Long day!

Hello people!

This day has been kind of intresting, and ofcousre I will tell you all about it.

Well where do I start..

I know you all want to hear about my "date" who I though wasen't a date but it kind of was for him anyway. I can't belive that he's such a coward that he dosne't even have courage to tell me that it is a date! I had to find that out from Madde! I'm so pissed off right now! He's not even man enough to do anything! I'm not that dangerous, I promis that I woulden't eat him up or something! Or he's just affried of geting a no when he asked me which I don't get either since he's not even a little sky and he most have asking girls out before and got a no sometimes. So I don't get what he is so afried of!

But Madde now when you and Henrik are SO close then you can tell him that if he wants to ask me out he have to do it properly and admit that it is a date! Tell him that!

I'm not saying that I'm going to say yes, but he has to make a effort otherwise I will never go.

And you can also ask him why he's such a chicken! Since I don't think he's going to tell me anything. And like Madde wrothe yesterday that I was going to deny my feelings for him. Which I will! But Madde think she knows everything, like always ;P

Well I can tell you about what happend on the date or non date or whatever :P

I knocked on Henriks door at seven a clock last night. He gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek and told me to come in, I have to say that he smelled really good. ;) He told me to come in. He had a apron on and we went into the kitchen. There where the stove with alot of diffrent food cooing and steaking, it smelled really good acually.

I sat down on alittle stool he had in the kitchen while he was cooking. I asked if he wanted help but he just said no you just sit there, so I did. We talked a little and I checked out he's ass alittle since that was what I saw of him because he was standing with the stove, but I just looked a little and it was NICE! ;) But I all reday know that, since I have seen him naked ;) And that's a good view trush me! ;) hehe

Well back to the dinner ;P When the food was done we sat down on each side of the table. He lighted up two candles on the table he had acually served the table very good it looked really good he has a sence for stil :) Then he served us the food it was some kind of weird thaifood, well it looked weird anyway but it tasted wounderful!! That man can cook!!

The only bad thing with the dinner was that I diden't get any wine to the food just water, I tryed to convice him about the wine, but he just said " no you are not supose to drink alchole" I just said " My docter is an idoit so you don't hav eto listen to him about that ;)" He just laught and said some that some of my docters pations could be a hard work too, so he should listen to my docter since he knew how angry he could be otherwise. So I didne't get any wine! Not good! But to be honest I had a great time. But after the dinner and alot of talking and lauging I helped him with the dishes, which he siad that I shoulden't do. But I just said " well this isen't a date right? So why shoulden't I" He just looked at me and said "yeah right" Even there he had one more cahnce but no!! When we where finished we sat down in the sofa and started to talk and he told me that he was chocked that I know how to do the dishes and things like that. I told him that I'm not that spoiled and that I even like to cook. He said that he diden't think I did anything at home. I told him that I'm not like Madde who dosen't do anything! Sorry honey but it's true. ;P

When we had been sitting in the sofa for a while, I think he got alittle tierd off talking and wanted more ;)

So he started to stroke my thigh with he's hand which fast lead up under my shirt and before I knew it he was all over me, but I diden't mind ;) We had a few hours of fun, and it was so wounderful I thought I was going to die!!! I think that was one of the best times we have ever had!! Then I fell a sleep on he's bare chest, it was so nice, well sometimes I miss having a boyfriend just to sleep next to.. But I have to say that if I know that this was a "real" date then I would of gone home last night, since I don't have sex on my first date and not my second either and just maybe on my third that depends, so this wasen't really a date for me even I think he thought so.

Well anyway when I woke up that morning he had left the bed so I just took he's shirt that he had been wearing last night and put it on and walked out in the kitchen. There he was making breakfast for us, when he saw me he said " you are not supose to be up, my plan was to bring you breakfast in bed " Sometimes he is just so sweeit, I just walked toward him, and give him a hug from behind since he was still standing with the stove and stroke my hand over he's cheast and abs since he diden't have a shirt on and then I kissed him on the cheek and asked if I should go back to the bed, he said that I diden't had to if I diden't wanted to. I told him that I could go back in there but just if he let me help him with something.

He said that he was almost done so I diden't ahve to do anything, but then I said " well then we are eating here in the kitchen instead" Then he regreted fast what he had said and told me to take down plaits and glases. So I did.

Then I walked into the bed room again and after a few minuts he showed up there too with a BIG tray. It had evreything on it! It was an a amzing breakfast!!

When the time was about nine then he had to go to work, so we both got dressed and he drove me home, and before I left the car I gave him a goodbye kiss. Well That was my "date" from dinner to mordning ;P And you will probaly here more about it in some other inlay :P

Well this morning I sat in the kitchen by myself intill Eddie came. When I saw him I was on my way to leave, but he stoped me and asked if we could talk alittle. I sat down again since I thiugh if I talk to him then he will leave faster I hoped.

Well he asked how I was doing and things like that, I think all of my answers was really cooled in evreyway, but that's he's fauilt. Then all teh sudden he said that he had seen me coming home yesterday morning. I just said "okay? So what?" Then he asked if it had to do with some guy, I just said that he had nothing to do with that. Then he said the worsed and stupiest thing ever! He said " are you useing protection? Since kids both can me the most wounderfully thing ever and at the same time be the biggest and hardest mistake ever " I thought I was going to die!! I coulden't belive my ears!! I just yealled at him " OMG!!I'm 24 soon 25 and you haven't cared about this in my whole life so just let it be and I think I know by now how to protect myself and it isen't the first time I have had sex now, I'm not like your son!! And If you still thinks about me as 14 then you are even worse then I all reday think you are since you sleeped with my best friend, and if you think about me as 14 then she is too!! That's just grossed!! And by the way thank you for telling me that I'm your biggest mistake ever that's just what I needed to hear from you to understand that my opinines about you are exatlly true!!" Then I ran up to my room angry like a bee! He have to have something wrong in he's brain!! Yesterday he checked Madde out and today he asking me about this and telling me that I'm he's biggest mistake!! I seriously hate him!!

When I had calm down a little the next problem was on the way. It knocked on my door and there was Jensen. He diden't exactlly looked happy to see me, and neither did I.

I told him to come in since I know I diden't ahve a choose.

We sat down on my bed which had been our bed for a few month ago. We sat in quit for a loooooong while, then I told him to say something. He just said that he had nothing to say.

Then I stated that he was the one who had come and knocked on my door. He just said shortly that Madde and Jared had forced him. I'm so tierd of this that he can't act like an adult!

I asked him if he wanted to talk now or what since he diden't seemed so eager to do it. He just said we talk later because you are proabably waiting on some guy. Then I got pissed of again and told him that he had nothing to do with that, but maybe I was waiting for a guy, but that's not he's buisness! Then he asked if I woulden't care if he said that he had sleeped with a few women since the last time he was here! I just said " no I woulden't since I have nothing to do with that!" Then he got really angry and yelled at me and he said " Well that's just because you NEVER really loved me!!" I just got so angry, I asked him how the hell he even could say that about me!! Then he diden't knew me at all!! Since I loved him with all my heart and would of done evreything for him! It makes me so disappointed that he dosen't know that..

He just yelled back that I cheated! Which I did, but I told him that I'm just humen and evreybody can make mistakes. He said " not that kind of mistakes!!" I said " well yes that kind of mistakes and it diden't mean anything for me all that with Kian, and even though I cheated I still loved you more then anything! And I still love you but I'm not so sure anymore about this, I'm tierd of this! " Then he just ran out from my room and slamed the door behind him.

A few second after Jensen had ran out the room Madde walked trow the door and asked if I was okay. I told her that I was fine and wanted to be alone. So she just gave me a hug and left.

Well I can tell you that me and Tim is still not freinds. I think he's pissed about those thinks he said about him not having sex. But It was all worse it and I still think it's true ;P But I don't know how I will found out if it is, but I will in someway! ;P And Madde refuse to help me too. And Madde you are not going to help him either do you get that!! Then I will chop you up in little pieces! And even though I was flirting with Linus, that's kind of a diffrent to since you diden't even know him and neither did I. But you have know Tim your whole life and he's almost like your brother too, so I think that's teh diffrent! So instead of seducing him you can help me find out if he still is a virgin ;) HAHAH if he is then I will use it against him he's whole life ;P Maybe I should get him a hooker for he's birthday present ;P haha

I know Madde that you will do it for free but I don't think so ;P

I can also say that i'm not friend with my other brother either. He still don't want to talk to me!

Even though Madde tryed to talk to him but no! I don't get what he's problem is, it was ages ago all this happend! I don't know what to do about this anymore.. I have to find someone who can talk to him and who he lookes up to since he dosen't listens to me.

Well I just gotten an Idea that I maybe should ask Henrik to talk to him, because when we was at the hospital he adoraed Henrik. So maybe that will work if he's not pissed of him too for screwing he's sister, just hope not. I just don't want to call Henrik since I'm alittle angry with him, but he dosne't know that. And Madde when you talked to Henrik again you can aslo tell him if he thought that was our first date then he had wrong!

Well anyway otherwise I acutally have a back up plan since me and Emil is going to lay at the hospital from thuresday evening to friday morning so they can cheack how we are feeling with some kind of machines. So we ahve to stay there and just sleep or almost anyway.

So I know that Emil will try sleeping in the kids area but since I think I know my brother he will just be crying because he hates sleeping away from home even when he's at a friend. So I think he probably will end up with me even though he really dosen't want to. So then he will be stuck with me and he has to talk to me or listen anyway, so that's my other plan.

But to be honest I don't know if I really want Emil sleeping with me since then Henrik can't entertain the whole night ;) So we will just see what happends.

I walked by Linus today too just to see what he was up to and how he was doing.

He said that evreything was okay and that he needed to studie which I don't really belive in but I can't deny him that so I just stayed for 5 mintes or so.
So I said that maybe me and Madde would drop by tomorow instead. Then We said goodbye and I left.

On thuseday Madde is going to Sligo with Nico! I think that will be weird since we have never been away from each other a whole week before! I'm going to miss her like hell! I know that she isen't going to miss me in the same way since she will have te best time ever with the lads and espcilly nicky. But when she gets home she have to tell him how she is feeling about him outherwise I will.

Well know I don't ahev anything more to write. Maybe I should call Henrik even though I'm mad at him, but I need him ;) Well I just ahe to think about it and see what I will come up with.

So tomorrow you will hear from Madde, so till next time I write have a nice day and evening! :)

Kisses

Tove