She's home.. great..

Hey guys!

Now is Madde home again.. and I thought I should be so happy to see her, but I have mixed feelings about all this.. but I will tell you more about that later..

When I woke up this morning Jensen was still asleep, and he is so beautiful when he is sleeping he lookes like a goddess! I pulled my hand slowly throw his hair, but he didn't wakeup so I strok his cheek with my fingertips and took a sof grip of his chin and lead over and kissed him and after a few kisses he started to kiss me back and took a grip of my arm and pulled me on top of him and when our lips separated I laied my chin down on his cheast and looked at him and he smiled and said " You always have the nicest ways to wake me up " I smiled and said " I thought you would like it " He strok my hand and I said " I have a few quations for you, first of all why do you never tell me anything? " Jensen looked like a qustionmark and asked what I meant and I said " That you and Jared are going out on friday? " Jensen said " Oh that, I just haven't had the time too, and how did you find out? " I said " Madde. And second what the hell is you and Madde going to look at next week that I can't know about? " Jensen said " ehh... you don't want to know.. " I said " I don't want to know? then what the hell is it you are going to buy and need Maddes help? A sextoy? a leather whip? All I can come up with is sextoys or something to do with sex?!" Jensen laughted and said " You will find out sometimes " I said " I hate you!" Jensen smiled and said " I love you too honey" I said " I hope you love me after I tell you this too. Since you are going to hang out with your friend on friday, then I'm going to hang out with my freind " Jensen said " Why shouldn't I love you for haning out with Madde? " I said " Because I'm haning out with Henrik " Jensen said " oh.. yeah that's fine, I trust you " I smiled and said " good " Then he asked what we was going to do and I smiled and said " We are going to be at his place, cook some food togheter and talk and have wild sex and see a movie maybe " Jensen said " That is not funny!" I laughted and said " Yes it is, and by the way I'm the one who should be worried you are going to be at a club and you are going to be the most wanted guy in that club " Jensen smiled and said " Yeah but still can you blame them? " I laughted and said " No I guse you are right, I can't " Then he luaghted and gave me a kiss and said " but in Henriks eyes you are the most wanted women and I don't like that " I smiled and said " Bad for you then " I kissed him and rolled off him and got up and walked down stairs.

I sat down in the kitchen with my cup of coffee and Jess walked throw the doorway and said goodmorning and started to do her breakfast and sat down next to me and then Jensen walked thorw the doorway and he was still not wearing any shirt, he walke over to me and kissed me and I strok his abs and gave him a cheesy smile and said " Nice " He smiled and said " It's all yours baby " Then I looked at Jess and I could see she was looking too, so I said " Keep your eyes to yourself " she just looked at my coffiee instead and she said " How much coffiee do you acutally drink? Do you know that to much coffiee is dangerous for the baby and to much is like more then 1 cup a day and you drink at least 5 " I said " And how do you know this? " Jess said " School, and it's really dangerous just so you know, in some countries they think it's horrible that swedish women drink coffie when they are prgenate in their eyes it is as bad as to drink a glass of wine. " Jensen said " Are you serious? " Jess said " Yes of course I'm and one of those countries is the USA" Jensen said " I didn't know that" I said " Bad for the baby then because I can't surive without it" I was jut on the way to pick the cup up to take a zipe but Jensen garbed the cup before me and walked over to the sick and poured it out!! I looked at him with angry eyes and said " What the hell do you think you are doing?!" He said " Did you listen to jess at all? " I said " Yes, but did you listen to me at all? I can't be without it I will be the bitchest bitch on this planet! So I'm drinking it!" Jensen said " No your not!" I said " Try to stop me " I just garbed Jess cup and drunk her coffiee and it was grossed because she has like 2 dl suger in it because she hates coffiee and she have just started to try to drink it, but it was better then nothing. Jensen just looked at me angry, then My came running into the kitchen and said " Today Madde is coming home! Yay!!" I smiled and gave her a hug and said " Yes she is, have you missed her? " She smiled and said " Yes sooo much! I love her so much! " I smiled and said " I know how you feel then I helped her with her breakfast mean while Jensen started to eat and hug My at the same time. They are sute :)

I just have to write this before I forgett about it, that it is James Marsters Birthday today, his is turning 47! So happy Birthday James! :) Even thought we are not the best freinds right now..

Well anyway after breakfast I walked up to our room and took a shower and got dressed then I walked downstairs and Imeet Jensen in the hallway and this time with a shirt on and he smiled and said " Do you want to come with me to the stable and take a ride? " I smiled and said " A ride on a horse or a ride on you? " he gave me a cheesy smile and said " Come with me and see what I mean about it " I smiled and grabed his hand and we started to walked down to the stabel and I found out what he wanted before we was even halfway to the stable because he could keep his hand of me. He started to get under my top with his hand and strok my ass and so on, I looked at him and gave smiled and said " So you meant riding you? " He gave me a cheesy smiled and said " I hope you are not disappointed " I smiled and said " I'm very disappointed " He smiled and said " Then I just have to chnage your mind then " I luaghted and kissed him and we walked into the stable and up to the hayloft like the last time and he pulled my top of and I unbutton his shirt while he kissed my neck and unhooked my bra and throw it away and I let his shirt slide of his shoulders and eh started to kiss my lips and unbutton my jense and I did the same with his and we pulled them off. I strok his amazingly sexy back with my hand and
kissed his neck,shoulder, chest, stomach while my other hand was touching is ass. When I had kissed my way all the way down to the edge of the boxers I pulled them of and started to use my own hand while the other was still on his ass. I could feel how it growed in my hand and he I looked up at him and he gave me a smiled then I started to use my tonuge from the head of it to the toe of it and he started slowly to moan a little so I countinue intill I put it in my mouth and I was still useing my tonuge and he liked it because it got harder for every second and when he was hard enough I kissed my way up to his lips and started to kiss him then he laied us down in the hay and started to lick my nipple and it was amazing!! That tonuge should have the Noble Prize or something because it's so good!! Then he kissed my stmach and pulled my panties of and put in a few fingers and started to move slow inside of me and after a minut he put his head between my legs and started to use his tounge too and move his fingesr faster and of course I started to moan, becasue when his tounge is down there then it is imposseible not too trust me!
So I started to moan more and more and I could feel I was close so after a few minuts I came and countinue for a while longer and I started to moan again and then he lookde up at me and gave me a cheesy smile and cralwed back to me and kissed my lips while he pushed his sexy hard beast inside of me and started to move slow and my hands strok his back and his stomach and cheast and he stopped kissing me and gave me a smile and started to go faster and he gave out a moan then eh slowed down and rolled us around so I got on top and I started to move and strok his amazing chest with my hand while his hands was on my back and my ass. He moan and so did I. Then he started to use his fingers to help me and I started to moan and was close again so he rolled us around agian so he was on top and started to go really fast and now noth of us was moaning really load and much and I think I bored my nails into his back because itw as so good and then I came agian and Jensen smiled and slowed down a little and I garbed his ass and he started to go faster again and after a while I could feel how he came inside of me and every muscel in his body got relaxed again and he laied down next to me and he was all sweaty and sexy. Then he said " Are you still disappointed at me ? " I gave him a cheesy smile and said " What do you think? " He laughted and said " I'm way better then some horse " I luaghted and said " Yes you are" Then he said " Can I ask you a weird qustion? " I said " Yes of course? " He laughted and said " How dose it taste? " I looked at him confused and said " What do you mean? " Jensen said " How do we taste? " I laughted and said " You mean your swimmers? " He said " Yes? " I laughted and said " I can't belive you haven't tried it, like every guy have, I think it's 90 % or somthing that have tried it " Jensen said " Are you serious? Grossed " I laughted and said " What try it? " He looked at me like I was carzy and said " No!" I luaghted and said " Why can't you try it, I have done it and look I'm still a live " He said " I will never do it, I can't belive you do it " I said " It isn't that bad, you kind of het use to it after a while " Jensen said " So how dose it taste? " I laughted and said " Maybe I won't tell you if you don't try it? " jensen said " Come on Tove, tell me instead " I laughted and said " Fine, the taste is diffrent from guy to guy so It's hard to deribe " jensen said " so how do I taste? " I said " Well the taste also depends what the guy has eaten under the day, but it often kind of salty and sometimes a bitter taste and sometimes a little sweeter taste it depends. " Jensen said " That dosn't sound to delicious.. " I laugted and said " It isen't " He laughted and kissed me and then my cell rang so I aswerd and it was mum who told me that she had to go to the food store to get some food so she could make Maddes favorite dish and she wanted us to babysit My. I sign and said " can't someone else so it? " Mum said " No, she want's Jensen and you, and where are you by the way? " I just sign and said " No where, be there soon. " Then I hang up and told Jensen and we started to get dressed.

When we walked back up the house we meet Zara, so I gave her a hug and asked where
she was going and she smiled and said " I'm going over to Nicky because we are going out on a walk and talk and just have good time like we did before. " I smiled and said " Good, you look so happy " She smiled and said " Yeah he makes me happy " then her smile disppear and she said " Is... Madde home yet? " I said " No not yet, but in a few hours " Zara just nodded and she said she had to go so she gave me a hug and left.

When we walked into the house My can running towards us and asked if we could play with her, and of course Jensen said yes, and we walked up to her room and started to play with barbie. My gave me the guy doll and Jensen the girl doll and said to my that the guy doll was Jensen and the girls doll jensen was holding was me, and we just strated to laught and Jensen said " Why do we have to be each other? " My said " Because you are always yourself so you should be tired of it so then I thought you wanted to be each other, " We laughted and I asked who she was going to be and she said " I'm ging to be your baby. But should I take a baby girl doll or a baby boy doll? " Jensen looked at me and smiled and I said to My" You decide" My said " But mum told me that you where at the hospital yesterday to find out if it was a boy or a girl? " I said " Yes we was, but we have decided not to tell anyone yet because we want to think about names and things like that before, but you will find out soon " My said " Fine. Then I will be the baby girl because I want it to be a girl " Jensen gave me a kiss and My said " You have to kiss with the dolls not each other " We laughted and My started to play with the doll and the doll said " Mum I'm hungrey " Jensen picked up "me" and talked thrwo it and said " What do you
want to eat honey? " I hit jensen on the arm and said " Hey! I dosn't sound like that!" Jensen laughted and said " Yes you do almost anyway. " Then he lead over to kiss me but before he did My said " The dolls " So the Tove doll pressed her plastic lips against the Jensens dolls lips, then we started to laught again and we coubtine laughing and playing for an hour and then mum was all reday home and she called after everyone to come down stairs because Madde was on the drive way now.

We all ran down the stairs in the hallway and Donna,Alan, mum, Krisen and everone else was all reday standing there. Then Madde walked throw the door and I was just going to giver a hug when she looked straight to Jensen who was standing a few meters infron of her and she gave him a huge smiled and just droped her bags at the floor and ran towards him and throw herself around his neck and huged him and Jensen looked a little surpised but he huged her back and she said happy " I have missed you so much Jensen!" Jensen said confused " I have missed you too " I just looked at them chocked and so did everone else. Then Madde let go of his neck and she gave me a fast glare and smiled and looked at Jensen and started to kiss him!! I could feel how angry I got with them espcially since my dear boyfreind KISSED HER BACK!!!! And it looked like he was enjoing it! And the rest of the family was looking at me and at them with big eyes and they looked liek a big qustionarks all of them and espically at me who didn't do anything!! But that was because I knew what she was doing, she did this for revenge with all that wth Dennis andn the water buket and all that. So I did my best not to get angry because then Madde would just enjoy it more which I didn't wanted!! Then she started to un button his shirt while she was kissing him, and then her hand slowly strok his chest!! I was totally furious and then she stopped kissing him and gave me a fast smile and then she took a hard grip around his shirt coller and then she gave him a chessy smile and said " Follow me sexy " And what do you think Jensen did!! Excatlly he followed her! They startedto walked upstairs and then I heard a door closes. Then everone looked at me and Jess asked what that was about, but I couldn't answer I was to angry I tied my fistes hard and I tried to breath so I would kill Madde and Jensen and I just stood there looking athe stairs and started t take deep breath and slowly cound down from 10 to 1 to calm down. When I had got to five I heard Maddes moan really load from her room. I tried to keep focuse and countie counting but when I got to three I ouldn't countine because Madde was moaning loader and more so I just ran up stairs and pulled up the door and ran into the room and Madde was sitting on the bed and moan and Jensen was sitting in her sofa and looked at her. I looked at Madde and she was just smiling and said " What's wrong honey are you angry with me? " I said angry " I'm not angry with you am angry with him!! " I looked at Jensen and he just gave me
a shy smile and said " What did I do? " I said " What did you do?! You kissed her back then you followed her up stairs!!" Jensen said " You told me before that it was okay that I kissed her back..and I thought she wanted to talk " I said angry " That was BEFORE not now! That is the worsed excuse I have ever heard you knew so well that she didn't want to talk! Jensen didn't say anything he just looked at me and Madde was just smiling and I said to Jensen " Your punishment is that I want have sex with you for a whole week" Then Madde said " Now you are mean to him, you can't do that " I just looked at her angry and Jensen laughted, so I gave him a look and he shut up and said " You are not serious right? " I said " Yes I'm " When I said that Jensen face just took totally devistated. Madde said " now I feel bad for him, Jensen maybe I can help you " i just looked at her angry and Madde said " He is a totally wreak, look at him " I said " It's his own fault" Then mum called after us that it was dinner so we walkde downstairs and sat down and Tim asked what all that was about. And Madde smiled and said " It was payback " Krisen asked for what, and Madde answerd " For that time when Tove walked in on me and De... Daniel when we had sex and the water buket " Kristina said " I thought you all reday had gotten back at her for that, when you told My that Tove was pregnate " Madde said " First of all that was not even close to what she did to me, and second of all that wasn't payback since she was pregenate " Then I said " Well I didn't know that then! So that should
count" Madde just laughted and said " Sorry it dosn't.. and now you have hurt Jensen and I can't see him like this " I just looked at her angry and she smiled.
After dinner Madde said she was going over to Nicky and she walked by me and Jensen who stood up next to the table and when she passed Jensen she grabed his ass and gave him a cheesy smile and before i had the chnace to say anthing she walked out teh front door!! So know you understad that I'm a little torn beween if it's a good thing or a bad thing that madde is home!! But now she got her revenage so now we are even finally!! Another blond bitch!!

I walked up our room and after a while Jensen walked into the room to and he looked at me and said " I'm so sorry!" I said " To late, done is done. And you are not sorry, you are just saying that so I will have sex with you right? " Jensen said " No I'm not" I said " Jensen ackles don't lie to me" Jensen sat down next to me on the bed and said " Fine don't belive me then" I picked up my book and started to read,and Jensen just lied their. Then it knocked on the door and Jared walked throw
the door and he looked at Jensen really disapppointed and sad and then he asked if he could talk to me alone, so we walked over to his room and sat down on the bed he said " I know I'm not suppose to even get hurt about Madde and Jensen kissing but I did.. aren't you ? " I said " You have all right to be you still love her. I'm more angry then sad. Are you disappointed at Jensen? " Jared looked away into the wall and said " Yes, he is my best freind and he should know how I would feel about that " I gave him a hug and said " Yeah I know, is an idoit" When we let go of the hug I asked " So do you know what Madde and Jensen is going to look at toghter that I can't know about? Because it's driving me crazy!" Jared laughted and said " Yeah I know what it is but I can't tell you" I said " Come on tell me, remebere that you are disapponited at Jensen" He laughted and said " Never " I just stood up and wlaked towards teh door and said " Fuck you!" Then I walked out of there.

I walked outside on the pouch to get some air and I found mum there so I sat down next to her and she looked at me and smiled and said " So how did it go at gynaecologist yesterday? I know you are not going to tell me the sex of the baby, but I just want to know was everything okay? " I smiled and said " Yes everything looked great, I'm fine and the baby is fine. Stop worring, because I can see that you are worried " She smiled and said " Of course I'm worried, my daughter is pregnagnat. I still see you like my little girl sometimes. I rembere when I was pregnate with you it feels like yesterday.. and I have to say the first time I was pregnate that was a special time.. " I said " I wish I was you little girl sometimes.. why is the first time special " She said " Because everything was new and I didn't know what was going to happend, I think that was one of my scaryest nine month in my life and I was so young and I wasn't even sure if this was the right destion to keep the baby... but I'm glad I did. Because you are an amazing women and you will be an even more amazing mum, and you have an fantastic man by yourside, and I'm so happy for you. " She put her arm around my shoulder an kissed my cheek and I said " Thanks, but have you never regreted that you keep me? " She smiled and said " No not even when I hate you the most. And you have been an amazing daughter to me and a amzing sister and helped me take care of them and you even take care of me. Like that time when Eddie left me, I was a totally wreak I coulnd't do anything, so you took care of your brothers and sister and me at the same time while you where just 15 and also disappointed and sad at your father. So no I have never regreted my destion and I don't think you will either. Even thought you are 25 you are still my baby in someway and you always will be. You are one of the most amazing things that have ever happend to me, and I'm so proud of you " I could feel tears started to ran down my cheek and said " God was it nessasery to make me cry?! " Mum lauhgted a little and said " Yes it was because every word I said was true " I looked at her and said " I love you mum" I gave her a kiss on her cheek and she smiled and said " I love you too honey " Then the glassdoors opend and Jensen walked up and when he saw us he turned around and said " Sorry I didn't mean to inturped " Krisen smiled and said " Jensen came her and talk to us " he walked over and sat down next to me and he looked at me and his hand was just going to wipe
my tears away but I looked at him and said " Don't you dare touch me, I'm still angry with you " Jensen just ignored that at dried a few tears away with his hand and then he strok my cheek for a few seconds. Then mum said to Jensen " Have I told you how happy I'm that you are the father of my daughters baby and not some other guy. Jensen you are an amzing guy and I know that you love my daughter more then everything in this world and that you would do anything for her and you even saved her life, which I'm really greatful for! And I can see that Tove are really happy with you, okay maybe not today but every other day. And if you make her happy then I'm happy and I'm really happy that you are the father to my grandchild. Jensen you
know I love you right? " Jensen smiled and gave her a hug and said " Thanks this means a lot to me. And I love you too " They huged for a while intill I said " Okay break it up I think have huged and kissed my boyfreind to much today. " They let go and mum laughted and Jensen too but then I gave him an angry look and he stoped laughing. Then Jensen looked at the time and said maybe it was time for bed, I gave mum a hug and said " Thanks I really needed this because I have been worried and our talked helped. " Mum smiled and said " No problem honey, when ever you want to talk I'm here for you" She gave me a kiss and me and Jensen walked up stairs.

We laied down in bed and Jensen said " I really am sorry " I said " yeah right.. " Then he lead over to kiss me but I just looked away so he couldn't kiss me and he said " I can't even kiss you under this week? " I said " Not tonight anyway, you should be happy that you are still in this bed. " Then he turned of the light and said goodnight and he fell a sleep after a while and then I turned on the light to blogg and her I am.
But now I think I will try to sleep too so you will hear from that slut also called Madde tomorrow.
Good night!
Kisses
Tove