Love and Life!

Hey guys!

What's up people? I have to say that I had an amazing day yesterday with my BOYFRIEND!! :D We had our sex day as we planed in my last inlay and I think I never
have had so much sex in a day all we did was lie in bed ;P But it was so AMAZING!! I would love do it again and I bet he would too! I can't even count how many times we had sex under those 24 hours, but it was MANY times!! And everytime was just as amazing if not even more amazing! I have to say I have really missed him, and it is diffrent to have sex with him now when he is my boyfriend then when we was not together. It's so much better now, I don't really why but it just is, and I LOVE it!! :D

I just have to say that Madde is driving me crazy for not beliveing in herself and that she is strong. She is a really strong woman and have alwasy been and always will be no one should be abel to take that away from her. She is an amazing person, in so many ways I could write a whole inlay with just reasons why she is so amazing and why I love her so much, but I won't that wouldn't not be so intesting to read maybe.. But I can tell you guys a little what she meens too me. I know that whatever would happend she would always be there for me day or night and she makes me feel safe and loved, and she would do anything for me and without her I would be alive now. I can't almost even imadgen what my life would be like if I never had meet her, but I know it would be so horrible. I would still be that geek that I was before and I would have no friends at all because all I did was be at home with my books, I would probably never have had a boyfriend or even had my first kiss, I would have had so low self confidence that it would have been sad. Madde make me alive and makes me me and the person I want to be and if it wasn't for her I would never be togehter with Jensen and I don't even want think my life without him, he makes me whole, happy and loved and I love him so much and without Madde that would just been a great dream, and i had watched him on tv and dreamed away after him and wished that he was here. So it's Maddes worthiness that I have found the love of my life, and without Madde and Jensen I don't know what too do they have given me everything I can ask for and I'm so grateful for that. And after what Madde did yesterday when she talked to Nicky and tell him that she just couldn't see him everyday and that she wanted to try with Jared again, that is strong! So Honey you are strong even thought you don't belive me but please start to belive me since it is the trusth. Well that was the short version of Madde even though I could go on for hour about everything she have done for me and helped me with..

After telling you guys about how much I love Madde and how much she means to me I just haveto compline a little about her just to even it out :P hahah
It sounds on her like the cast is the end on the world for her which I think is funny and of course she wants me to feel sorry for but that will never happend :P haha I feel more sorry about Jense who has both his legs and arm broken and plus that it his right arm, and he needs help with peeing, showering, geting dressed, getting undressed, getting into bed, and so on and so on. Madde just have a arm :P haha But I think she thinks it so bad for her because she can't box, or drive her car and other things that she loves, but then I reminded her that she still could have sex but apprently the sex wasn't as good with the cast on :P Always something with that woman :P But it's more sad for me how has a boyfriend how barely can move, so I have to be on top and do all the work! I'm so much better with the guy on top, but no I have to be on top for weeks now!! So people feel bad for me instead :P hahaha

Well about today, I woke up on Jensen bare cheast this morning and he was still a sleep after a long amazing night with ALOT of sex ;) I kissed his cheast but he didn't wake up so I kissed his cheek but no reaction then his lips and all teh sudden he started to kiss me back, I could feel his tounge tickleing mine and when our lips seprated I smiled and he opend his eyes and said " Good morning sweeity" I smiled and kissed his nose and I said " Can't we go down stairs to eat breakfast today? " He said " Of course.. but why? I though you hated those women down there " I said " I do that's just why I want to go there " He laughted and said " Just so you can show them that I belong to you? " I said embarressing " Yes.. sorry " He smiled and said " Let's get dressed and show those staring women who my only woman is " I laughted and kissed him and Jensen got out on bed and rolled into the bathroom too brush his teeth and then his phone called I pickedit up and on teh display it stood " Mum" Jensen asked how it was from the bathroom and when I todl him he said that I should answer it which I gladly did since I love Donna. She said happy " Tove? Is that you darling? " I said " Yeah it is, I miss you!" She said " I miss you too honey! You and Jensen should come here and visit us soon " I smiled and said " Yeah we would love that then I can meet his siblings to that I never have meet " She said happy " That sounds great ,so how are things? " I said happy " Everything are just great, Jensen is feeling better and we are having a nice time at the hotel and we are back together again. " When I said that sentence Jensen just said " I haven't told them that we broke up!" But then it was all reday to late and Donna said worried " Broke up? hotel?! What is going on? What happend?!" I sign and said " Maybe Jensen should tell you himself. " Jensen rolled next to me and I gave him the phone and he sign and said " Hi mum.. " Jensen held teh phone between his ear and shoulder and took a griped of my hand and pulled me down in his lap, then he took the phone again in his hand and I could hear Donna asked scared what had happend and I could see that Jensen was really scared and worried to tell her I strok his cheek with my hand and looked at him and whisperd " Tell her it will be okay " He took a deep breath and said " I was....unfaithful .. " I could hear Donna got al quite and all we could here was her breathing.. then Jensen said " Mum? " She said with a disappointed and sad voice " Who was the woman? " Jensen looked at me and I kissed his cheek and he said " It was Madde... but we didn't have sex.. just almost and then Tove found us... and I'm really sorry " I could feel that it hurted in my heart when he told that staory even though I didn't want too.. Donna did't say anything and all the sudded she just hang up on him in his ear.. and he looked so sad and I looked at him and a tear rolled down his beautiful face I put my ams around him and gave him a hug and he hugged me back and when we let go a few more tears had rolled down his cheek and he said " I really hate fighting with people I love. " I said " I know don't worry about it she will get over it." He said " I hope so.. " I kissed his cheek and he said " Let's go down stairs now. " I smiled and so did he and I said " I need to get dressed first, if you don't want me to go in my bra and panties. " He laughted and said " No thanks then I will be jealous off all the guys that will be straring at you " I smiled and starte to get dressed and when I was done we walked towards the elveator to go down stairs.

When we walked into the breakfast room and all the women just started at us agian but this time I didn't care because that man everyone wanted and lusting after was all ready mine :)
We sat down and order breakfast Ijust order a cup of coffiee like always and Jensen order like the whole kitchen, juice, coffee, sandwish and so on. Will we waited I looked at him and he still look kind of sad, so I asked how he was doing, he sign and said " I must have some kind or problem I have really hurt everybody I love the most in a stuped mistake which was less then 30 minuts, I just wish I could take back thosem 30 minuts and everything would be good again, can't and I hate it! I can't belive that I hurt you off all people in this world since you mean the most too me, and then I hurt Jared, mum, dad, Krisen, My, Madde and the rest of your and my family, I understand that everybody hates me because they should! I hate myself too for what I did.. " His left hand was lieing on the table so I put my hand on his and said " Yes you did hurt everybody especially me and I also wish that you could have take those minuts back but that is impossible.. you know the person you love most is the one how often get's most hurt too and that is just life and loving someone hurts sometimes and that is no news so I'm just trying to see the positive in all this pain which is that after this year we have prove that we can go throw anything as long as we have each other and I think all this have just made us stronger so whatever happend in the future we will make it throw that too together. And no one hates you I promis, I love you and I hope you know that and don't worry to much about my family or yours they will get over it and they don't hate they love you even mum loves you even thought she dosn't show it right now but I know she dose otherwise she would never had been nice to you when she was visiting us and Madde and Jared are fine, and everything will be just like it was just give everyone a little time. " He gave me a soft smile and said " Thanks for making me feel better it acutally helped a little and you are so strong to be positive right now in all this mess when you are the one who should be broken down. " I said " Yeah but that is just because I don't love you so much to care.. " I smiled and so did he and laughted and said " Yeah I don't love you either " I laughted and he took a gripe of my hand and kissed it and then our breakfast arried and Jensens started to eat and I picked up the cup and took a sip and then I thought is my coffee worse sacrifice our baby for and I looked at Jensen and thought no I would never forgive myself if something happend, so I put the coffee down pused it away from me and too Jensen
jucie glass and took a sip and he stared at me and then the coffee and said counfused " You are not drinking that?" I smiled and said " No, you or the baby don't want me too so why should I argue with the two persons that I love the most" He smiled and I said " I'm not saying that I will stop drinking coffee complitly but insted if drinking 5 or 6 cups then maybe one. " He smiled and said " That's great, thank you honey and I love you so much!" I said " I do anything for you!" Then he said " Can you please go and get me another sandwish? " I smiled and walked away and came back with his sandwish and put it on the table and then he all teh sudden just grabed my neck with his arm and pulled me down and started to kiss me and of course I kissed him back it was an amazing kiss and when our lips let go he whisperd to me " Look at those jealouse women now they look hilarious!" I tured around a little and looked at them and he was right they looked hilarious both me and Jensen started to laugh and then I bend down again and gave him a kiss. Then I sat down on the chair again and Jensen said " So how is Madde doing? " I said " I'm not sure.. I think she choosed Jared yesterday and want to try again when her feelings from Nicky is gone. " He smiled and said " I'm glad to hear that. " I smiled and he countinued eating and we didn't say that much for the rest of the breakfast.

When we got into the hotel room I helped him into bed and I lie down next to him on my side and looked at him then I put my hand under his shirt and stro his cheast with my hand and Jensen kissed my head and I said " Why did you tell your parents? " He sign and said " Because I know how disappointed they would be with me, I know that is a bad excuse I mean I should be abel to stand for what I did I know.. but it's hard " I strok his amazing abs and said " I know it's hard, but they will get over it I promis. " I gave him a soft kiss and I said " Love you" He smiled and said " I love you too honey" Jensen said " So what do you want to do now? " I gave him a cheesy smile and said " What do you think I want to do? " He laughted and said " I don't say no too that " I smiled and sat down on top of him and started to kiss him and his hands made his way under my shirt and strok my back and he sat up a little so I could take of his shirt and throw that on teh floor then I kissed his chest and strok his amazing arms then I kissed his lips again and I could feel how his tounge was playing with mine and that is so good and he is an expert on that!! He kissed my shoulder and i kissed his neck and took a gripe on his earlobe with my teeth and played a little with it and then I kissed his neck again. He started to pull up my shirt and I helped him pull it off and smiled and I strok his amazing cheast and abs which always turns me on. He started to undo my jeans and I unbutton his jeans too he grabed the edge of the jeans and pulled them over my ass I stood up and pulled them off and sat down on top of him again and he lied me down next to him and he took of my bra and touched my boobs and started to use his toungue and that was also so amazing and I wasgetting so worked up and then he kissed my lips again and I strok his amazing back and his amazing shoulders and I could feel his musels working and he kissed my neck and I gave out a quite moan and then he kissed my boobs again and his lips wandered down and his hand got inside of my panties and started to carness me and it feelt so amazing good!! Then he pulled of my panties and put a few fingers in and started to move and I started to moan and it was soooo good and I could feel that I got warmer and weter for every seconds. Then he started to use his amazing tounge which always so amazng!! And I started to moan load and much and I grabed the pillow and bored my nails in it because it was so amazing!! Then he put in the fingers again and started to use his tounge too which made it even better!! When I was all worked up he stopped and kissed my stomach and then my boobs and started to play with my nipples with his fingers and then his tounge, I ran my fingers in his hair and touch his earlobe which I know he like and then he kissed my neck and then lips again. I helped him pull down his jeans and thrwo them on the floor and then his boxers too. Then I strok his amazing ass with my hands and up over his amazing back and I could feel his perfect beast pressing against my thigh and it was all reday kind of hard and big and then he lied down so I could get on top of him and I kissed his chest and then I started to use my hand on his beast to get him hard, warm and ready to go. He smiled and I kissed him aroun dhis beast while I hand my hand on it and then I started to lick it with my toungue which he liked because he started to moan more and more and I just countinued and when he was harda nd stiff enough I strok his cheats with my hands and he pulled me up to his lips so he could kiss me and his hand was on my back and then I stopped kissing him and said " Help me get you inside of me now!!" He gave me a cheesy smile and said " Demanding" I smiled and he helped to get his beast inside of me and I started to move and it was so good!!!!!! I started to move and moan and so did he, I lied down on top off him and kissed him with eager and then I countied to move faster and he started to moan so I moved faster and he helped me with his figers and and I started to breath heavier and faster and moan loauder and then my body got all tence and I closed my eyes and stopped breathig and I came with a scream of pleasure! I looked at him and he smiled and I got off him and started to use my mouth and tounge again and he started to moan really load and and breath faster and I started to move faster and then I put it inside of me agaian and started to move agian and really fast and hard and after a minut he got all tence and he came inside of me. I lied down on top of him and kissed him and got of him and lied down on his sweaty cheast and he strom my sweaty back and he said " Again? " I smiled and said " Do you even have to ask" He smiled and I kissed him and kissed his neck and kissed my way down to his beast and put it in my mouth and used my tounge and it just took a couple of minuts intill he was reday to go again, since I was still worked up and wet I didn't need any foreplay so I put his beast inside of me and started to move and started to moan he touche dmy boob with his hand and then all teh sudden the door opend up and we heard Madde and Jareds voice yelling " OMG!! We will come back later!" Then the door closed and I looked at Jensen and we just started to laughte and I lied down next to him and I got up to get dressed again and I was still laughing and so was Jensen then I helped him get dressed and we just couldn't stop laughing but it was kind of embarrassing too :P haha

When we was all dressed I opend the door and they where sitting down in a sofa in the hallway and whenn they saw me they got up and walked into the room and we sat down in the livingroom and Madde said " Didn't i tell you too put the " Do not disturb" Sign up " I said " Yeah you did but like you also said we aren't that smart " Jared laughted and said " I thought you two would had enough after yesterday " We laughted and Jensen said " We can never have enough " Jared laughted and said " Apprently not " We laughted and Jensen gave me a kiss and then I looked at Madde and she had a huge smile on her face and she looked so happy, I could keep myself for smiling back and then she said " You two are so cute " I smiled and looked at Jensen and he strok my hand and then I said " You where going to the hospital today to take teh cast away right? " Madde smiled and said " Yes finally!!" I said " You are such a crybaby, and I'm also going to the hospital today " Madde said " And do what? " Jensen smiled and said " Cheak our baby, so we have to go soon " Madde said " Let's go together" We agreed and went into the car and I conviced Jared that I was going to drive and the guys had to ride in the back seat and of course Madde complined about my driving but I'm use to it so I just ignored her. When we got to teh hospital I said that I wanted to follow Madde to take of the cast and Jared and Jensen said they was going to go and take a coffee.

Since Madde refuse to take teh elevator we walked up teh stairs and sat down to wait intill she could go inside and I said " So how are you? " She said " I don't know kind of mixed feelings. " I said " I understand that.. but things will get better now I hope.. " She said" I hope so " I gave her a hug and then the doctor called her name and we walked into the room and teh docter said " Ready to get this cast off? " Madde smiled and said " You have no idea!! " He laughted and told Madde to sit down and picked up the saw and said " Say good bye to you cast" Madde laughted and she was sp happy that it was going off now, he started to saw it off and after 5 minuts he throw the cast in the garbage and I amost thought Madde was going to start crying off happiness and the doctor told her to move her fingers even thought she said it hurt a little she could do it and he said thats she needed to take it easy with that arm for a few days since she didn't have that much muscels but she should use it as much as possible with daily things but not overstrain it. Madde shocked his hand and we left. Madde was all over the roof and she was so happy and I laughted and said " You are so cute do you know that? " She lookde at me and said " shut up! " I laughetd and said " What? " She said " You have no idea how it is too not do anything that I love for weeks and just lie there!" I said " No idea huh? Who was it that was almsot lieing in a hopsital bed for almost a half year without doing anything..hmm.. so you are tright no idea " She hit my arm and told me to shut up and then we found the guys in the cafeteria talking and laughing I walked over to Jensen and gave him a kiss and Madde happy showed off her arm and Jared smiled and kissed her and Jensen said " Don't we have to go know? " I garbed his left arm and looked at his clock that I got for him as a birthday gift and it showed 3 a clock so I nooded and Jensen said to Madde and Jared " Will you come with ous? " Jared said " Why not" I said " Great, audience... " They laughted and Madde said " We have all reday seen you naked today" I just told her to shut up.

Me, Jensen and Jared took teh elvatore and Madde teh stairs and when we got up there we wated for a few minuts then they called my name and my gynaecologist Natalie said hello to me and Jensen and to Jared and Madde, I said they where our best friends. Natalie said " I need you to get undressed because I need to cheak your cervix too and then we have a ultra sound on your stmach. " She walked out of the room and I walked into the bathroom and got undressed and put on a towel thing and walked out of there and lied down on that horrible bed and Jared was walking arund in the room and I didn't like that so I said " Jared stand with my head please" He laughted and did as I said and Jensen said " Admit that you plan was to see something?" Jared laughted and said " Yeah yeah.. fine it was" Madde just looked at him and hit his arm and then Natalie walked throw the door again and sat down and started to touch down there and I really hate that it's just weird and Jensen took my hand and teh docter told me to try to realix so I did and Jared said " I thought you should like that someone touched down there I mean you do when Jensen dose " I looked at him and said " Well that is diffrent would you enjoy if a manly docter looked at you dick?" He said " No that's true " Then all 5 off us laughted and Natalie said it looked good and then she told me I could get dressed so I walked into the bathroom and got dressed and lied down on the bed and she pulled my shirt up and put gel on my belly to do the ultra sound and when she had found a good picture of the baby she looked at it and said " Do you guys know the sex of the baby? " I said " Yeah we do, but Jared and Madde dosen't " Madde said " i hate you guys for not telling us!" Jensen smiled and said " We will tell you soon. " Madde asked how soon and I said " Before the end of this week I promis. " Then Natalie said " eveything looked good and the heart beat is good, and it's a little smaller baby " Jensen asked how small, she said " Well often in this week it's about 8-9 cm but your baby is maybe 7 cm but it's nothing to worry about" Jared said " It's so cool that you can see your baby there on the tv all reday! " I smiled and Madde took my other hand without saying anything. Then I was done and got dressed and it always feel good to know that my baby is okay.

When we got out to the car Madde forced me to giver the keys now when she finally could drive so I sat down on the passager seat and Madde was smileing and opend the door and strok teh door with her hand and sat down and just took a deep breath and looked so happy and strok the wheel with her fingers and I almsot sounds like she was moan and then she started to whisperd something to the car and thens he started the engine and smiled of the sound even thought it was not her car and draw out from the parking lot and of course she drived to fast!!!! And of course I got angry with her!! And she just told me that I was exaggerateing and ridiculou!! I hate that she is driving to faste and especially now after the accident!! But she don't care at all she say is that she is an amazing driver which maybe is true but still something can happend we hae proof of that now!!! Well anyway she drovedto teh hotel and I asked if they wanted to order roomservice and talk and watch a movie or something, Jared smiled and said " Why not"

We walked into our hotel room and Jensen order the food and I said " I will take a shower while we are wating. " Jared looked at Jensen and both of them smiled and started to laught and I said firmly " And that person who will steel my clothes, or towel or will walked or roll into the bathroom I will kill that person myself!! " All thee off them laughted and I walked into the bathroom and locked the door and got undressed and walked into the shower and it feelt great to feel the water pouring down my body and I washed my hair and when I was done I walked out of the shower and put the towel around me and walked out of the bathroom so get some new clothes and all three of them looked at me and Madde smiled and said " Put on the mumma clothes that you bought" I walked away while I said "Madeleine Karlsson that will never happend!" She acutally listen to that name and said " Tove come on, you looked so good in them!" I said " No way! Will never happend!!" I got dressed and Madde said " You are an idoit!" I walked into the livingroom where they sat in the sofa and I said " Maybe I'm nbut I still will not wear them!!" Madde just shooked her head and then it knocked on the door and Jensen yelled come in and that bitch walked into the livingroom and put the food down and she smiled at Jared and gave me a bitchy glare and walked over to Jensen and strok his back with her hand and smiled and said " You look amazing to night, why so dressed up? " Jensen said " Thanks. I have been at the hospital with my GIRLFRIEND and checked on OUR baby" She strok his back again and whipsed something in his ear that I couldn't hear and he just shooked his head and said " NO! " I looked at her and said " Do you know what the door is?! If your not then it's red thing that you can opend with a door knob and walked out throw and never come back!!" She rolled her eyes and then gave me another look and did as I said and left!! BITCH!!! Madde looked at the door and said " What's up with that fucking bitch!! " I shooked my head and said " Good qustion!" I walked over to Jensen and sat down next to him and gave him a kiss and we started to eat and talk and laught and we had a great time. :) Then all the sudded Jensen phone called and he looked who it was and he said quite " Danneel" I sign and rolled my eyes and Madde looked at me and could see that I didn't like it and Jensen answerd and I could hear how happy she was but I couldn't hear what she said, and Jensen started to talk to her for a while and then he said " I have to ask Tove about that first, wait. " He looked at me and said " She asked if I wanted to meet her tonight or tomorrow for coffee and sinec I can't go anywhere with this casts she asked if she could come over here, so what do you say? " I looked down and said " Yeah sure why not " Madde stared at me like I was crazy and Jensen countinued talking to danneel, so I said I needed to go to the bathroom so I walked in there and sat down on the floor, I know i'm ridiculous but I really didn't want to see her since she had been flirting with Jensen without him knowing it the last time and told me that she wanted him back and after what just have happend with Madde and Jensen I'm not strong enough to see her now.. Then it knocked on teh door and Jensen rolled in and looked at me on the floor and grabed my hand and told me to sit down on his knee which I did and he looked me into the eyes and said " Madde told me that I was an idoit for not seeing that you didn't want Danneel to come over, if that is true them I'm sorry.. " I sign and said " Yeah that's true.. " He strok my back and said " You could have said no. " I sign and said " I know I just didn't want to be that jealous girlfriend that can't take that you see your ex espcially since she told me she wants you back.. It's just that after what have happend this last weeks it feels like I can't deal with her right now, I'm sorry.. but you can see her if you like. " He rolled us out from the bathroom and into the livingroom again where Madde and Jared was and we sat down in teh sofa and Jensen picked up his phone from teh table and dialed a number and put the phone to his ear and He said " Hi Danneel, I have to cancel on you I'm sorry.. Tove isn't feeling so good since she is pregantet so she needs me. " He looked at me and I gave him a kiss on his cheek and then he said " I don't know if that is a good idea I mean since you want me back and I don't want to send mixed feeling to you because I can tell you now that we are never getting back together we are just friends and I love Tove she is the love of my life, so I'm sorry " Then she said something and Jensen answerd " How told me that? Oh Tove since you told her that, and me and Tove tell each other anthing. " Then she said something and he said " Bye Danneel" And he hung up and I smiled and kissed him and said " I said you could hang out with her I'm just ridiculous" He smiled and said " So why are you then smiling. " I laughted and said " Thanks." He kissed me and Madde was just smiling when she saw that like always. Then I said " so Jensen since we tell each other everything.. about that beep thing? What is that? " He smiled and looked at Madde and she smiled back at him and he said " We do, but except that. " I said " You told me I would found out if I took you back? " He smiled and said " I know and you will but not tonight. " I said " I hate you!" He smiled and said " I love you too honey!" Then we countinued talking and eating.

Then we desided to watch some movie and it was so cozy like we always had before when Madde and Jared was a couple too and it was a good movie too and kind of sad so of course Madde started to cry and I think jensen cried a tear too but they wher so cute! When the move was over it knocked on the door and I got up to open and there was Zara, sara and Niklas. I smiled and told them to come in and they gave us all a hug and sat down and they asked how things was and I smiled and said " Things are great!" Sara laughted and said " Is that because you two are alone in a hotel room all day and night long? " Jensen and I laughted and said " Yeah maybe " We all laughted and I asked Zara where the kids was and she looked at me and then at Madde and said " They are speading time with Nicky " Madde looked relived and I said " Good" Zara smiled and said " Yeah it is" Then she looked at Madde and said " And apprently I have one person to thank for that, so thanks Madde they need this " Madde looked at her with a suprised face and said " Your welcome. " Niklas asked how Jensen was doing and he said " It still hurts a little but it's getting better and better for everyday, but the best part is that Tove is here " I looked at him and smiled and gave him a fast kiss and then Jensen rolled away and came back with a bottle of wine and poured a glass up for everyone except me and then he showed them the new picture of our baby and Zara smiled and said " It's so beautiful!" Jensen smiled and said " I know! It's amazing! I can barely wait intill I can hold it in my arms!" Zara smiled and said " I know how you feel and when you hold you child for the first time that will be a feeling that you never will forgett, it's so amazing" Niklas said " I agree it really is! It's something special " Madde, me, sara and Jared sign about there subject but they just ignored us and coutinued talking about babies. Then we talked for a few hours more about everything and nothing and even Madde and Zara talked to each other and then Niklas said " Maybe it's time for us to go. " Sara said " Yeah you right" They stood up and Jensen said to Sara, Zara and Niklas " Thanks guys for taking care and beeing there for Tove when she needed you. " Niklas said " Of course, no problem at all. It was nice to have her there. " Sara said " Yeah we miss you.. and your breakfast " I laughted and said " I can come over some morning and make breakfast for you honey" Sara laughted and said " Yeah please do that " Then they hugged us and left. Jared said " Madde maybe we should go home too" madde nooded and I gave her a hug and whispered " You are stronger then you think you can do this I know that. And I'm always here and I will alway slove you" Madde kissed my cheek and said " maybe... I know you will and I love you too so much!" I smiled and said " Belive in yourself!" She gave me a soft smile and then Jared hugged me and he said " Thanks for a great day and evening honey" I smiled and said " Thanks to you too " He smiled and Madde and Jensen was just looking at us and I said " you too can huge each other I won't kill ya" Madde and Jensen laughted and gave each other a hug and then we say good bye and they left.

Then we got undressed and lied down in bed and I rested my head on his bare cheast and strok his abs with my hand and I said " How long are we staying here? " Jensen said " I don't know.. I acutally have been looking on apartments and I have found a really great one it's huge and with a big balocny and big rooms with lofty roofs and it's new built or they are building it now.. I can show you tomorrow " I said " that sounds amazing! How mush would it coast? " He said " The price was not done yet but maybe around 8 millions or more. " I smiled and said " So who is paying then? " Jensen said " I thought we should split it in half " I looked at him into his eyes and did my puppy eyes and he laughted and said " Fine I do it " I laughted and said " You are so weak who falls for that everytime " He laughted and said " Be nice otherwise I will take it back " Then he said "But do you want to move? " I said " Yes I do, but I will miss this hotel room since we have a lot of fun in here and it made us a couple agian " He smiled and said " Good, and so will I, yeah I love this room." I kissed him and strok his cheast and touched his nipple with my finger and he strok my my belly and he said " I'm so happy that I mean you, you are my life and our baby soon too " I smiled and said " And you are my life, and this pregnatecy have started to grow on me a little but just a little " He smiled and said " Good, but that is not the only thing that have growed on you " I looked at him confused and he smiled and said " Like your belly... " I said " That wasn't what you meant I can see that on you, so what are you talking about?" He laughted and gave me a cheesy smile and said " And like your.. boobs.. " I laughted and said " I know, do you like it? " He smiled and said " Oh yeah! They are like huge!! They will are pretty soon bigger then Maddes!" I laughted and said " I know you liked I'm just suprsied you haven't said anything eralier " He smiled and said " I love them not like them!! " I laughted and said " Good because you have to see them for a few month and it would be bad if you hate them " He said " I would never hate them, and I mean never!!" I lauaghted and kissed him and he smiled and said " Would you mind if I hate some fun with them? " I smiled and said " Not at all, but just give me a while so I can blogg then me and you and my huge boobs can play how much you like " He smiled and kissed me and I picked up teh compter and here I'm.

Well now I'm going to have some fun with my boyfriend and apprently my booobs :P hahaha
I hope you will have a great night! :) Madde will blogg tomorrow :)
Good night and I wish you sexy dreams! ;)
Kisses
from
Tove