Difficult day

Heya...

Well today has been... I don't even know what to say about today... it's been bad.

When I woke up this morning Zara was still sleeping so I tought it would be a good idea to read Toves inlay from yesterday and it began pretty good but then when I read about the dinner and jensen i didn't know what to do. I quickly commented on the inlay and ran downstairs with my heart broken and met Nicky in the hallway downstairs. He looked really surprised and I barely saw him, I just got into my shoes and I felt tears starting to run down my cheeks and then i felt Nickys hand grab my arm and he turned me towards him and he looked really scared and said "Madde! What's going on? What happened?". I tried to calm down and said "I have to go.. let me go... Nicky I gotta go!!". He placed his hands on my shoulders and said "Madde Karlsson, baby... what's going on?". I said "jensen... jensen's in the hospital... He isn't wakeing up.". Nicky let go of my shoulders and said "Oh my god... what happened?". I said "I don't know... he had a fever and then he didn't wake up... I have to go to tove! she needs me! tell zara where I am.". He nodded and pulled me in for a hug and said "He's going to be fine Madde. Tell tove that I'm thinking of her and dennie and that Jensen will be okay.". I nodded and took my jacket and I didn't even give a damn about the car, I just ran down the street and even though my legs where screaming at me to slow down I just ran even faster and soon I saw the house at the end of the road so I pushed myself even harder and then i finally stood on the doorstep. I opened the door and took my jacket off and then I saw someone move in the corner of my eyes when I took my shoes off so I looked up and saw Jared stand in the doorway to the livingroom. I just looked at him and he looked back and then I just felt new tears starting to pour down my cheeks and I just ran towards him and flew into his arms and he hugged me close and I burried my face in his chest and just cried. He kissed my head and I think we just stood there for about 5 minutes and then I sobbed and looked at him and said "Where is she?". He said "Upstairs...", I nodded and stroke his cheek and said "I'm sorry... I should have been here with you and Tove.". He stroke my cheek back adn said "Don't worry, not your fault.". He kissed my cheek and I just closed my eyes and then I kissed his and let him go and slowly walked upstairs and knocked on tove and jensens door. No one said anything so I carefully opened the door and saw tove lying in bed on Jensens side with her eyes closed like she was shutting out the world. I closed the door behind me and walked over to the bed and nestled down in bed and cuddled closer to her nad brushed some hair away from her face and said "Honey... I'm sorry I didn't come earlier..". She slowly opened her eyes that were red from crying and worrying and she siad "You're here now.". I felt a tear roll down my face but i quickly brushed it away and said "And I'm not going anywhere... I'm staying here with you today.". She said "thank you...Will you come with and see him?". I nodded and said "Yes... He'll be fine Tove... He'll be fine for you and dennie. He loves you and nothing will make him leave you.". She nodded and said "I know... I hope you're right.", I took her hand and siad "Haven't you learned, I'm always right.". She smiled slightly and said "Where's zara?", I said "At home.. she was sleeping when I read the inlay but I told nicky to tell her where I was... Nicky wanted me to tell you that he is thinking about you and dennie.". She said "okay... thanks.", I nodded and then dennie started to cry so I got out of bed and walked over to the crib and said "there there dennie... Come on, let's go to mum". I carefully picked her up and walked with her to the bed and laid her down between tove and me and tove gently started to stroke her stomach and I siad "She's gotten so big.. It's crazy how fast she grows.". Tove nodded and said "Yeah I know...". Then suddenly it knocked on the door and then Jared peeked in and I gave him a soft smile and he closed the door behind him and walked over to the bed and sat down on the end of the bed. He siad "You need to eat something tove... Jensne wouldn't want you to not eat.". She sighed and I said "Please tove.. eat soemthing.", she sighed and nodded and said "fine... I need a shower.". I nodded and said "Go and shower, I'll take care of dennie..". She nodded got up and was just about to go to the bathroom when I got up and gave her a hug and kissed her cheek and said "I love you and Jensen loves you and therefore he will be just fine.". She nodded and said "I love you too.", I nodded and then she went to the bathroom and I looked at Jared who was sitting on the bed looking back at me. Then he held out his arms slightly and I just walked over to him and cuddled closer to him and he wrapped hois arms around me and said "I'm scared Madde...". I looked at him and said "He's going to be fine... he has to be fine..". He nodded nad I said "I'm so sorry I wasn't...", he put a finger over my lips and said "You didn't know.". I said "I should have... I should have felt that somethign was wrong, that tove needed me...". He just looked at me sad and I felt how close I was to tears but I continued "and she said that it might be because we have grown apart but I don't wnat that. I miss her so much... But now she has Sofie and...... has she forgotten about me?". Tears quickly started to run down my cheeks again and Jared said "Oh darling, of course not. Tove loves you and she misses you. Are you jealous of sofie?". I looked at him through my tearful eyes and said "No.. I'm just scared that tove finally realized that there are better friends then me out there... Sofie seems like a really great woman and tove loves to hang out with her and that's great but I miss her so fuckign much...". He siad "Madde what are you talking about.. you are Toves best friend and you will always be that. She loves you so much too and misses you even more.". I said "I don't know... I'm not sure... She settled for you... I'm sorry". He said "What do you mean, settled for me?", I said "Nothing, I'm sorry.". He shook his head nad siad "No.. tell me.". I cried "she settled for you yesterday, she didn't want you to call me becuase you were just as good... She didn't want me here, if she would have she would have asked you to go and get me...". He siad "madde.. no.. she just wanted you to not worry and be with your girlfriend.". I said "I don't care.. I would have come rushing if I knew what had happened and Zara wouldn't mind... Tove thinks that we are growing apart and somehow it feels like she is comfortable with that...". He said "Sweety...", I jusr shook my head nad siad "no Jare... it's what I feel.... But we shouldn't discuss this now, jensen is more important.". He stroke my cheek and said "I love you.", I nodded and said "I love you too Jared..". He nodded nad I cuddled up closer to him and felt his strong arms around my body and that was actually pretty comforting and safe.

After a while Tove came out and sat down on the bed and Jared said "Have you eaten anything Madde?". I shook my head and looked down on his big amazing hands under my hands that were resting on my stomach and he said "Well then, let's go down adn eat something and then we'll go to the hospital.". Tove and I nodded and she took dennie and then we went downstairs and went into the kitchen where Johan and Krisen was. Johan smiled alittle and said "Lovely to see you again Madde.". I nodded and said "You too Johan and you too mum.", mum smiled and I gave her a hug and said "I miss you mum, and you too johan.". mum smiled and she hugged me back and said "I miss you too honey. how are you?". i siad "I don't know... worried,", she stroke my cheek and said "we all are.". I nodded then I turned to Jared and said "You need some help?". He said "You wanna make coffee?", I nodded and went to make coffee while he made some sandwishes and Tove took her seat at the table. When the coffee was done and the sandwishes we to sat down and slowly began to eat. After a while Johan said "So where's zara?", I looked up and said "At home... she's still sleeping I suppose.". He nodded and Krisen said "She doesn't know?", I shook my head and said "i found out this morning nad I rushed here at once and she was still sleeping. I met Nicky though so he knows..". She nodded and then said to tove "Do you want me to take care of Dennie while you go and see Jensen?". She shook her head and said "no.. I'll take her with me... I need her.". Mum nodded and i looked at Tove who looked so worried and scared. Then she looked back at me and said "So you haven't had a chance to talk to zara?". I shook my head and said "No I haven't.. But I think I'll do that tonight and then I'll come back here and sleep if you want me too..". She nodded and said "Yes I want you too...", Ifelt tears build up in my eyes and I said "Then I'll be here, as long as you need me.". she nodded and I gave her a hug and then my phone rang so I checked who it was and saw that it was zara so I excused myself and walked into the livingroom and sat down in the sofa and said "Hey honey.". She said "What's going on Madde? Nicky told me that jensen is at the hospital and that he isn't wakeing up...". I told her to calm down alittle and then I told her what had happened and then she said "Oh my god... how's tove doing?". I said "What do you think? Not good at all... I'm going to spend today with her and sleep here with her as well tonight...". She said "I can understand that.. okay, yeah you do that... I'm going to miss you but she needs you.". I said "i'm going to miss you too baby but like you said, she needs me and then i'm going to be here for her.". She said "Of course, I understand darling.. Do you guys want me to come over?". I said "Well... we are soon going to the hospital so it doesn't matter... I'll tell her that you are thinking of her.". she siad "okay... do that. Now go back to your best friend. I love you honey and I hope I'll see you again before tomorrow...". I said "Thanks babe. I love you too babe and of course you will... I haven't gotten a kiss from you today and I miss you already.". She said "I miss you too Madde.. I'll see you later.", I said "Yeah we'll do that... Tell Nicky that I'm okay? I know he worries.. I love you, bye.". She said "I will... I love you too baby, bye.", then I hung up and went back to the kitchen and finished my breakfast.

So after brekkie Jared, tove, dennie and me took Tove and Jensens car and drove to the hospital. I really hate that place, more then any place in the world... It's a place where bad things happen and it's a place where I don't want to spend any more time then I already have... anyway we got out of the car and went into the hospital and headed up to the ICU and into the room where Jensen was lying. Tove went straight to his side, kissed his flips and took his hand and sat down on a chair. I just stopped in the doorway and looked at him, it was so hard to take in the sight of him just lying there, totally pail and weak. Jared was standing behind me waiting for me to go inside but when he noticed that i wasn't going to go inside he put a hand on my shoulder and whispered "Are you okay?". I shook my head and turned around and walked out of the room and down then hall to a window faceing the streets below. Jared followed me and hugged me from behind while silent tears were rolling down my face as I looked out through the window. He gently rocked me and whispered "What's going on?". I said "Last time he was in a bed like that in this bloody hospital, I was to blame... But he got through that just like Tove got through the cancer.. But now he's back here and Tove might have the cancer back and..... why does this keep happening to them? they are so happy, let them be happy... the deserve it..". He pressed his lips against my head and then said "I know honey... But we have to have faith... jensen will be fine, you said so.. And remember, you are always right.". I turned around and looked at him and he gently brushed some tears away from my cheek and I said "Am I? what have I ever been right about?". He said "you were right about the fact that Jensena nd tove would become a couple again, you were right about the fact that they were going to get married... You are right about alot of stuff..". i said "Anyone could see that they were going to get married and everything like that... Even a blind man...". He stroke my cheek and said "You need to have faith. Faith in Jensen, faith in tove, in the docors, in the family and especially in yourself. Jensen will pull through because he knows we are here believeing...". I looked into his eyes and saw how much he believed and that made me feel alittle bit better and I said "You're right. He'll be fine, he has to.". he nodded and kissed my forehead and said "Let's go back to Tove..", I nodded and he took my hand and we walked abck to the room and we sat down on the other side of Jensens bed and I carefully took his hand and said "Hey man... You gotta wake up, and that's soon... We have some stuff to do that we have talked about doing all winter... Snowballfights, helllloew!". Tove smiled slightly and Jared laughed and said "Exacly man, time to wake up now so we can have some fun!". Jared took my other hand and squeezed it and it felt prettu comfortable to have him there.. I just wish I could do more for tove. Anyway we sat there for a while and then it knocked on the door and a man in a doctors robe stood in the doorway. Tove stood up and shook his hand and then he walked over to me and held out his hand and said "Hi, my name is Mattias Eriksson, I'm Jensens doctor.". I shook his hand and said "Hi, Madde Karlsson... Toves best friend.". He nodded and said "nice to meet you.", I nodded back and then he turned to tove and said "Well... there hasn't been any big changes in his state at the moment but a few small good changes. His organs are starting to fight back against the infection which is very good but because of that his body is going through a great deal of stress and therefore he will continue on the medications that causes him to sleep.". Tove nodded and said "So he won't wake up yet?", the doc shook his head and said "like i said yesterday he won't wake up today and probobly not tomorrow either but we are really hopeing that he will wake up this weekend. We are doing everything we can for him... We just need his body to fight whatever is inside.". She nodded and looked at Jensen with pain in her eyes. I turned to the doc and said "Is he in pain?", he looked at me and shook his head and siad "no. He's getting medicin that deals with pain and puts the fever down and of couse helps the body with fighting the infection.". I nodded and said "That's good, right?", he smiled slightly and said "yes, and it's good that you all are here, keeping him company. He might be able to hear you so then he knows you guys are here and he knows he has something to fight for.". We nodded nad then he said "If you need me, tell one of the nurses to page me.", we nodded and thanked him and turned back to Jensen and just sat there looking at him. We talked alittle and then Jared said "Do you guys want some coffee?", I nodded and he let go of my hand and said "Okay, I'll be back soon.". We nodded and watched him leave the room and then I looked at tove and said "He'll be fine honey.". She said "Yeah... He will...", I nodded and looked at jensens face and said "yeah...". Then we just sat there, in silent, untill Jared came back with the coffee and handed us a cup each and took his seat next to me again. Then i remembered something and said "Ehm... Johans birthday... I, I haven't gotten him anything.". Tove said "I bought a breacelet yesterday...", I nodded and said "Yeah I know... I should really find him something but I don't want to leave...". She looked at me and said "If you feel that you have to leave then I'm not stopping you..". I shook my head and said "I'm not leaveing... I can call zara and ask her to buy something... or I can get him something later..". She nodded and then I got up and walked out of the room and back to the window, picked up my phone and called Zara. She picked up at once and said "Hey honey!", I smiled when I heard her voice and said "Hey babe...". She said "Are you okay?", I nodded to myself and said "Yeah, as okay as I can be... I have a problem though... Johans brithday is comeing up soon so I need a present for him but i don't have one..". She siad "well can't you fix that tomorrow or something? there is a few days left..". I said "You're right.. I can do that...", she said "yeah... I miss you honey, haven't seen you all day.". I said "i know, I miss you too... But I'll be home in a few hours and then i need to talk to you okay?". She said "Sure... I'm not going anywhere.", I said "Good. I have to go back... see you later.". She said "Yeah see you, and give tove a hug from me. I love you. bye.". I said "Will do. I love you too honey, so much. bye.", and then we hung up and I was just about to walk abck to the room when I saw a familiar face walk towards me looking down on some papers. I said "Dr. Magnusson...", Christoffer looked up and smiled when he saw me and said "Madde! It's good to see you again. but what are you doing here?". I said "Jensen is hospitalized... he has a major infection in his body so he is in pretty bad shape..". He said "oh my god, I'm so sorry.. You okay?", I shrugged and said "Yeah... I just wish there were more I could do for both him and Tove..". He nodded and gave me a soft hug and said "Haven't I told you before not to put so much press on yourself?". I nodded and said "Yeah you did..", he said "Only by being there for them helps... they have to fight it alone but you can be there as supposrt and nothing else.. Be postive and believe he's going to be fine.". I smiled and said "Thanks, christoffer..", he nodded and said "So how's life otherwise then? Still have your problem with Nicky and Jared?". I smiled and shook my head and said "no, I'm happy.". He smiled and said "Yeah? that's great!", I nodded and said "Yep, have the best girlfriend a person can have!". He raised his eyebrows and said "Hang on... girlfriend? you mean boyfriend? right?". I smiled and shook my head and said "No.. girlfriend... Zara to be exact... Nickys ex.". He said "Oh... I soooo didn't see that comeing.", I laughed and said "I know, neither did we but... I love her and she loves me.". He smiled and said "That's good. I actually thought you were going to pick Nicky but... his ex, there you go.". i said "You did?", he nodded and said "Yeah.. the love in your eyes when you were talking about him... It was so deep and pure. I was sure of it. Do you still have feelings for him though?". I said "I did really love him sooo soo much. I don't know, I suppose. But right now I only focus on zara and nicky is just a friend.". He nodded and said "Well I'm glad you've finally figured things out.", I smiled and said "Thanks.". He nodded and then he said "I gotta run, it was lovely to see you again. See you around.". I nodded and said "Yu too Chris. See you. Bye.", he said bye and then we went in different directions. I went back to jensens room and joined tove and jared and we continued to talk and after a few hours it was time to go home so we said goodbye to Jensen and drove off home.

When we got there I said that I would be back for dinner and then I began to walk back home and all that time I tought about the best way to confront Zara about the drinking, not so easy... When I got there I took a deep breath to relax and then I opened the door and said "hello? I'm home.". Then I hears zaras voice say "Hey hun! We're in the livingroom.", I got undressed and went into the livingroom and found her, nicky and david there watching tv. I smiled and walked over to her and gave her a kiss and then I sat down next to nicky becuase david had taken the spot next to zara. She looked at me worried and said "how's Jensen?", i said "I don't know... he still hasn't woken up so we have no idea.. the doc said that he was doing alittle better anyway.". Nicky patted my thigh and said "That's good anyway...", I nodded and then I looked at david and said "is it okay if I borrow your mum for a while? I need to talk to her, it's kind of important.". He sighed and nodded and zara said "What's going on?", I stood up and held out my hand to her and said "I need to talk to you, please?". She nodded and took my hand and then we walked upstairs and into our bedroom. We sat down on the bed and she said "Baby, what's going on?", I shook my head and kissed her and said "I love you, so much and then worse thing that could happen to me right now would be to lose you and I... I'm scared that I might...". She wrinkled her forehead and said "what? what are you talking about? You will never lose me, I love you so much madde and I'm not going anywhere..". I said "You will... if you continue drinking like you are..", she raised her eyebrows and stared at me surprised and said "what? Tove... she's gotten something into you hasn't she?". I shook my head and said "i've noticed myself... You take a drink every other day, or two... or sometimes more then two... Then a glass of wine for dinner or when we watch movies...". She said "I don't drink that much Madde.", I said "Let me tel you how I feel... I've already lost my father to alcohol and my little brother is drinking too and doing drugs and... Now you... I can't lose more people in my life and especially not you. And it's not just me and Tove that's worried... it's nicky and I bet the kids as well.". she said "Like I said, you won't lose me and you and tove and nicky and the kids has nothing to worry about.". I sighed and said "Tell me something... why do you take those drinks? Aren't you happy with me or what is it.". She said "of course I'm happy with you! I'm as happy as can be!", i said "then why? It's my fault, isn't it? it's a bad habit from last year when I took nicky away from you.". she said "no! it's not your fault and I'm not drinking that much!!". I stood up and said "You know that denial is the first proof that you are becoming an addict...". She stared at me and I could see that she was getting mad and she said "i'm not a fucking alcoholic! How can you call me that!?". I got so sad that she would get angry wiht me for that and because it proved how far down the line she had gone and I looked her in the eyes and said calmly "I'm sorry... I love you Zara but... you have to stop drinking like you do... please do it, for me. Or if not for me but for the kids...". She just stared at me and I said again "i love you more then words can say. I'm going to sleep at toves tonight and leave you with your thoughts but tomorrow i want to know what your desition will be and if you don't stop with the drinking... I.. I don't think I can handle it... Not now when tove might have the cancer back and when jensen's in the hospital and everything. I'm sorry.". I walked out of the room adn felt tears starting to build up in my eyes and then I walked into the livingroom and said to nicky "i'll see you tomorrow... bye.". But I should have known better becuase of course he saw at once that I was close to tears so he quickly followed me into the hallway and turned me around to face him and said "what happened?". I shook my head and said "nothing.. it's between Zara and me okay? If things aren't fixed till tomorrow I miight tell you bcaus then I'm going to need your help but till then, I'm sorry, I can't say.". He nodded and said "You're makeing me worried...", I stroke his cheek and said "Don't worry... I'll see you tomorrow nico.. I love you.". He nodded and said "Yeah, see you. I love you too honey.", then I gave him a hug and took the lambo and drove off back to Alexanderssons.

When I parked the car at it's place I turned the engine off but didn't step out of the car. Insted I leaned back and closed my eyes and cried for a while and then i dried my tears and fixed my hair and went inot the house and into the kicthen where Johan was cooking. I smiled and wlaked over to hima nd said "Hey you... What you makeing?". He smiled and gave me a hug and said "Well, we're going to eat chicken and rice.". I smiled and said "that sounds lovely!", he smiled and then he said "Are you okay? Have you been crying honey?". I shook my head and said "I'm fine..", he looked suspiciously at me and said "You sure?", I nodded and said "Gotta go.. can't wait for dinner. I've missed your food.". He smiled and said "okay, we've missed haveing you here for dinner so.". I smiled and walked out of the kitchen and went upstairs and then I just tought i should go and say hi to someone so i walked over to Tims room and knocked on the door. I heard him say "come in." so I opened the door and saw him sitting on the bed and Molly was standing by the tv. I quickly said "i can come abck later.", but tim just got up adn walked over to me and pulled me in for a hug. I smiled and hugged him back and it was really nice to hug him again. I kissed his cheek and whispered "Hey handsome.", I felt his smile against my cheek and he whispered "Hey gorgeous.". Then we broke from the hug and I said "hi Molly.", she staied by the tv nad said "Hey Madde...". I turned to Tim and said "I just wanted to say hi. I'm staying here tonight, to be with tove.". He nodded and said "Yeah she needs you. But how are you, I know he is your friend.". I said "I don't know.. I'm worried but not just about Jensen, about zara as well...". He looked confused and took my hand and lead me to the bed and we sat down and he said "zara? why?". I looked down on our hands nad said "she drinks to much... I think, at least a drink per day.". He said "have you talked to her about it?", I nodded and said "i confronted her about it just now and she really mad with me... I don't want to lose her Tim...". He pulled me closer and kissed my forehead and said "You won't... she loves you and therefore I'm sure she'll give up those drinks and listen to you.". i wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head against his chest and said "i really hope you are right.. I love her so much.". he nodded and said "I know honey.", then Molly said "So how come you don't live here anymore?". I looked at her but kept my arms around Tim and said "because I'm liveing with my girlfriend..". She said "Girlfriend?", I nodded and said "yeah, you know a girl.. like you and me.. With boobs, long hair, curves and above all a vagina...". Tim said "madde!", I looked at him and said "What?", he raised his eyebrows and nodded towards Molly who looked at me with disgrace and I looked at tim and gave him my puppydogeyes and said "I'm sorry.". He hugged me again and said "It's okay. right Molly?" and she said "Are you together with a woman?". I nodded and said "Yeah. Do you have a problem with that?". She said "yeah.. it's wrong! It's suppose to be a man and a woman not a woman and a woman or a man and a man.". I let go of Tim and stood up and satred at her and said "Don't tell me that you are a homophobe!". Tim quickly got up and took my arm and said "Madde.". I stared at him and pushed him away and looked at molly again and said "Becuase if there is something i hate in this world then it is homofphobes! i have friends that are gay, Tims ex-step father is gay even!". She looked at tim and then me and said "i don't get how a woman can find another woman attractive.". I said "Well grow up! Get out of this house!! We will not have homophobes in this house!". Then Tim took a hold of my arm and pulled me out of the room and into the hallway and closed the door and i his his chest and said "How can you be together with someone that hates homosexuals!?". He said "Calm down Madde!", I stared at him and said "I was really happy to see you Tim but... how can you stand her!? You deserve better...". He stroke my arm and said "I'm happy to see you too... so happy. You thinks so? I wanted you..". I said "Tim... I know you love me..", he nodded and took a step closer and said "yeah I do...". I said "But I love zara... I'm sorry... And please don't tell me taht you are with molly just because she's blond and have big boobs...". He said "I know... If you are saying that she looks like you then you are wrong... No one's as beautiful or as sexy as you. I like molly..". I shook my head and said "How can you like her? and if you like her, how can you hurt her like you do?". He said "what do you mean?", I put a hand on his chest and he closed his eyes and slowly opened them and looked at me and I said "Everytime I've kissed you infront of her, you kiss me back... You don't give a rats ass about her..". He tried to think of something to say but I said "Don't lie to me.", so he said "I do care about her but... when you touch me or kiss me... all i can think about is you...". I removed my hand and said "i'm sorry. Tim... you have to forget about me, find a woman that you truly love and that loves you back for who you are and be happy.". He said "but I can't forget about you! I love you.", then he moved closer again and put a hand behind my neck but I put my hands on his chest and pushed him away and said "I'm done with hurting zara... We are done, Tim. I love you, I really do... but we are done.". He said "i miss you.", I siad "I do miss you too, but I can't. I'm sorry.". He nodded and then we heard Johan yell that it was dinner so I gave tim a hug and said "I'll see you downstairs.". He nodded and then I went downstairs and soon Jared and Tove came walking down the stairs. I gave them a hug each and then Tove said "What did zara say?". I said "We can talk about that later... maybe all night?", she nodded and said "I would love to.". I smiled and then I heard tim and molly come down the stairs and then he said goodbye to molly and she left and he joined us at the table. He looked at me but i tried to not look at him becuase I knew I had hurt him. But I have to say that it was really great to eat with the whole family again and toeat Johans food is like a gift sent from heaven! It was really lovely!


Anyway after dinner Jared, Tove and i watched a few movies and then I began to blog so here I am now going to wrap this up and say goodnight to jared and then talk with tove.. Maybe she'll tell yu about our talk and especially about Zara... I'm really worried..

Anyway, pray that Jensen will wake up soon and that Zara will stop drinking and give a tought to Tim as well... so that he may find a woman that deserves him so he can be happy.

Take care
Love
Madde