come home!!!

Hey you lot!

I can tell yuo that we are still worried like pigs but we have found out a few thing anyway. I'll tell you more about that soon.

As you know, I live at Nicos at the moment but it doesn't really help me sleep, I'm to worried about Tove and I hate it because that makes Nicky worried about me and he shouldn't be worried. Anyway, I got a call from Jensen this morning saying I had to come home because Krisen and Pontus was there and had some news. I asked Nico to drive me home bcause I had left my car at home so both of us went. When we entered the house we found everyone in the kitchen looking at Krisen and Pontus. When Pontus saw me he totally ignored Nico and just gave me a soft, loving hug. I then asked what was going on and krisen explained "After you told us last night about the receipt Tove had found we went to the store and asked if anyone had seen a big, tatooed man with shaved head and they just said no but then we asked if we could have their securitycamera footage and they said yes. So we spend all night looking over the footage and we found something. At 10.00 yesterday a big man with a tatoo on his arm and shaved head walked in and bought a loaf of bread and a magazine. We have told the workers that f he walkes in again they have to call us." Everyone started to smile but I couldn't shut up, I just said "Why do they ahve to call, can't you guys put out someone on stakeout so that they can follow him to the hideplace and then get Tove out of there!" I thought their idea sucked and both Krisen and Pontus just looked at me. Then Pottan looked at Krisen and said that it was a really good idea and then he turned to me and asked "Where did that idea come from? You would make an awesome police detective." I could feel my cheeks turn red and said that I watched alittle to much CSI... Nico just smiled and pressed my hand he hadn't let go since I broke the hug with Pontus. They also shwoed us a letter we got this morning it said "We have your daughter and we want 50 milion and an airplane to get us out of the contry bafore we let her go! if we don't hev the money before saturday we will kill her!!!" We all got really worried and scared but krisen said everything was okay and that Tove would be home before Saturday and the kidnappers behind bars by then. Then Krisen and Pontus said they had to go back to the policestation and send someone out on stakeout and then continue working.

So Tove, we have soon found you! :D I can't wait to see you again and hug you and tell you how much i love you!!! An other thing I can't tell you is that Henrik and Jensen are behaving like grown up and haven't fought yet. There has been alittle bit of tention but you can't blame them for that, at least they don't fight.

We have a problem though. We need to find Tove before the end of the week because she needs to take her medicines!! Henrik is starting to freak out about it and that makes me scared as hell because then i know that it's really really serious! I would give my life for Tove to come back. I just hope we find her before it's to late. You have to fight Tove!!! For me and Jensen and well for everyone who care about you!!

I can't really tell you anything more about how far we have gotten to finding Tove because i don't know so much more. I only know what Pontus and Krisen has told us and that is not much. Hopefully we will find Tommy and he will lead us to Tove. We also would like to know who the second guy is so Tove if you have any idea tell us and tey to find out but don't put yourself in danger!!

When Krisen and Pontus had left Nico and I sat down in the backyard to just hang and while we were doing that Linus came by. He wasn't present when they told us the news about Tove so he asked if we knew anything new. I just told him what krisen had said and that they were going to put a cop on stakeout outside the store. Nico smiled proudly and said that that was my idea and then Linus said "So? do you think i care? Just bring her home! i don't give a fuck about this damn whore!". I don't give a fuck how sad he is or anything but he doesn't say stuff like that to me but before i could even react Nico had gotten up from his chair and stood infront of Linus. "Say that again you little punk if you dare! You do not say that about her, she is your only sister!" I could tell linus didn't care nicky was angry with him because he just smiled and said "So you do sleep with that bitch. I don't want a slut as my sister, I'm better off without her." I didn't know what to do, I just wanted to yell at him and punch is brain in but before i knew it Nico had puched him against the wall and threatened him; "You should be happy to have a sister as amazing as Madde, you could have had no one as well. If I hear you say anything bad about her I will make you soooo sorry and I will make sure they throw you out!" His eyes were completely black and then he puched Linus away from us and then just looked at him, after awhile Linus finally got it and walked back inside. I just stood there looking anxiously at Nico and when he turned around and looked at me I ran into his arms and hugged him. He hugged me back, stroke my back and kissed my hair to calm me down but the thing is i didn't need to calm down, I was completely calm I just wanted him to calm down. I don't like so see him all worked up and angry or worried and now he was expressing all those feelings. I asked him if he was okay and he just said "No. you?" I didn't answer him, I just held him tighter and looked up and placed a kiss on his lips. I think he got a bit surprised over the kiss because he got all tensed so I stopped and looked anxiously into his eyes. He then just gave me a soft smile, stroke my cheek, put his hand behind my neck and pulled me closer to an amazing kiss.

I was up in my room earlier today, alone, to just try to figure some stuff out. Then i heard a knock on the door and Jared walked in. He laid down beside me and asked what was going on, I just told him waht i was thinking about and he just said that everything was going to be okay. I looked into his eyes and just thought that he wouldn't lie to me, I gave him a kiss and when i felt his lips touch mine i felt an urge to have him and he seemed to have felt the same thing because I could feel his hands under my top and all of the sudden he pulled it over my head. I did the same with his shirt and felt his amazing abs under my fingers. He kissed my neck and started to undo my jeans when an other knock on the door interrupted us. Jared looked up and then we remembered we hadn't locked the door so we got up and stated to get dressed really quickly, I yelled at the person outside the door to wait and then jared grabbed my arm just as I was on my way to open the door, he gave me a long deep kiss and then he let me open the door, and there was Jensen. He just looked at me and then at Jared and then his face turned from whatever to a OH. He looked all mischievous and said "Oh i'm so sorry, did I interupt something?" I just said "no, not at all" and let him into the room. He wanted to talk a little about how Tove was doing and what I thought was going on between her and Henrik. I just told him that tove was missin him alot but that he already knew that and about Henrik and Tove i couldn't say anything because i don't really know.

I recived a call from Shane today aswell and he aslo wanted to know how things were going with the finding of Tove. i just told him the exact same thing as i told everyone else and then we started to talk about some other stuff and he said that Nicole missed me. She is so sweet, i miss her too. She is the only kid I can stand and she is such a little princess and so cute! I want to go back to Sligo and see her and her family and kian, jodi, mark and kevin again... miss them so.

I don't know what else to tell you, we aren't doing to much since we all just worry about Tove and can't focus on anything else. This was also a very boring inlay but i rpomis i'll make it up to you and I swear I will tell you about every lead we get so that we can get Tove home and arrest the people who does this to her. I hope The police outside the ICA store will find Tommy and follow him back to Tove.

Now I'm going to head over to Nico again and watch a movie with him and then we are going to hit the pillows and sleep. I'll write more the day after tomorrow and I really hope Tove will write tomorrow so that we might get some new information about her kidnappers.

Take care
Love
a worreing Madde