It was just an accident! ;P

Hey guys!

Well the atmosphere around here isn't the best and especially not today.
I will tell you more about that later.

This morning I woke up at five a clock of Jensens fingers gently pulling throw my hair, and then he crawled closer to I could feel he's nice stomach to my back he kissed my shoulder and then he put he's hand on my bare stomach, I lifted my hand and put it in he's hand. Then he whisperd " Are you awake?" I turned around and smiled at him and looked at he's goreguse face and gave him a kiss, he looked so sad and eh started to apologize for wakeing me up when I finally was sleeping. I Smiled and said " Honey don't worry about it, I got to sleep a whole hour. And it's so nice to be woken up by you" He started to say he was sorry agian, and that he loved my red hair and just had to touch it. I said " Jensen what did I say, It's fine even more then fine. It's not even my hair but thanks, and you can touch as much as you want" He smiled and kissed me.And then I realize what the time was and that I was need of some fun. And know you all probaly think that I wanted to have sex, then you are all so wrong and all so horney ;P haha I walked down stairs and when I came back I had a big bucket with me, and Jensen looked at me like I was crazy, I walked into the bathroom and poured ice cold water in the bucket and I put a lot of ice cubes in there too which I had taken from the freezer. Then I walked over to Maddes room, now I was getting even from her water glass, and maybe for what she sai dto me yesterday about me beeing happy about her and Nico. She looked so sweeit and peaceful in her bed, but that didn't last for long I smiled for myself and poured the whole big buket of water and ice cubes on her. I heard a screm but then I was allready out of her room and when I got in side of my room Jensen looked confused and asked why Madde had been screaming, I just told him that I would tell him later. Then I laied myslef next to him again and started to make out with him, I put my hand inside of he's boxers which was the only thing he was wearing, he put he's hand on my back, but then a soaking wet furios Madde slam up our door. She started to yell at me and me and Jensen just looks at her and I played stupied and tol dher that it wasn't me. Then she yelled more, but since I refused to admit it was me she took walked to the bed and pulled me out and look my hand and we walked to her room and she pointed at the bed and at the buket and she said angry" Don't you recognize this?!" I shacked my head and when I was just going go throw the door I said " Just so you know, I think it would be a good idea to wash you hand that you where holding mine in since my hand has been inside of Jensens boxers just so you know " I hear her yell after me " Fuck you!". I laughted and walked back to Jensen and he asked if it was that I had been doing, I just nooded and he started to laugh too. :P Haha

Breakfast was really earily since everone had woken up by Maddes scream. Madde just glared at me while we where eating breakfast, I just smiled back and then she said " I know it was you!" I just laughted and said " Maybe, maybe not" Then Madde left.
It's not that we are really fighting, this is more for fun or something, I love to mess with her :P HAHA

After breakfast I went up starirs to take a shower and then Jensen asked if I wanted to go for a walk, of course I said yes since it was sun outside.
We walked away where not so many people walkes, I useally go here with the dogs, it's a small road and then it's wood on the sides, so you have the dogs loose.
Well anyway Jensen took my hand in he's and we talekd about our sexy date we have had a few days ago, and that I had missed him inside of me and all that. I could feel how more and more worked up I got while we was talking about it, so I pulled my hand out of his and I walked a little faster and stopped infront off him, and gave him a long sexy kiss, mean while I put my hands inside of he's shirt and touched he's back and then he's abs. Then I started to undo he's jense, he stopped me with he's hand and he stopped kissing me as well and he asked what I was doing; I gave him a cheesy smile and said " What do you thinl sexy?"I started to undo he's pants again and then Jensen said " Tove not here! Plz" I smiled and put my hand on he's cheast and kissed he's neck which I know he love and then I whipserd into he's ear" Yes right here" I took a grip of his ear lobe with my teeth, I let go and started to kiss he's neck again while I strok my hand on the outside of he's jense on he's ass and then on the frontside. Jensen didn't do anything he just stood there, because I know how uncomferble he is with this. But I could feel that something started to get a little bit firmer inside off he's pants, so I know he liked it. So I walked in to the woods a little and pulled my shirt of and leaned myself against a tree, he just stood there on the road. I said " So how much do a girl has to do, to get you here? Do I have to touch myself, dose that turne you on?" I started to touche my stomach and unbuttom my jense and I put my own hand inside of my panties, I could hear that I started to moarn, I asked Jensen " Dó you want to miss out off all the good?" He didn't answer he just stood there looking at me like I was crazy. So I pulled out my hand and walked over to him, gave him a sexy smile and kissed him. Then I took a hard grip around he's shirt and pulled him with me and I started to walk to the tree I had been with. I pushed him against the tree, I started to undo he's jenses and this time he didn't say anything, even though he still looked really uncomforble. I pulled he's jense down and put my hand inside of he's boxers and tried to make it comfterble for he's big beast. But since Jensen wasn't that willig about all this since he was still just standing there, I have to say he was more hard seduced then I thought. Well anyway like I said he wasn't that willing so it was not easy to get he's beast worked up, so insted of working to hard with that inside of he's boxers, so I pulled them off and used my hand and my mouth instead which was so more effctive even though I just stayed a few minuts. Then I kissed him and put my hand inside of he's shirt and pulled it over he's shoulder to get it off, which was also kind of hard since he wasn't that helpful. But i started to kiss he's chest, stomach and farther down agian and countine going down at him, while I was doing it I looked up and saw that he really tried he's best to fight back and stand by that he din't like what I was doing. But he started to moan more and more, even though he tried to hide it and I think he tried to think about something else, so while I was doing it, I took one of my hands and grabed he's ass, then he couldn't keep it inside of him anymore so he gave me a loud moan and I continue with what I was doinf for a while longer then I let go of he's beast with was really worked up now, and started to kiss he's abs and strok he's back, but then he couldn't control himself anymore so eh just garbed my arm and pulled me up so we stood face to face, I gave him a smile and then he starte dto kiss me and undo my bra, which he throw on a branch. He started to kiss me on the neck down to my cheast and then to my boobes and down to my stomach, he pulled my jeans down since they where all reday unbuttom since I had do that myself. He pulled my panties down with he's teeth and touched mt thigh with he's hand, first the outside of it and then teh inside and he movied he's hand up and up. At our rightside just 5 meters away it was a tree who had falled and was laing there, so I took Jensens hand from my thigh and walked him to the fallen tree. He kissed me then he carefully laied me down on the three. And since I had gone down an him, he had to go down on me, I love it when guys do that. I hate when I have done it at them and then they are satisfied and just care about themself and odn't do it back. But i know Jensen would never do that, while he was doing it he strok my thigh, I could hear myself moarning louder and louder, he even helped out with a few fingers, he's like the best over on doing that on me. After a while he smiled and asked " Are you worked up enough so I can get inside of you?" I smiled back and said " Jensen I was wet enough before you had even laiyed your hands on me " He laughted and started to kiss my lips, and it was so wounderful to feel him inside of me. I moan and he looked at me and smiled and I started to kiss him while I was touching he's amazing back with my hands. He gave me a cheesy smile and said " Are you having a nice time down there?" Just before I answerd I gave out a loud moan, and I said " What do you think?" He smiled again and started to go faster and harder. Both off us started to moan. I took my hand on he's neck and oulled he's face to me so I could kiss him. After a while he told me that he was close and so was, he startedto breath faster and faster and he got even mor eager to be as deep inside of me as eh could. He started to get louder and moarned more, then he told me that he was coming, but after he was done he continued with what he was doing just so I got to come, which I did, I moan really loud and just graped he's hair with my fingers, he started to kiss me again.

Then we heard a voice saying " Hey! that is something you should keep at home, and not here!" I reconize teh voice and so did Jensen, it ws Krisen!! Me and Jensen just frose to ice, I could see that he just wanted to disapear, I just got angry.Then Krisen said " People do you hear me, move it! " I coukd hear that she walked a few steps then I heard a familiar screm which said " TOVE ALEXANDERSSON!!!! IS THAT YOU?!" I sign and said " Hey mum." Then we heard a nother woman voice saying chocked and a little angry " Jensen is that you?" I just said to myself " Fuck, fuck, fuck!! Your parnets are here?!" Jensen looked like he wanted to die! Krisen yelled at me and said " You are getting you ass her right now!! Both off you!!" I said angry " Can I get dressed or do you want me to walk liek this to home?! " She yelled at us to get dressed fast, I yelled back " Fine!! But can you all turne around!" Which they did, Jensen didn't even look at me when he walked up from me, he fast started to get dressed, and I stood up and I saw it was, Krisen, Johan, Donna, Alan and my rottweiler Ebba, who's immediately started to wave her tail when she saw me and got all happy. I took my bra and put it on, then I said on swedish so not Jensens parents would undertstand " It will take a while to get dressed for me" Krisen asked back in swedish angry why! I said camly in swedish" because I have to wait intill everyone of Jensens swimers have run out of me, because I don't want it in my panties" I mostly just said it to piss Krisen off even more but it was kind of true too. She just yelled at me" And you think I care?!!" I smiled for myself and said camly " No, but I do. " Since Jensen have known me now for soon three years he do understands swedish and he can even speak alittle if he wants to but thats's not often because he think he's to bad, so he just gave me a look like " was that nessasary to say?" I just gave him a smile. After a while when I also was dressed, we slowy walked towards them, I felt so bad for Jensen he looked like he just wanted to pretend thet he was invisble, and wasn't there, he thought this was so embarrassing. When we was almost infront of them , Krisen said angry " I should of let the dog on you two, you are so fucking slow!!" I just laughted and said " Good luck! She is my dog remebere and she loves me more then anyone!" Ebba was loose and Krisen had told her to sit down next to her and stay there, but when I got to close she couldn't stay anymore, she just rushed to me and she was so happy. I just looked at Krisen and said " What did I just say?" She just looked at me like she was going to kill me I have never seen her that angry before! I sat down to talk to Ebba, Krisen just took a really hard grip of my arm, and I gave Jensen parents a fast look becuse I was to afrid to see how much they hated me now, Jensen didn't look at them either he just started to walk home without a glare at anyone or a word. I shacked Krisens hand away and got loose, I ran to Jensen who was a few meters infront of us, and Ebba followed me playful. I walked next to Jensen who was looking down the groved, and I put my hand in he's but he just pulled he's hand away without a word or a even a look.I whisper to him that I was really sorry about this and it was all my fauilt but he still just looked down. Then the other one had walked even with us, Krisen looked at me really angry, but she didn't say anything, but I knew that hell would break lose at home behind closed doors.
We walked home in dead silence. Jensen was still looking down and tried he's best to get invisble, I walked next to him and strok his arm with my hand down to he's hand and I tried to take he's hand again but he just didn't let me. Krisen just looked at my hand and then at Jensens and then then straight at me and she looked like she was going to shoot me or something, but I just looked back at her just as angry. I still hadn't dared to look at Alan and Donna.

When we got home krisen told me and Jensen go into the livingroom, and we did and so did krisen,Johan, Donna and Alan. Without looking at Donna and Alan I said " If I where you I would leave this houes right now, because me and mum fighting is nothing you want to hear trust me" They told us that they had to go anyway because they acutally had a freind here in stockholm who they was invited to lunch. So they talked to Jensen a little before they left, but he just still looked down then they walked out of there.

So now it was just me, Krisen, Jensen and Johan. I could see that Krisen was soon going to yell at us. Before she started I said " Remebre thet I'm 25 years old and Jensen is 31 so we are not kids" Then she snapped and started to yell at us that our age didn't seems to matter since we should be more responsible and act our age and that we should be ashame of ourself. I tried to be calm and not snapp myself Jensen was still just stainding there. Then mum yelled something so I couldn't keep it togheter any more she said " So whos stupied ide was this?!! Was it your Jensen?!" Jensen just looked up for the first time but he didn't say anything, then I totally snapped and yelled" How can you blame him when you don't even know the whole story!! That's so wrong!! No it was not Jensens Idea, it was just my idea!! So let Jensen go, becasue he was so against this all the way throw it!!" Krisen got even more angry and I told Jensen to leave us which he did. Krisen yelled " Your i dea?!! Do you have to do everything Madde dose?!!!" I answerd " Well It was Madde who did as me" I thought she was really going to explode and she yelled " This isn't the first time?!!!!" I said " It's teh first time with Jensen. But it's not the first time outside, you remebre my sexy docter who you flirted with too, well he was teh first one and the second one. " I thought she was going to kill me! Johan look her arm to calm her down but she just pushed him away, before she got the time to say anything more I said " the first time was at a bench and the second on the beach, and then alot of other places in spain, and I have also had some fun in a bathroom on a club with Henriks brother" She yelled at me " Havn't I teach you anything at all?!! What have happend to my daughter?!! You are so irresponsible, It's like I odn't even know you!! i'm so disappointed at you!! In the wood!!! Near a road, it was made for someone to fine you two!!! " Then I said camly" But mum don't you want grandchilds? who will tell you that you are the best grandma ever. That was me and Jensen was trying to do" Johan just looked at me like was that nessesry! Krisen yelled " Of course I do, but they are not goingto be conceived in a fucking forest!!
They are going to be conceived in a bed with closed and locked doors!! " I said camly said " Yeah maybe, but now your daughter need to go to the bathroom and pull out spruce leaf from the place where baby comes out from" Mum just yelled " You are not going anywhere!!" I just yelled " You can't tell me what to do!!! " Then the whole family came running down to the livingrrom and they alll looked at us really confused, then My asked " Why are you yelling at each other?" Both me and Krisen looked at her angry and then My said " Tell me!!" Then I just snapped and yelled to her " That is not of business just leave!" My looked at me and then she strated to cry and ran out of there crying. I just sign and walked out of the livingroom even though mum yelled at me to stay wheer I was. Madde walked after me and we stopped in the hallway and she laughted alittle and whipser" Jensen told me and I totally love it! But he's kind of torn down about all this. I feel bad for him, he is in his room. " Mum was still yelling at me and the rest of the family looked confused. I shouted after Jensen and asked if he wanted to come with me to the stable, I didn't get an answer but after a minute he came down from teh strairs and said he wanted to go. Mum yelled " You two are not going anywhere togheter! " Johan said camly too her" It's not like they would do anything in the stable " I laughted and said " Johan you ahve alot to learn, you should judt know what me and my ex Pete did in there" Krises eyes was seriously black and she yelled " You wheren't even a couple!!" I laughted and said " That's what you think. " Then I opend the door and me and Jensen left, but I could her her screaming at us before teh door closed.

We start walking towards the stable and Jensen didn't say anything. I stopped him and got infron off him and he just looked down. So I took a grip of his chin and lifted his head up so I could see him in the eyes. He looked sad, embarresed and uncomfterble, I let go of he's chin and strok my fingertips on he's cheek and said " Jensen I'm so sorry, I never wanted you to do something you didn't want too, it's my fauilt and you have all right to be angry with me, because I didn't listen to you at all, I'm really sorry" He finally said something " It's not your fauilt, it's not like you made me do it. " I looked deep into he's eyes and I asked " So why did you do it them? If you didn't want to?" I looked down again and started to walk, when I get next to him agian I ook his hand and this time he didn't pull it away. I said " You know you can tell me everything right? " He sign and said " Yeah I know, but you will think I'm stupied and an Idoit " I squeeze his hand harder and said " Jensen I want think think you are stupied or an idoit I promis, becaus it's your oppinen then it's not stupied, and even if I did think such things then I would still love you and nothing can chance that even if I think you are stupied, which I probaly don't think, so plz tell me honey" He thought about it for a short while then he stopped and looked down and said " Well the reason why I couldn't say no, it because of.... Henrik. He should off done than that with you right the way, and I know you like it and he would never had said no... " I pulled his head up agian so I could look deep into he's eyes and then I said " No your right he wouldn't said no at all, but if I wanted you to be like Henrik then I would off had Henrik has my boyfriend instead, but I don't, I choosed you right? So then I want you to be you and not some else, I want to have the Jensen I love and care about and who I know love me more then ever and would never hurt me, that is the Jensen I love. And yes I do like it, but if you don't then we don't have to I don't want you to feel uncomfterble what we are doing " He said " Yeah you are right you choosed me, I'm ridiculous for doing something I don't want too, but it's hard, because when we was fighting and you where with Henrik it looked like you two was always having fun and laughing and doing crazy things, I hate myself for not being so easy going and not think anything is embarrassing and just do it where we feel like it, so I'm jealous off him for he could do the things you like and to satisfy you in the way that I can't like outside and he could make it exciting. I wish I could make you happy in the same why, but I just can't do what he did and which I know you like " I said " Now I starteing to think you are an idoit! You don't think I'm happy with you? That's crazy, I have never been this happy before ever, you can asked Madde or anyone around me. Even if you don't do those things dosn't mean we can make it exciting in some 0ther way, sex isen't the most importent thing, because if it was then I would just be sleeping around all the time and I don't want that, I want you. Jensen Ackles you are my life for now and forever with or without public sex, I don't care. And you should now that you are way better then Henrik is or ever will be, you know exatlly what I like. " He smiled a little and said " Can you promis me that you are happy? And I'm better huh?" I smiled and said " I promis with all my heart and soul, you are an amazing man Jensen. Oh yeah so much better, don't worry! " He looked happy agian and said " not as amazing as you are. Great, who has the biggest one?" I laughted and kissed him and said " Jensen!" He laughted and said " What, you can talk to Madde about this but not me?" I laughted and said " Fine, Of course you has a the biggest one, otherwise I had proably choosed henrik, you know all I look for when I choose is of course just the size " He laughted and said " You are just saying mine is bigger because you want to be nice" I said " No I'm not, I promis, and if you don't belive me ask Madde she have seen both Henriks and yours. But Henriks feels good to have inside you I have to say, but yours... Oh My God, it's absolutely amazing to have you inside of me!! Maybe we should measure how big your is and fine something in that size and put it inside of you, I can help you if you like so you know how good it feels. But you proably all reday know how big it is, admit you have measure it sometime under all your 31 years?" He laughted and said " Maybe I should ask Madde. So it is that good huh? Tove no we are not doing that! No I haven't measure it" I laughted and said " Do that, Madde would gladly answer. Oh yeah, that's the best feeling ever!! I always want it in there! Why not, you will it I think since you have your G-spot in there. Jensen come on every guy have" He said " I know she will I just hope she is choosen the right one. Well then we agree because I always want to be in there, I love it! Tove I don't think so, I like the feeling as it is. Fine I have measure it, but I was about 15
when I did it or maybe a little older" I laughted and said " She will, otherwise she is blind! Maybe we should make that happen alittle more often then or what do you say? Okay sorry, I know you said no. And I know you like it! What did I say! I was right! But that was along time ago it have probaly growen since then, I can help you cheek tonight with a measureing tape? When we are alone behind locked doors" He smiled and said " I would love that, tonight then" I got closer to him and grabed his ass and kissed his amazing lips. When we let go he smiled and we started to walked again towards the stable.

We walked into the stable and we walked around to see how all my horses was doing, I have about 50 horses, the last one I walked to was my birthday horse I had resived from Madde, his name is Shadow and he's absoutly amazing. I open the box and we went in to him. When we ahd been there for while with him, Jensen walked to the other side of Shadow where I was standing and he gave me a kiss, I looked at shadow and then at Jensen and said to him " Now you have competition " Jensen laughted and said " Do you mean the horse? I way hotter then he is! " I smiled and said " Doubtful" He gave me a really long and hot kiss and said " Well he can't do that" I laughted and said " No he can't! but like I said I choose by size and his way bigger then yours " He just said " Shut up!" I laughted at looked what the time was and it soon tiem for dinner. So we said good bye to the horses and started to walk back to teh house. Jensen said sarcastic" This is going to be a pleasant dinner" I laughted and look his hand and said " Yeah but we have each other" He kissed me and smiled.

When we got inside everyone was all reday sitting at the table, Madde smiled at me when she saw us and we satt down. I still didn't had the courage to look at Jensens parents. And Krisen looked like we wanted to kill us all. It was just teh youger children who was talking.

After dinner I walked out the stairs towards mt room, but in the hallway I meet Donna and Alan, I didn't know what to do, I just wanted to disappear. Donna stopped me and she gave me a hug and said " We still love you Tove and we want you to get married to our son and be the mother of our grand kids, even thought we think it was a irresponsible and a really nad place, but that dosen't chance how we feel for you. You are almost liek our daughter and we know you are young and want to try things, but just think before you do anything" She let go of the hug and I huged Alan and when we let go I said " Thanks, but I wnat you to know that I'm so sorry about all this and how embarresed I'm, and we will use our brain next time instead of something else. " They smiled and Aland said " That sounds good" Then I they wlkaed by me and I wlaked into my room and efter a few minuts Jensen walked throw the door, I tod him about he's parents, before he had the chance to say anthing it kncoked on my door and it was Zara. She smiled at Jensen and said " Is it okay if I talk to your girlfreind or a short while?" Jensen walked towards the door and said " Of course!" Then he closed it behind me and Zara. She sat down on my bed and she asked if madde was angry hated her, because she had looked so angry when she had
meet her downstairs now. I said "I don't think she hate you she is just angry with you for hurting Nico when you said it was his fauilt that with madde cuting hersef. " She said " Oh that, I din't really mean it I was just angry and scared. But to be honest I think my and Nickys fights is just between us and she has no right to be pissed at me. " I told her that I agreed with her. And I asked how it was between her and Nico today, she said " Well it's not great but it's better then yesterday, and I'm still to chicken to talk to him about I feel about everything. Maybe when we get away from her for a while it will getter better, I think the kids are alittle worried since the atmosphere isen't that good at home right now. But we just have to fix this is someway. " I said " You can alwas call me while you are in China I would love to talk. And I hope evrything will be fine. " She said " thanks, I probaly will. Well now I have to go home and pack since we are leaving really early tomorrow morning. " She gave me a hug and I follow her down, Nico was talking to Madde. He gave her a hug and said " Will be here tomorrow morning and say goodbye to you I promis" I looked at Zara and she didn't look so happy about it.
When they left Madde wanted to know evrything about what had happend today so I sat down and told her, she laughted and laughted.

While I was talking to Madde, My walked by us she gave me a angry glare and ran up to her room. I told madde I had to talk to My, so I went to her room and knocked and I didn't get an answer but i walked inside anyway. She was painting a colour book she didn't even look up when I sat down next to her on the floor. I satt ther a shrt while before I said " My, I'm so sorry for yelling at you, I wasn't really angry with you, so what i did was so wrong. Can you forgive me?" She looked up and now she was smiling and she said " Yes, but just if you play with me " I smiled and gave her a kiss on her cheek and said " Of course"

Well now it's evening and it have been a weird day, and now I'm waiting on Jensen with his measureing tape ;) You will hear from Madde tomorrow. Have a great night, I will anyway ;)
Kisses
Tove