Secret Date?

Hello people, today it's monday and I'm home! :D YAY!!

Madde and Jensen picked me up last night from the hospital and drived me home. When I got home everyone was standing in the hallway to give me a hug and say hi, except My ofcourse because she was allredy a sleep.
Since the clock was pretty late everyone went to sleep and mum went to work because she was working night. Me, Jensen, Madde and Jared satt down outside on the porch since it was still really warm outside. We talked for a while and laughed like we always do then I told Jensen that I wanted to go to bed since I was kind of tired after all the test and needed to rest, since I still can't sleep. So we said good night to Madde and Jared and walked upstairs.
Outside my room Jensen asked " So which room am I sleeping in now?" I said " You still sleeping in the guste room?" He smiled and said " Yes ofcourse I do, it felt weird to stay in your room without you there" I smiled and said " You are stupied do you know that? It's not just my room now it's our room, so now we just have to start moving everything " I laughed and said " Yeah I'm stupied and inlove, and that makes me stupied. Let's move over all my things to OUR room then" I gave him a kiss and we started to move evrything over.

When we was done we got undressed, Jensen was just sleeping in he's boxers because it's so hot inside and I just slepped in my painties, but Jensen didn't seems to have anything aginst that and then we laid down in the bed, to try to get some sleep. But we couden't sleep we just talked and talked and talked, and kissed a little. When the time was about 2 at night I was laying on Jensens nacked cheast, then it knocked on the door and before I had the time to say come in, it opend up and there was My crying in her nightgown, I left Jensens cheast and sat up in the bed with the sheet covering me up, and I asked what was wrong, she came running towards the bed and up on it and into my arms, and put her arms arond my neck. She cried and said" I had a nightmare, about a big green monster who was going to kill the whole family, It' scared! Since mum is working and I don't want to go to Johan and then I remebre you are home. " I kissed her on the cheek and tried to tell her that monsters dosn't exist. But I wasn't that good at it.
My cried and asked " Can't I sleep here with you?" I gave Jensen a fast look and said " Of course you can honey" She crawl down in the middle of me and Jensen and lay down. I walked up and went to the closet and put a top on. My looked at me and asked " Why are you naked? And why is Jensen not wearing any shirt or pants?" I told her that the only reason was that it was so hot in here, she agreed with that answer. She was still sobering, so Jensen gave her a hug while I walked back to the bed. I sat down next to her, she was still huging Jensen, Jensen looked at me and smiled a little, and I could see that he autally enjoyed this and I know what he was thinking, which was that he wanted to make me preagnate and get a kid.
My let go of he's neck and laied down in the bed, Jensen looked at me again and smiled, I just stared at him and shaked my head. He lead over My and gave me a kiss. My put her hand over her eyes and said " Grossed!" me and Jensen laughed. Then we laied down next to My. Instead of laying close to me like she useally do when she is scared, then she pressed herself to Jensen, and then she look my hand. Then she smiled at me and said " Tove I love you, you are the best sister ever!" I smiled and said " I love you to honey, but you can't say that you have another sister too, and she would probaly get said you said that and she heard it, so it's better you say I'm one of your best sisters ever" She said fine and turned to Jensen and said " Jensen I love you, sometimes it feel like you are my extra dad since my real dad isn't here that much and I odn't know Johan. And I like you more and I wish that I had a dad like you" I looked at Jensen and I could see that he got moved from what she just had told him and then he gave her a kiss on the forehead and said " I love you too! You are so sweeit for saying that, that really meens something to me, just so you know you can always come to me whatever it is sweety" My gave him another hug and Jensen laied her out he's arm and she put her head on it and laied down. After a while she feel a sleep really close to Jensen and on he's arm. So that was my first night with Jensen who I thought I was going to speand in he's arms, but apprently my little sister had that luck instead off me. But know that all that meant alot to Jensen so that's is importent to. But I have to say I kind of not like this either because then Jensen is longing for kids more.
After alittle while Jensen fall asleep too with My next to him, they where acutally kind of cute, I laied there looking at them almost all night.

This morning My woke up at 9, since I was all reday awake she started to talk to me and she started to tickle Jensen so he would wake up, and sweeit as he is he woke up and started to laugh and pretend that he was really tickley, and My thought that was funny so she started to laugh too. Then Jensen too a grip around her and laied her down and then he strated to tickel her too, and she was laughing so she almost was screming. Then he stopped and My sat up and tried to tickle me instead, and since I'm the most tickely person you can fine, I'm even tickly in the paw in my hand and everwhere else, and I ahte to be tickled! So even My can tickle me which I hate, but fourtently she isn't that good, but then my beloved boyfreind asked if she wanted some help and ofcours My said yes. I just yelled at Jensen that he wouldn't dear doing it! I just rushed up from the bed, but that didn't help because Jensen just rushed up to and took he's arms around me and held me, so My came and tickled me and Jensen let go off me with one of he's hands and helped her, I tought I was going to kill them! I laughted intill I cried and I yelled at them to stop but that didn't help! But after a few minuts Jensen stoped and so did My. I hit Jensen the hardedest I could on the arm, apprently it hurted, becahse he said " Ow!!" But that was just waht I wanted him to say, then I gave him a really angry look. Then he just laughed and strok my cheek with he's hand but Ijust pushed it away, then he smiled and kissed me, and I never can say no to that. Then My said " Do you always have to do that!" Our lips let go of each other and I just gave My a kiss and laughted at her. Jensen just put on a pair of pantes then we walked down staries.

I helped My doing breakfast, then we all satt down and ate. After a while Madde walked into the kitchen and satt down next to me, and she looked at me and then at Jensen and then she gave me a cheey smiled and asked " So did you two have good night? If you know what I mean?" I said " Yeah I know what you mean," I nooded at My and said " We got companie tonight, but it was kind of good anyway" My said " It was great sleeping with them, and Jensen was just wearing he's underpants and Tove just her pantis because it was so hot inside. " Madde laughed and smiled at me.
Then mum walked in the kitchen she smiled at me, Jensen and My and gave Madde a chilly look. Krisen told us all that Donna and she had planed that everyone was going out to eat tonight at some restaurant, instead of just her and Johan, but I didn’t really feel like it, since I had just gotten home I saw a opportunity to speand sometime with Jensen alone. ;) I know that mum wouldn’t let me off that easy if I didn’t had a good excuse.

So Madde who had a booty call tonight with Dennis had to chanced that alittle, so she called him and told him that she had to go to the dinner since otherwise Krisen would kill her, which was proably true. But she tol him that she would call him when everbody had gone to bed, and then they flirted a little and so on.

Well let’s start from the begging should we? Or from the afternoon, since it haven't happend that much today.
Everyone was getting ready all dressed up, Madde looked beautiful like always, Jared looked so handsome and all my brothers and sister where so cute, okay maybe not the older one they just looked great, mum looked also kind of hot, and so did Jensen parents. But no one was more sexy and gorgeous then my own boy, absolutely amazing! He had dressed up even though he knew we was not going, but or lie would off been to obvious if he wasn’t.
When almost everyone was done and stood in the hallway and waiting, even Jensen. I walked down the stairs and I was just wearing my softy pants and a warm sweater, and tried to do my best to look sick, which wasn’t that hard. I told them that I had pain and I got too tired to go anywhere, I just wanted to sleep all night. All of them got really worried, I could see that, so they where easy to trick, because my pain is actually coming and going all the time and then I get tired.
I sometimes great to have a boyfriend who is an actor, because then they can act worried in this kind of things. Jensen said in a worried voice” Then I’m also staying home, to take care of you, and don’t argue with me about this!” I just said “fine” Then Madde said “ I want to stay home to with you!” I just said “No you don’t! You will have much better time over there!” Then Krisen said “Maybe we should all stay home” I said “ No don’t do that I want you to go, you are all dressed up and handsome, so go and have a great time, Jensen will take care of me I will be fine” I convinced everyone except Madde, so I walked to her and gave her a hug and whisper into her ear “ I’m feeling great, me and Jensen just want to be alone, if you know what I mean. Sorry for not telling you and plz send us a SMS when you are leaving the restaurant, and plz try not to go home to soon, and you will have your fun tonight” We let go and she gave me a cheesy smile and said “Let’s go” Before she walked out the door she mimed with her lips “ Have a really great night” Then she gave me a smile and I smiled back.

When the door got closed behind them, I throw my arms around Jensens neck and said “Finally alone!” He smiled and said “Oh yeah, I have to say I love your plans. But where do we start, with the food or do you want to ship it and go to the dessert right the way?” I laugh and said “We have to eat, we have to wait then it will get even better. Or maybe you shouldn't get anything at all since you didn't care for a few days ago” He said “ Yeah but still haven’t we waited enough, it was ages since last time” I laugh and said “ Take it easy you just have to keep it in your pants for a little while long, and after that I will gladly help you to take those pants off” He kissed me and he asked if we should start, I told him that if he looked that hot, I wanted to change so I didn’t look like a hobo while he looked like a prince. So I went up stairs and put on a red dress, which was really low cut in the front and really short just under my ass and a pair black really high pumps. When makeup and hair and everything was done, I walked down stairs again and walked in to living room where Jensen was sitting and waiting for me, when he saw me he stood up and checked me out from top to toe and said “ Damn woman! Do you know how sexy you look?! Now it will be really hard to control myself!” I laughed and kissed him and said “ Let’s go and make some food together” We talked together to the kitchen he put he’s hand on my waist, while we walked to the kitchen his hand wander even farther down then my waist, I looked at him and laughed then he moved it up again to my waist.

When we got to the kitchen we started to cook, and it was really fun with a lot of laughter especially for me, Since love to cook and I think I’m kind of good at it and Jensen is just a beginner, the first time he cooked a real meal how wasn’t just like pasta was when he and Jared did it together and it actually tasted really good. So earlier today when we was planning our night at home we decided to cook together, just as something fun, and it was it was a long times since I laughed this much, he was so cute in that apron and he did a lot of weird and stupid things, but it was hilarious! We had to press garlic and I asked him if he could give me the garlic press, do you want to know what he gave me? I thought so. I’m all ready laughing when I’m writing this! He gave me a potato peeler!! I laugh myself to death almost! HAHHAHAH and he did many other funny but cut mistakes too, but if I would tell you them all then it would take a whole A4 I think. I think me and Jensen should start cooking together more often so I can teach him something, then he maybe can cook me something one day, he’s even worse than Madde and that’s is hard to be, because she is terrible too, but compared to Jensen she is like a miracle worker in the kitchen. It ended up that I told him to go and set the table instead so he didn’t mess something up in here. He laughed and said “Are you tired off me all ready? And are you the one who has charged in the kitchen and I’m you worker who you boss around?” I laughed and said “You have messed up to many times so my stomach can’t take anymore laughing right now. And of course I’m the boss over you and am in charge in the kitchen since you just mess up. But if you like, then you can be in charge in some other room later tonight and be my boss” He laughed and gave me a passionate kiss on the lips and said “I would love to” Then he walked out to set the table. This was something he actually was good at because it looked amazing, with two candles and a red rose on the table, it looked romantic. I asked “Do you want to open a bottle of wine or will you just get angry with me if I drink?” He said “Not if you just drink one glass” I Smiled and said “Okay then I will just drink one glass” Jensen looked surprised at me and said “Do you have some kind of weird plan since it was that easy to convince you not to drink almost anything? That must me the first time” I smiled again and said “No I don’t I just don’t want to argue with you to night, I just want this night to be perfect” He kissed me and the kiss was perfect!

We sat down and started to eat, Jensen poured up a glass of wine to me and to him. We eat and talked and talked and laughed and talked again and flirted and talked a little more.
Then I walked to get the dessert and that tasted great too. Then he asked “Which date is this? The second second date? “I said “No more a second third date since I don’t have sex on my second date, we can say that when you brought me food after you and Jared had cooked that was our second date” Jensen smiled and took my hand who was laying on the table and said “So you think we are going to have sex to night huh? “ I just said “If you don’t want to we don’t have to, but I thought you wanted to see me naked” He kissed my instead of answering but I knew that was a yes.

I stood up to clean of the table but Jensen just told me to sit down so he could do it since he didn’t was that much of a help earlier. I sat myself down in one off the bar chairs in the kitchen while Jensen washed everything off before putting it in the dishwasher, I asked if he wanted help to get there rest from the table but he just said no. After a few minutes of washing the dishes he wasn’t done but he turned off the water and walked to me and stopped behind me. Then I felt he’s hand touching my back and after that he’s lips was kissing my neck and he’s hand wandered down to my naked thigh and up under my dress. Then all the sudden he stopped and smiled and said “I continue with the dishes later. Can you just wait her then I will call on you when you can come up stairs.” I just did as he said since I had kind of promised him to be in charged about this ;)

After 10 minutes he came down stairs to get me, he took my hand and I followed him upstairs, he opened the door to my room and there he had lighten up a lot of candles , and many big bouquets of red roses was standing everywhere and then it was rose blades on the floor and on the bed.
Then I felt he’s one hand on my stomach and then he kissed my neck with he’s soft lips where I was standing. He’s hand moved up from my stomach over my boobs then he’s other hand was on my shoulder. When both he’s hand was on my shoulders he let he’s hand pull down my shoulder- straps who slowly sided down over my skin he was kissing my shoulder, then the dress felled to the floor.
I turned around and started to unbutton he’s shirt, while he start kissing me on the lips and moving us closer to the bed. He laid me down on the bed and laid himself on top off me, I took off he’s shirt and stroke my hands down he’s back down on he’s ass. He stopped kissing me and looked me into the eyes, I looked back and gave him a smile, then he’s lips meet mine again. I started to unbutton he’s Jeans, and when the button was open I pulled them down over he’s ass, then he helped me and took them off. Then he started to kiss my chest and wander down over my boobs down on my stomach and then up again to my lips, I put my hand inside of he's boxers and he kissed my neack, then I pulled he's boxer off, he turned around us so I got on top, I started to kiss he's chest, and I moved my lips lower and lower and lower, and ther I stayed for a while if you know what I mean ;) Jensen satrted to moan and I started to kiss he's lips again then he changed place so he got on top. It was so amazing to finally feel him inside off me againa after all this month! I had my hands on he's back, I could hear myself moarning louder and louder, more then I useally do I think. Jensen started to breath faster and faster and then he started to kiss me again, it was so amazing! It was the best sex I have ever had!! I have been longing for this moment for sooooooo long!! It was so much better then I thought it was going to be!

When we was done we laied there cuddeling with each other, I was holding he's hand in mine. After like 10 minuts I got a SMS from Madde who said that they would be home in 20 minuts. So then me and Jensen just rused up isnce we hadn't taken care off the dishes and alot of other things. I just pulled on my red dress and Jensen got dressed too. Then we both ran down to clean up. After a while I got a messaged that they where just 5 minuts away from home. So we had really to hurry up. Then I remebered my room who was filled with candles and roses and roseblades, and I know my family then I know they will come and check on me. And I didn't have the time to clean and got changed, so I told Jensen that Madde was teh only one who was allowed to come up to my room, and that he woul dtell them that I was comeing down soon because I was resting. So I ran up while Jensen clened up the last things in the kitchen. I started to clean my room but I didn't get anywhere because just after a two minuts I heard the door closed down starirs. So I just layied down in the bed with the dress on under the cover, because you can never be sure that my famlily listens to what Jensen have to say. If they didn't then I just had to hope they were blind and don't see the candles and roses, but they would probaly not be that. But I still didn't wanted them to see me in this dress, because it's not me at all, to be wearing that! But fourtently it was Madde who knocked on the door and walked insied.
She smiled and looked around in my room and said " You two seems to have a good night" I smiled and siad " Oh yeah!! " Since it just was Madde I walked up from the bed and started to clean again, Madde looked at me with big eyes and said " I can't belive YOU are wearing that! But you look sooo sexy!! Jensen must have died! I can't belive you are even having this kind of dress in your closet! " Laughted and said " Madde it's much you don't know about my closet, and yes I think Jensen liked it" Madde said " apprently! I can imadgen. " Then I put all teh roses in my walking closet because thet would no one be, and then I chanved into the clothes I had before, while I did that me and Madde laughted and talked about my night.

When me and Madde walked down everyone was sitting in the livingroom, so we walked in there and they asked how I was feeling and I told them that I was feeling better,
but I was still tierd.
We sat down then Jared said " Why are you wearing make up now? When you didn't do it before we left?" I got angry at myself for forgetting to cleaning it off and then I said " I have had make up befre you left too. " Then Krisen said " Where you, I don't remebere that?" Since I'm teh worsed lier in the world I got some help from Madde who said " She have been wearing it all night, and maybe she just look better now because has been sleeping for 2 hours. " I agreed with her and so did Jensen. Krisen gave Madde a cold look and then she looked at me like she didn't belive me and jared didn't either belive me. But then I just changed subject and asked about there night.

Then Nico asked if he could talk to Madde for a while and of cours she wanted that. While they walked out off the living room he put he's arm around her waist. I could see that Zara didn't like that. So I asked if i could borrow Zara for a short while and then we walked outside on the pouched and sat down and talked. I asked how she and Nico was doing, and she todl me that it okay, but she felt like she didn't have so much to say on all this, because he all reday has desided that he isn't going to stop seeing her. Then she said " Okay, I have nothing aginst him seeing her alittle, but it isn't just alittle he's seeing her, and I hate the kisses. But if I say something it feels like he's going to fight with me and leave me. And it feels like he's choosing her instead off me, but maybe I'm just crazy. " I said " No you are not crazy, if this is how you feel then it's not crazy. And you should feel able to talk to him about it, he is your fiance after all and I know he loves you. And I kind of understand how it is to be choosen second, but it's not exactlly the same since it's not my boyfreind I'm talking about but it's my best freind. And it's really har because I feelt like my oppitions wasn't worse anything and that she choosed Nico before even if I needed her and it was terrible" She said " Yeah I know he loves me, but it feel like he loves Madde more sometimes and that he always take her side whatever it is. He had said that he loves us equally, but I feel like that isn't right either, okay
I'm fine that he loves her but it should be in a diffrent way just like a best freind way as he loves Shane, but I don't think he do that, it more feel like he love us in the same way. Yeah that's acuatally how I feel too, I just don't know what to do. I'm trying my best to be fine with it and just keep my mouth shut, which is hard" Then Sara knoked on the glass door and asked if she could come out and we said ofcours yes. We told her what we was talking about.I said " Well than's not good that you are feeling like that, maybe you should try to talk to him, but I can just imadgen how hard it most be everyday to feel like that, when you realy love him, because i can see that. I wish I could say he dosn't love Madde in that way, but I don't know, and I don't like the kisses either. I can just imadgen how hard that is too, I don't know what to say" Then she said " Yeah maybe I'm just to chicken o do it. Oh god I hate this!" Both me and Sara huged her. Zara said " can't we just please talk about something else this is just breaking me down. " We agreed. Then Sara smiled and said " How knew that we was going to sitter her now talking about guy problem with little Tove. Who acutally thought guys was gross back then, and hadn't even had sex, and now you are sittig her giving advice. " We al laughted and I said " Yeah who knew, I could off beat alot of money for alittle more then ten years back that this would never happend. And I'm not that little anymore Sara" She laughed and said " Yeah well me too, ALOT of money! No you are apperantly not" We all laughted again and Zara gave me a cheey smiled and said " So how are everything going with Jensen then?" I smiled and said " It's acually going great! He's even more amazing and romantic then before. I really love him. " Both of them smiled and then Sara said " awww so cute, you are acutally really cute togheter. And I heard something over dinner about kids and wedding, so?" I wasn't smiling this time I just answerd" Wheer they talking about that again?! Well I don't want to get married or have kids, but they are like Jensen never giving up" Zara said " Yes they was for a really long time. So he has proposed? And why don't know want to get married and have kids? " I said " Of course they did! Yes he have like 3 times and I had said no 3 times, but he told me that he' snever giving up. Well I don't really like weddings or the idea of me getting married again and I don't belive in marrage too.And we have alked bout kids too, but I don't know, I don't feel ready for that" Sara said " What a man you got who can take a no after a no. I feel the same about marrage so I undertsand, compaire to the other Zara. And I understand about the kids too. But I think you would be a great mum" I said " I know you do, yeah maybe, but thanks" Then Zara
said " Just a weird qustion, where you really feeling bad tonight or did you and Jensen do something else?" I laughted and said " Am I that bad lier? Yes we where doing something else, we made dinner or I made dinner and.. yeah you know the rest" Both Zara and Sara laughted and then Sara said " Say it! " I asked what, she said " Say what you two did out loud, we useally never talk like this, so everytime you say that word it sounds weird because it's not really you to talk about this, so I want to hear it, say it" We laughted and I said " You two should almost read our blog then you know how much I have changed and espically this few mouth, but it's true i rather write it then say it out loud" Then Zara said " Come on just say it! You are so damn prudish, but it's kind of cute! So what did you and Jensen do after dinner? " They smiled and I said " Fine! Me and Jensen had hot and smoken sex, happy?" All three off laughted and then sara said " Yes really happy! So is he any good? Or should I put it like this is he well-equipped?" I gave them a cheesy smile and said " Yes he's amazing! And I can say it like this I have NOTHING to compline about" They laughted and then Zara said " You have something to compare with right? " I laughted and said " Yeah remebre I have been married, and Tobbe wasn't even my first one, I have been with more guys then you think" We laughed again and they Sara said " Oh really? So how have you been sleeping with more then Jensen then?" I laughted and asked " Do you mean just thsi year or all years?" Sara laughted and said " mayeb just this year" I said " Well I don't really know the name of them all, but I can't tell you two that I sleeped with Henrik, you know my docter, then he's brother, then Kian, then I sleeped with like 60 guys when me and Madde was at Mallorca, I think that's it" They looked really chokched and then Zara said " Are you joking? If your not this is so not you! And Kian is that teh Kian I think it is, who is getting married? Your docter? okay I have to admit he's kind of hot" I said " I wish it was a joke but it's not, like I said this year have been crazy. And I wish I could say it was anothet Kian, but I can't. That was acutally why me and Jensne broke up. And yes Henrik is hot, we even started to date" Then Sara said " Where you beeing safe?" Then all of us started to laugh again and I said " That depends how you look at him, I was safe for not geting pregnate but not for disease. Now it feel like I'm the little sister" We laughed again and Sara said " Well we are kind of like your sisters so." I smiled and said " I know. " Then Zara said " We should really start talk more " Both me and Sara agreed. Then Niklas knocked on the glass door and asked if Sara and him should go, Sara nooded and gave me hug and said " I'm glad that you have a great night" I laughted and said " I hope you will get a great night" She laughed and said " Maybe" Then she gave Zara a hug and told her that she would call her later tonight, then the walked inside agian. Me and Zara stayed a few minuts and then Jensen knocked on the door too, then he was acting and asked how I was doing, Zara looked at me witha medingful look and I told jensen that she knew. He said " Oh, Well then I know you are fine then. And Zara Nicky is ready to leave" Jensen walked back inside and before we did I stopped her and said " You know you always can talk to me about everything, because I don't think as Madde and Nico do, and it was nice talking to you two. " She huged me and said " I know, and I like that, thanks. I love you" I said " Love you too" Then we walked back insted again, and they went home.

Then everybody was going to bed, Me and Madde was the last one sitting in the livingroom. I gave Madde a goodnight hug and said " Have a nice night now with Dennis! But if you are just doing this for piss mum off then don't do it, but that is just what I think" Then I just walked up to Jensen who was allredy laying in bed, I crowl down next to him and we talked for awhile and kissed before we said goodnight and since I can'st sleep that's why I'm blogging now.

That was everything I had to say, see ya!
Kisses from
a satisfied
Tove! ;)