henrik place because it was ages ago I hang out with him last so I knocked on the door and he open. And he looked suprised to see me there but happy at the same time, he gave me a hug and told me to com in and he made coffee and we sat down to talk and he looked as sexy as always, yummie! I asked how he was doing and he sign and said " Pretty good it's just that my sister is going to get married in a few weeks and my parents are going to be there and I don't know what to do.. since my sister and brother dosne't know about this. " I gave him a hug and said " I'm sorry... and I didn't know you had a sister. I wish I could say what you should do but I can't " We let go of the hug and he said " I thought I had told you that but apprenty not. Yeah I know you can't " I said " But if you like I can always be your date to the weddig if you want compaine, but just as freinds " He smiled and said " I would love that, and I know even thougt I still love you " I said " Henrik... I can't " He said " I know.. it was just wishful thinking, so how are you doing? " I smiled and said " good. Well I'm fine, I'm acutally pregante " Henrik looked surprised and said " Oh my God, congratulations! Or are that the wrong this to say are you keeping it? " I smiled and said " No it's not, so thanks. " He said " I can't belive you are goingto have a baby! Jensen is the father right? " I laugted and said " Me neither, and yes he is and he is so happy right, carzy!" Then it knocked on Henriks front door so he walked away to open and back came he and Albin, he brother if you remere that I also had sex with..
Albin gave me a hug and sat down next to me and he told me that his holiday was over tomorrow and he told me to bring Madde with me to the club so night, I just gave him a smile and then Henriks phone called so he left the kitchen and walked into the livingroom to answer. Then Albin took the chnace to hit on me and he strok my thigh and lead over to kiss me and I just said " I'm pregnate " His hand flow away from my thingh really fast and before he had the chnace to say something Henrik walked back into the room and said he had to go to work it because his colleague was sick, so all three of us walked out of his apartmeant and Henrik gave me a hug and told me that he would call me and I said goodbye to Albin and drove home.

I walked throw the door and had just walked into the kitchen where mum was cooking when it knocked on the door so I walked over to open it and it was a big supris because Alexander and Lisa was standing there which is mums big brother and his girlfriend, and Alex is also Saras dad and kind of Zaras too. I huged them and I called on mum how walked into the hallway and when she saw Aleander she walked towards him and gave him hug and then Lisa. And asked them to come in and she asked how long they where staying and Alex siad that they where at least staying 1 week or so. Then Jensen walked down the stairs and he walked over to Alexander and Lisa to introduce himself since last time they where here Jensen wasn't home he was working. When he had talked alittle with them he walked over to me and gave me a kiss and then mum called that it was dinner and she asked if Alex and Lisa wanted to stay for dinner and they said yes. When everyone walked down stairs to eat they smiled when they saw our gustes and gave them a hug and Madde was also home from Nicos. We sat down and started to eat even thougt myslef and Madde didn't eat so much then Alexsander said " We should have a real family dinner tomorrow I can cook, with Sara, Zara, Nico, Niklas and o cours ethe kids and everone what do you say ? " Krisen didn't answer and Madde just looked down in the food, but Johan said " That's sounds good" Both me and Madde looked angry at him but he just ignored that and I said " I don't think that is a good idea... I doubt that your daughters will show up " Alex looked confused at me and I said " Ask them.. I don't know what they want me to tell you or not. " Alex said " I will. But whatever it is I want everone her tomorrow we have something importen to tell you all. " I didn't asnwer..so we just have to see what happends..
Everyone countinue eating and I took a bite and feelt how sick I starte to feel so I just ran to to bathroom to throw up and Jensen followed me like always and he gave me a hug and asked if I was feeling better and I nodded, then he kissed my forehead and then he took my hand and lead me back to the table and appretly everone looked so much happier noe because mum hand sieve while I was in the bathroom so Alex and Lisa gave me and Jensen a hug and congratulate us.

When the dinner was over I snecked up to our room and glued the picture of " Jenski" in the baby book and wroth a message to the baby inside of the book that it could read later when it got older and my last words was " Love from mum" Then Jensen walked into the room so I hided the book and he sat down next to me and I smiled and gave him the book and he smiled and open it and read and he said " I can't belive you did this, I know you don't care about this book thing" I smiled and said " Yeah but you do " He kissed me and looked at the picture.
Then Madde walked into our room and asked if we wanted to do something with her and
Jared. And of cousre we said yes and we desided that we would take a walk, so we got dressed and started to walk and talk. We walked by the playground where Madde and Jared had have some fun on Huck we walkin in the playground and we all was laughing to that memory I sat down on a swing and so did the others. Jensen laughted and said to Madde and Jared " So you are not going to try Huck out again? " They laughted and Madde said " You would like that huh? If we did it right here and now " Then we started to laught again and someone next to the playground had a party and they where playing really loaud music and Jared started to dance and we laughted even harder and then he asked Jensen if he wanted to dance and they started to dance slow dance and me and Maded laugted intill we cryied. Then they started to laught too and sat down on the swings again and started to laugh and there we sat and talked for a few hours intill we desided to walk home to watch tv.

So we walked home and laied down in on of ours movie rooms. And after 3 hours of film I desided to go and take a shower, I walked into the shower and let the water fall over my body. When I was done I wraped a towel around me and walked out into the room to get dressed and Jensen was there he was lying in bed reading. I put on my night closhes and laie down next to him and asked what he was reading and he smiled and showed me the frontside of the book and it was a book about pregnatcy and babys and so on. I luaghted and said " You are crazy" He smiled and said " Yeah maybe but I like it " I kissed him and took a grip off his book and laied it down on the floor and laid my head on his chest and strok his abs with my hand and he kissed my hair and said goodnight and turned the light off and after 20 minuts he was sleeping so then I took the chnace to blogg.
But now I don't have so much more to tell you so have a nice night!
Kisses
Tove