Not much but alittle ;)

Dia is muire dhuit!!

Cónas atá tú? Well, i hope you are doing okay. I can tell you that I'm fine considering yesterday... Well if you are wondering what kind of language I'm writing in in the begining, it's irish :) Nicky has taught me a few words and what i wrote today was "Hey!!" and "How are you doing?" :D I'm getting pretty good at this but the spelling is crazy!! Talk about a wierd language! hhahaha anyway, let's get this inlay starting ;P

First I have to talk about Toves date with Henrik on saturday. I had no idea a player can be so romantic but then again i helpt him with a few things :P I'm just glad he did as i told him and not as he wanted. Becuase then I don't think Tove would have been as happy with it as she was. So way to go henrik ;) But I'm sorry that you didn't get any but I suppose she holds on to that rule harder then i thought :P hahah Anyway, I think something is going on between them, more then just FB... I mean I think there are some feelings developing in Toves heart and they match the feelings Henrik feels. Okay, she has told me from the moment she met him that she loved him but I wasn't really sure but now she can't deny it anymore. Now i know she has feelings for him. I'm happy for her, she deservs a boyfriend and she kind of needs one too. I do too but I havn't found the one yet, or I have but he is already taken.. :(

I gave Jensen a call today after reading Toves inlay from yesterday. I think he knew that i wanted to talk to him and what about because when he answerd he said "Yes madde, I know you are disappointed with me but it just happened". It kind of got me off my thoughts but then i just told him "yes I am. i gave you so many chanses of talking to the woman you love but you blew it and now you have turned from that sweet man who loves tove to a jealous ex who can't take no for an answer." He just said he was sorry and that he still loved her and wanted to talk to her but I said "I know jensen but I don't think you and her are coming back. I'm sorry but I think the only thing you can do is go back to L.A and go on with your life. Find a good girl and be happy. You do really deserve that.". I could hear how sad he got because of losing the chanse of making it up to Tove but i don't think it's going to work out between them again. he really does love her, even more then Jared has ever loved me and Tove cheating on him just broke his heart so bad the he is having a hard time getting through. But being hurt doesn't mean he can fight with Tove new man... that, I must say, was really childish and stupid. I hope he is going to go back to L.A and i hope he is going to find a great girl there that he car merry and live happiely ever after. :)

Okay now, so let me tell you about yesterday.

Shane was going to pick us up at around 1 p.m. so me and nico had to pack and be at the pick up spot at 12.45. I was really really nervous and hadn't slept good at all after what happened Saturday night. I have been having nightmares like crazy and I've been keeping nico awake as well. I feel so bad about that because i know how much nicky loves to sleep and now i'm keeping him awake.. But he just says that it's okay and that i shouldn't worry but when i say the same to him, that he shouldn't worry about me and that i'm fine, he just wont listen. I know he cares about me but i don't want him to sorry and be upset because I always get into trubble... Okay, back to the subject... When we were standing there waiting it was freezing cold and although I had a pretty thick jacket I was still freezing but Nicky was standing behind me with his arms wrapped around me and holding me inside his jacket. It help pretty much and it was really cozy and then after a few minutes we saw the chopper and then it landed infront of us. I havn't seen Shane so happy before. He ran towards us and gave both of us a big hug and he kissed me on the cheek. then he grabbed my bag and lifted it onboard. me and Nicky hadn't moved an inch towards the chopper and i think Nicky could feel how tense I was because he turned me around so that he could look me in the eyes. Then he said "Okay sweetheart. Are you ready to fly again?" I suppose he could tell from the look in my face that i was no way near ready but then he leaned in, kissed me softly on the lips and said "I'm right there all the way. I'm not going anywhere.". I didn't know how to act, me knees were like gelly and I was completely lost in his eyes. i just nodded and he started to lead me towards the chopper.

When all of us were buckled in and had all the things on us so that we could talk to eath other and stuff, we were on our way. It was a very wierd feeling and when we lifted I think i crushed nickys hand for the second time... Anyway, I was really scared but after about 2 hours we landed outside of Filans farm in Sligo. i couldn't wait to get out of the copper and I happily jumped into Shanes arms when he held them out to me. All the guys just laught at me but i didn't care. If I'm afraid of flying then i am, and i stand for that! It was alomst dinnertime and when we had stuffed all our bags into Shanes BMW his mum Mae came out and told us to stay for dinner. We gladly said yes and then we had a few hours to check the farm out. Tove, you would love this place!! they have about 40 horses and all of them are beautiful, they have tons of acres of land for the horses to run on and a really cute house. It's so beautiful here! When we had looked around the farm Shane told us to get in the car because he wanted to show us something. We drove for about 20 minutes and then we stoped, got out and looked at the most amazing view ever!!! it was just so beautiful!!! We just stood there for a few minutes before returning home to the farm to eat some food. Mae is an amazing cook and the food was just incredible :)

When we had said goodbye to the Filans Shane drove us to his and Gillians place. When we got close enough to see the house I couldn't do anything else but to try and catch my breath! It was the most beautiful house or castle i have ever seen!!!! it's just so amazing and the inside is just unbelieveble!! I think i had been woundering around that place for like 20 minutes and havn't seen all of it yet. Shane and Gillian are just saying I'm overdoing and things like that but I'm not!! it's so amazing!!!

Okay now I'm going to stop talking about their house. :P I got the chanse to meet nicole to! and thier son Patrick. They are just so cute and nicole is such a little princess, she asked me all sorts of questions and then she asked Shane where Mark was and why he wasn't there... She adores mark obviuosly and he adores her too. :) so sweet.

Anyway, today we have just been taking it easy.. We all went out for a walk earlier today and you should see the scenery!! It's so beautiful and open. When we got back to the house Mark and Kian was there waiting for us. I got a kiss and a hug from both of them and felt very welcome there. :) it's so nice to be around these lads because they really love me and care about me. Atleast that is what i think :P hahahah Hum... what more has happened. God it feels so boring the read my inlays because nothing is actually happening in them. Not like at home where things happen 24/7... Or thing happen but it's things I can't write about because then you would be bored to death but they arn't really boring thing but.... OMG!! I have been spending to much time with nico, I'm starting to complicate things that isn't even complicated! Not good!

Okay lets say like this, the only thing that ahs happened today is that we have been chilling in the beautigul weather. We have been playing some soccer and then both nicky and Shane got something in their head that they were going to tickle me. I don't know why but i hate it and i'm very ticklish so i just tried to out run them but how easy is that when they are two?! First nico started to chase me and then shane helped him and intercepted me. He got a very good hold of me and pulled me down to the ground and when nico caught up with us both of them held me down and tickled me!! it's not fair and i thought Kian and Mark was going to help me but they were just sitting on the porch laughing their asses off! i hate them!! When they finelly let me go I was really upset with them but then i saw that smile in Nickys face that i've been missing and i got happy again. We are having a great time and sometimes i don't even want to go home. Ireland is so much better then sweden and both Sligo and Dublin in way better then Stockholm...

Oh, there was one more thing I have to say about Toves inlay... Tove wrote that nico had called and asked were Zara was and that he misses her. Tove said that she would tell Zara to call and i talked to Tove yesterday night and she said that she had talked to Zara and i told Nico that. But she hadn't called back so Nico gave her a call today aswell but she didn't answer today either... It's really wierd since she is a girl who carries her phone with her anywhere and she always picks up... I wonder what she is playing at because Nico is starting to get worried and he sure as hell doesn't need that!! So Zara if you read this, Call Nico!!

I can not believe i just wrote that but okay.............

I think i'm going to wrap this up now because both Nico and Shane is calling for me to come and watch a movie... And now Nico is even staning in the doorway making his Nico-look and trying to convince me to leave the computer :P ahahha he is so amazing :D

See ya! Tove will blogg from home tomorrow! :D
Miss you honey!!

Take care
Love
Madde


Btw!! Thought you might want to see the dress I talked about in my last inlay ;)