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Heya!

Well... I don't really know what to say, this week has been pretty insane with alot of time spent at tonys and other things that has something to do with the wedding and therefor we haven't been able to blog. We have been helping tony alittle with things conserning the dresses and we have picked out flowers, we have posted the invitations and many other things. So like I said, things have been mental. But anyway let's talk about today.

This morning when I woke up I was totally alone in the bed which made me really uneasy for some wierd reason but then all of the sudden the door opened and a shirtless Jared walked in with a tray filled with food on. He smiled when he saw that I was awake and then he said "Goor morning beautiful, you're awake.". I smiled and sat up slightly and siad "good morning gorgeous, you made me breakfast?". He smiled and put the tray down on the bed and then he gave me a red rose and a kiss and said "Yeah well I just thought you deserved it.". I smiled and said "Aaw thank you, you are amazing do nyou know that?". He laughed alittle and joined me in the bed and said "Not more amazing then you are, but dig in now.". I put a hand behind his neck and pulled him in for a kiss and said "Thank you so much. I love you.". He took a sandwish and said "I love you too." then we both satrted to eat and it was so good. After a while I said "I have to go to Nicky today...". He stopped eating and looked at me and siad "Why?" and i said "because I have to convince him to tell zara about the kiss and I have to tell her too... But baby you can come with if you want to.". He looked down on the bed and didn't say anything, I put an index finger under his chin and made him look at me and I said "I'm so sorry about the kiss honey, I really am and I want you to come with me. Please?". He nodded and said "I know you are... And okay, I'll come with you. Is Nicky sorry about the kiss then?". I said "Thank you. I don't know... but i know that i am.". He nodded and said "So when are we going over there?" I shrugged and said "I don't know, later. Let's just be together here for a while.". He smiled slightly and took the tray and put it down on the floor and cuddled up closer to me. I put my head on his chest and stroke my hand over his abs and chest and he kissed my hair and I smiled. It was so cozy to just lay there on his chest and feels his body next to mine but after a while he stroke my stomach and over my boob where he stopped and started to massage it under my shirt. I smiled and it felt so good. I ran my hand over his chest and down to his softiepants and boxers and then he rolled around so that he got ontop of me and he looked into my eyes and smiled and leaned down and pressed his lips against mine.I opened my mouth slightly and felt his tongue find it's way into my mouth and he began to play with my tongue. I ran my hand through his hair and kissed him with eager and he took a hold of my top and we stopped kissing so that he could pull it over my head. He smiled and kissed my neck, down over my collar bone, boobs and over my stomach and when he got to the edge of my panties he took a hold of them between his teeth and slowly pulled them down and he helped out alittle with his hands. He threw them on the floor and then he pressed his lips against my foot and over my leg and knee and thigh and got higher and higher. I began to breath more shallow and he began to lick me down there and it was so fuxcking nice!! I moaned alittle and he started to ran his hand over my stomach and up to one of my boobs and he started to massage it and play with my nipple. I moaned louder and louder and then he put a few fingers in me when I was wet enough and it felt so good!!! He smiled and and kissed my stomach and I ran my fingers through his hair and smiled with pleasure. He began to lick me again while he moved his fingers faster and it felt so fucking good!! I moaned loudly and took a hold of the covers with my hand and squeezed it tight. I felt hos close I was so I moaned "I need you in me now!!! get it in me!". And obviously he was already totally worked up because he took his fingers out and moved his hands over my sweaty body and he kissed me and pressed his beast in me and I moaned out with pleasure. He smiled and began to move slowly but hard and deep and it felt soo good. I slowly moved my hands over his back and ass and I just love to feel his ass under my hand. He has like the most perefct bum in the world and to feel it without clothes is just soooo great!! I squeezed it alittle and he smiled and kissed my neck and I wrapped my arms around his neck and he slowly sat us up which caused his beast to press even further into me and I squeezed my eyes shut and pulled Jareds hair. He kissed my neck and stroke my back with his wonderful hands. I slowly began to move ontop of him and it felt so good and everytime he was deep in me I moaned and pressed my hands against his back and kissed his neck. I started to moan more and more and his breath was very shallow so I moved faster and moved alittle to the side and then it hit the exact right spot because I got so warm inside and I moaned loudly and started to move slow but hard right there and it felt sooooooo good!!! I tought I was going to die because of how good it felt and Jared ran his fingers throuhg my hair and kissed my lips. I took a hold of his lower lip and then I felt shivers down my spine and he smiled and I let go of his lip and he was just about to lay us back down again when I moaned "No! It's so good now, don't move!". He laughed slightly and said "i can make it better." then I felt him move his hands down my back and under my bum and then he like picked my up in a wierd way without pulling his beast out of me. he carried me out of the bed and I kissed his neck and he walked into the bathroomand turned the shower on and got in. I smiled nad he said "I know you love to hav sex in the shower." i kissed him and he pressed me against the wall and began to move and it was so nice to feel the warm water pour over our naked bodies and to feel him inside of me was even better. I moaned and breathed more shallow and so did he and I ran my hands over his wet back and through his hair and over his sexy neck. Then he moved alittle to the left and he hit the spot again and I put my nails in his back and moaned loudly. He smiled and began to move faster at the same spot and deeper in me and I moaned louder and louder and so did he. I was so close at coming so I moaned "Faster!" and he did as I asked and after a while I came with a scream and he kept going fast and hard with made the orgasm so much better! When I was done he continued to go and I kissed his neck and ran my right hand over his side adn down to his beast and I began to touch him just above it and he moaned loudly nad then I felt his beast grow inside of me and then it got all warm in me as he came and I flexed my mucles alittle and pressed my body closer to his which made him almost scream with pleasure as well and after he was done he took it out and put me down on the floor and I hugged him and felt the water pour over us. He stroke my back and I whispered "I love you so much Jared." he moved his hands to my face and looked at me and said "And I love you.". Then he pressed his lips softly against mine and I closed my eyes and enjoyed the kiss. Then he siad "Would you ever consider getting married again?" I opened my eyes in shock and couldn't believe my ears. I stared at him and said "What? hang on... what do you mean?". He looked realyl serious and said "Well, I'm not asking you to marry me now but in the future, would you want to get married again or are you as against it as tove is?". I stroke his chest and said "You just cought me by surprise but of course I would love to get married again. I love the feeling and I don't get why tove is so against it.". He smiled and said "I'm glad to hear that because I knwo that I wouldn't be able to take a no over and over again like jensen.". I stroke his cheek and said "I know and I wouldn't break your heart like that... But you're not asking now right?". he laughed and kissed me and said "no, we said we were going to take it easy so I'm not going to ask you to marry me right now.". I smiled and said "Good, because i want to marry you some day but I don't think that doing it now would be such a good idea.". he laughed and said "No it wouldn't so don't worry." then he walked closer to me and I felt his body against mine and he wrapped his arms around me and I hugged him back and then he said "i'm going to miss you like crazy while you're in paris.". I sighed and kissed his shoulder and said "i'm going to miss you too, especially at night.". He nodded and said "Same here... I love you." I smiled and said "i love you too.". After awhile we got out of the shower and got dressed alittle anyway and went downstairs.

We walked downstairs hand in hand and walked into the kitchen and found Tove, jensen, krisen, ohan and Johanna. I walked over to tove at once and gave her a hug and said "I love you honey.". She smiled and said "I love you too, has this become some kind of ritual or what?". I smiled and siad "Well if it is then I like it." she smiled and said "Same here.". Then I walked back to jared and we sat down around the table and Jensen asked if we weren't going to eat but Jared said "I brought her breakfast on bed this morning so no.". Jensen shook his head and said "Dude, I told you not to spolie her.". then Krisen said "It's not possible to spolie her more then she already is." then everyone started to laugh but Jared kissed my cheek and said "I don't care, I like to pamper with her so.". I smiled and kissed him nad said "I love you, have I told you that lately?" he smiled an dsaid "I love you too and I think you told me that just a few minutes ago but I don't mind.". I smiled and kissed him again and said "I can tell you that all the time if you like. I love you." then Krisen said "okay fine we know, you guys are so cute that you make me want to puke.". We all started to laugh and then Jared said "Shall we go to Nicky?" I nodded and we said goodbye to everyone and walked into the garage and took the Lambo and drove over to nicky. I was pretty nervous about talking with zara about it and we hadn't exacly warned nicky about our visit either but when we parked the car infront of the house we met Emma and Kim outside and I said "Hey girls.". They smiled and said "Hi, what are you guys doing here?" I said "We're going to have a talk with nicky and zara. Where are you going?". Emma said "We are going into town to shop alittle. bye!". I smiled and we said goodbye and knocked on the door and opened it. I called out nickys name adn then he peeked out his head from the kitchen and he smiled and said "Hi Madde! and Jared, good to see you.". I smiled and took Jareds hand and walked over to the kitchen adn gave Nicky a hug and said "Good to see you again.". He smiled and siad "You too." then I walked into the kitchen and gave zara a hug and said "Is it okay if I borrow Nicky for one second? Jared will stay here with you.". She nodded and said "YEah sure, can I get you a cup of coffee Jared?". He shook his head and sat down opposit zara and I asked nicky to follow me to the livingroom. He did as I asked and we sat down on the sofa and I said "You haven't told her?" he sighed and shook his head and said "That's why you're here?". I nodded ad said "Yes, I'm here because we have to tell zara about the kiss and we have to do it now. You should have done it the day it happened but we'll just have to do it now insted then.". He nodded adn said "I know... I just... No, you know what. You're right. Let's do it.". I smiled slightly and took his hand and said "Everything is going to be okay, it was just a slip up and people make mistakes.". He nodded and then we walked into the kitchen together where Zara and Jared was talking and when we entered they got silent and looked at us and Nicky said "Zara. We have something we need to tell you.". I could see in her eyes that she got really uneasy and I said "I know you're going to be upset and you have all the right to be but we are asking you to overlook it this time.". She said "What?" and nicky said "I'm sorry but we kissed.". She stared at us and then at jared and she ask "What do you mean, you kissed?" and I said "When I was here for dinner last tuesday, we kissed goodbye... We never meant for it to happen but we slipped up and did it anyway.". She didn't say anything but then she looked at Jared and asked "You knew about this!?" he nodded and said "Yeah, Madde told me that same night and I forgave her. I trust her and I know that she loves me but she still have feelings for nicky and to slip up then is an easy thing to do.". She shook her head and said "Why didn't you tell me sooner!?" and Nicky said "I'm so sorry, I know I should have. I guess I was just so scared about what you would do so I didn't.". She just stared at us and then she walked passed us and went out through the front door that just opened because Shane and the others came home from a walk. Shane walked into the kicthen and asked "What happened?" I said "We told her about the kiss.". He slowly nodded and put a hand on nickys shoulder and asked "You okay?" he just shrugged and said "I suppose I should give her some time..". I nodded and said "yeah do that." then I gave Shane a big hug and said "it's good to see you again.". He smiled and said "You too." then he walked over to Jared and said "It's nice too see you too again Jared.". He nodded and shook his hand and said "You too shay... And thank you.". shane asked "What for?" and Jared looked at me and then back to Shane and said "For being there for madde when she needed you, when she was hurting.". Shane nodded and said "My pleasure, I love her. She is an amazing friend and I hate to see her in pain.". I walked over to them and said "I love you guys." they smiled and gave me a hug and both of them said "love you too.". After that we just sat in the livingroom for a while and talked and laughed and had a good time but after a few hours Jared said that it was time to go home and eat so we gave everyone a hug and walked to the door. Nicky followed us and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek and then he turned to jared and said "I'm really sorry.". Jared shook his head and held out his hand and said "It's okay, I know it's easy to slip up and I still want the two of you to be friends because you mean so much to madde and you were there for her when she needed someone and I wasn't there. So thank you Nicky.". I think nico got pretty shocked but he shook jareds hand and said "Thank you and I would do anything for madde. She is an amazing woman and she loves you. You are a lucky man.". Jared smiled and pulled me closer and said "i know. yeah she is truly amazing and I love her too but trust me, I know how lucky i am.". I smiled and kissed his cheek and then we said goodbye to nicky and drove off home.

When we got there everyone was already sitting at the table eating and we excused ourselfs for being late and joined them around the table. Then Johanna asked "Okay, so you guys have been at nickys all day?". I nodded and said "Yeah, we had some important things to talk about." and then tove said "and how did zara take those important things?". I looked at her and said "Well, not so good... or acctually, I don't know because she left the house. Maybe you can call her and if she wants to she can still come here tonight? And sara too of course...". She nodded and said "i can call her..." I nodded and said "thank you." but then johanna said "Wait... what was these important things you were talking about?". I sighed and said "Well I've been... or still am in love with Nicky and he feels the same for me and have been feeling that way for a great while now but we are trying our best to stay away from each other but then we slipped up last tuesday and kissed and we told zara that today and she didn't take it so good.". Johanna slowly nodded and said "oookay... I tought you wre together with Jared." but then he said "We aren't together.". And I smiled and whispered mostly to myself "yet." but johanna heard that and said "So you madde think you guys will be together again.". I smiled a shy smile and said "Well, it's my hopes but we are taking it really slow but I really love him.". She smiled and looked at jared and said "And you love her?" he smiled and looked at me and said "With all my heart.". I felt allt he blood in my body rush up to my cheeks and butterflies started to go mental in my stomach and Johanna said "Well there you go, it's not going to be a problem.". I smiled and said "I'm glad you are so possitive about this Johanna." she smiled and said "Well, I have to be because you two look amazing together and if you don't want jared... I would love to take him, he has a pretty fine ass.". everyone started to laugh and I said "You wouldn't dare go anywhere near his ass, that's mine!". We all laughed and jared kissed my cheek and said "Yeah, it says Madde on it.". I smiled and said "really, I wanna see. let's see." and Johanna nodded encourageingly. Jared just shook his head and continued to eat and so did the rest of us but I couldn't keep my hands off his ass so I put my hand on his back and slowly moved it lower towards his ass and he looked at me and smiled and placed a hand on my thigh and moved it higher which sent chills down my spine. I sat up slightly and felt how worked up I got and then I said "Do you guys have to o out tonight?!". Jensen and tim looked at me surpirsed and Jared just smiled and Tim said "Yeah why shouldn't we?". I smiled alittle and shrugged and said "Well, tonight isn't a good night." but then Jared leaned closer to me and whispered "I won't drink so much tonight and I'll be home as soon as I can because i already miss you sexy.". I smiled and kissed him and then Jensen said "You guys said that tove and I where insane but you guys are not any better! You don't want us to go out tonight because you want to have some fun insted with jared.". I smiled and said "can you blame me?" and johanna just shook her head and said "no, sister!". We all began to laugh again and then tim said "Molly is comeing around 7 and you guys are going to be nice to her! you hear me madde!?". I stared at him shocked and said "what are you saying? Taht I, of all people, would be mean to her?!". He just looked at me and i said with the nices voice I have and my puppydog eyes "i will be like an angel!". and Tove began to laugh and I smiled and tim just stared at me and said "you can be such a bitch sometimes madde.". krisen said "Tim, you don't say things like that to you'r sister.". Then tim said "She is not my sister." and tove said "No, because otherwise that would have been really gross. Brothers and sisters shouldn't have sex.". Krisen shook her head and johanna just stared at then he said "hang on!? now I have missed something again... You two have had sex!?". I nodded and said "yeah, long time ago..." she just looked at me in disbelife and Tim said "Anyway, be nice!". I smiled and got up and walked over to him and stood behind his chair and put my hands on his shoulders nad slowly moved them over his chest and abs and I stroke my nose against his neck and whispered "I'm always nice, otherwise you'll have to punish me.". He took a few deep breaths but I saw that he had goosebumps on his arms and I knew that it was hard for him to try and not bother what i was doing. He said "madde stop." but i just smiled and stroke my hands over his abs adn chest adn kissed his neck and then Krisen said "madde!" so I kissed his neck one last time na dwent back to my seat next to Jared. I took jareds hand and squeezed it and gave him a look to see if he was okay and he nodded and smiled alittle so I knew he was okay.

After dinner tove, jensen, jared and I went up to mine and jareds room and watched a movie and then Tove called sara and zara and asked if they wanted to come over which there did. Zara had apparently gone back home and talked to nicky and now they are okay again and so is zara and I. After the movie Jared and jensen went to take a shower and change clothes and then we all went downstairs and waited for sara and zara to arrive. When they finally arrived Tim came downstairs hand in hadn with molly and she siad "thanks you girls for wanting to hang out with me tonight.". Nobody said anything and Tim was like staring at me so that I wouldn't say anything stupid and then he said "shall we go lads?". Jared and Jensen nodded and got up and Jared pulled me up with him and gave me a passionated kiss and said "miss you already, love you.". i smiled and stroke his back and over his bum and said "miss you too and I love you so. Can't wait for you to come home again.". he gave me a cheesy smile and kissed me againa nd then they all left us girls alone in the livingroom. We sat in the livingroom for like an hour and talked and then tove ran off and got a movie and put it on and it was alot of really hot guys in it. We ate icecream and candy and drank some breezers but then Sara said "OMG! We can't let Zara and madde drink to many of these!". Then Zara and I just bursted out laughing and I said "Why not, just think about it. We can have a big orgasm orgy here.". everyone started to laugh except molly who said "What do you mean?" I sighed and said "that we all should have sex.". And molly stared at us like we were insane and said "I'm not gay!" and I said "Neither are we, as you might know since I took tim from you... Btw are you good or bad in bed?". Sara, zara and tove was like giggeling like crazy and molly didn't say anything and then I said "I mean, Tim clearly picks me ahead of you.... So you can't be better then me but I get a feeling that you suck.". She stood up and said "I'm not and tim loves and not you!" then tove said "There is where you're worng. Tim loves Madde and he is only with you because he can't have her.". Molly stared at us and then she stormed out of there and out through the front door and all of us just smiled and tove siad "Well done.". I smiled and took a sip of my breezer and said "thank you very much. Let's have some fun.". and we continued to watch the movie and then we painted our nails like Tove said we would and then we took a dip in the pool and then we watched another movie with sexy men in. I have to say that we had a really good night but I was missing jared alot all the time and I can't even bein to think about how hard it's going to be to be away from him a whole weekend. Thank God for the phones. :P ahhaha

When the clock started to turn 1 I was really tired of waiting for Jared and I was like complaining all the time nad then Zara said "Stop complaining! They are coming home soon and then you'll get your sex.". i laughed and said "but I want it now!" and then she said "Well, let's o then. you and me, upstairs...". I smiled and tove and sara just stared at us and then we bursted out laughing and i said "We weren't serious!!! Are you crazy!?" and we all began to laugh but then we heard the frontdoor open and I ran into the hallway and saw all the guys there and I ran into Jareds arms and kissed him and he smiled and said "i've missed you." and I said "i've missed you too, now come on!". he laughed and said "You know what, I'm starving and you know that I'm not good at performing on an empty stomach.". I sighed and gave him a kiss and said "hurry!". Then I went into the livingroom and said goodnight to the girls and then i went upstairs to blog but now Jared is here and damn he is so sexy and I'm going to have sex now so you'll hear more from me the day after tomorrow! Nighty!

Take care
Love
Madde