This World Keeps Spinning Faster!

Hello!

Last night I sleeped in the hospital to do a lot of tests and so did Emil.

We arrived at the hospital at 5 on the afternoon, Emil diden't say a word to under the whole drive here. He had acutally consider talking the sub here instead of leting me drive him but mum diden't let him take the subway, so he diden't hade a choose. As you may know I had planed a plane for me and him talking again or more he talking to me. And the plane I told you about for a few inlays ago that he would stay in my room eventally since he is a wimp and hates to sleep away. Well he went down to the child academy, while I walked to my uselly room. On the way there I meet Henrik in the hallway, so we talked a while and so, but the hardest here is that we have to act like we don't know each other more then just patient and doctor, so it's hard.

Then I got in my room and I have to say that I haven't missed sleeping there, with the hard small be and the white walls. When I had lied in my bed for a few minutes Henrik walked throw the door. Now he diden't act like just my docter, now it was the Henrik I like.

We talked a little about evreything and then he told me who the examination is going to happend. They would draw blood from me evrey two hours then I will have some machine a touched on me and with he have to cheack evrey hour. Then he said that I woulden't get so much sleep tonight, but I just told him that that diden't matter if I had good companie ;)

When the clock was about nine at night my phone called, it was Emil. He said " Tove can I sleep in the same room as you?" He sounded so helpless and sad. I just said " On one condition, and that is that you talked to me so we can fix this" But then he just hung up, but after a half an hour he called again. And this time he agreed to condition, so after 10 minutes he was lying in the bed next to me.

I took my machine and walked over to Emils bed and satt down there. I tryed to take he's hand but that diden't work. So I just told him that I was soooooo sorry for what I have said and for all that with Henrik. Then he asked me if I even remebere what I have said, so I said no since it was true. So he told me alittle, I had apperntly said that the day he was born was the worse day of my life and I had said that he was an idoit and that he was stupied and much of other things.

I can understand why he was sad now. I told him that nothing of that was true I was just angry, then I don't meen evreything I say. I think I said sorry like a thousen times and finally he said he forgave me. Then he was like uselly again, very good at talking!

He asked me how you did when you kiss some one. I got alittle suprised taht he asked ma nd not Emil about it. I started to ask what her name was, but he diden't want to tell me. But I tryed to explane in some way but it diden't go so good. Then he asked how you know that you are a bad kisser. Then Henrik walked in again to checak us.

I told Emil that I was a really bad kisser before but after a few years of practice I think I'm good, so just wait you will get there.

Then Emil asked Henrik if I was a good kisser. Henrik just started to laugh.

I just asked what was so funny. He just said nothig it was just the qustion. Emil wanted to know the answer. So Henrik smiled at me and said " She's amzing! " He's so sweeit. Then Emil wanted us to kiss, I don't know why. I just told him "no, not now it's weird. and btw you have seen us do so much more then just kiss so you just have to be satisfied with that. " But Henrik diden't let him be satisfied just with that, he walked to me and before I knew he gave me a big sexy kiss. Enil just looked ;P When Henrik left Madde called me from Dublin and we had a great talk :) I miss her so!!

Then Emil falled a sleep and I called on Henrik and asked if he wanted to sleep with me, and then I just meen sleep, wotch he wanted so we both kay down on my small bed an sleepd it was so cozy I just never wanted it to end.

When we walk up it was morning and Hnerik had to exmine me before I went home again.

He listen to me, and he laught and said " do you think I'm so hot? Because right the way when I touch you your heart still higer rate right the way. Then I got alittle red an dhe laught a little. Then he was going to squeeze me on my stomach and back. He said " do I really need to put on gloves?" I just said " no you have touched me on more intemate places then on my stomach." Then I laught, Emil just thought we where grossed, but that's he's problem ;P

It was nice feeling he's hands on my skin. When he was done Me and Emil got walked to the car.

I hade acutally borrwed Maddes new car to the hospital.

Sorry honey, don't kill me!! When I was going to drive the car out from the parking space

I sort of hit a lamppost.. so now it's a big buckel on the back on the car. I'm so sorry!!!

So the car dosen't look so beutiful anymore, but you will survive anyway I hope.

But I'm so sorry!!

Eralier today I walked over to Linus and see who he was doing in he's loneliness. Since he's mum was still away. When I got there he was a sleep even though the time was about one a clock.

While I walked throw he's house on the way to he's room. I noticed that the house was a mess!!

He had probably had a party last night, because it was beer cans and mugs all over the place.

But in the kitchen I found something I diden't like, It was a little bag and in it it was small pills who looked exactlly like ecstasy!!! Then I though I was going to kill him!! Madde don't worrie about him I will take care of him.

So I walked straigt into he's room and there he layed in the bed sleeping with a girl!!

He woke up and saw me, and then I just walked out he's door and slamed it.

Then I waited in the sofa so he could get dressed. Both Linus and the girl came out of the room. I just told her to leave and I asked Linus angry what was in that bag! He answer me " what dose it lookes like" Then I yelled at him even more!! Then I asked him " aren't you to young to have one night stands?!" He just said " are you jealous? " What's up with that guy!! I told him no, but he diden't seems to belive me! Then told him that he couldn't party evrey night and not use drugs!! Then I said " now you are staying with me in out house, and you don't have a choose!! "

He tryed to say no, but I had all reday desided that, so he paked and we walked over to our house. Where I let him stay in one of the guestrooms. He's a fucking idot!

Well on the saturday I'm having my first real date with Henrik. I don't really know what I think about that, but it can be intersting. We are going to be at he's place and that's all I know since he dosen't want to tell me anything more ;P I just hope he's planes is good. But I think the hardest for us is not to have sex, but I know I don't want to because it's the fisrt date. Even though Madde thinks something is going to happend ;) haha We just have to see about that want we ;)

But like uselly when I'm going out on a date I don't know what to wear!! And then I have Madde to help me, but now she is away. But she still have to help me! Madde what should I wear? You always have such good ideas so you have to have that now too. Because otherwise I have to go naked, okay Henrik woulden't mind that but I would ;P haha

So Help!!

I talked to Tim today too, but I diden't tell him anything about Madde not having sex with him since she wants to see he's face when she say it. And she think's I'm mean what about her ;P haha But it's going to be kin dof funny ;P

But I got a angrt with him today too, because now I know what he had done that day in the pool. But he dosen't seems to think that he did something wrong. Even though I do !

I don't understand what's up with the men in this family and Madde! But Tim and Eddie are all over her!! And they have both know her there whole life and should think of her as family.

But apperntly not!! I'm so tierd of them! But now is Eddie gone anyway!! That's good!

After dinner I walked in to the living room and there where Jensen. Well I have promis to try talking to him, so I diden't have a choose.

But the talking part diden't go so well, Madde you can be as disappointed as you want and think I'm childish but I don't care! It's not my fauilt that he dosen't want to talk too me!!

I sat down next to him in the sofa. But he just looked away, he looked so sad. So I coulden't help it to feel sorry for him. So I strok he's arm eith my hand and asked if he was okay. But the he just got anry and said " don't touch me! " Then he said " That Henrik guy do you like him or did you just bring him here to hurt me?!" I told him that I diden't bring him here just to hurt him. Then I said " You broke up with me remebere not the other way around so you have no right to be angry with me for spending time with Henrik! And I never said that you should come here, so I don't acre if you get hurt anymore!! Because you don't even care what I say to you!! all you do is being angry with me!! You are so fucking coward you can't even tell me what yo think and feeling!! " Then he just left the room and walked out the frontdoor!

That was our convistion!

Well Madde about your car, I was just kidding! Your beutie is fine, I just wantedto hear your reaction ;P HAHAHA I know you don't think it's funny but I do ;P haha

Henrik called and asked if I could come over to he's place, with I could. When I got there I just though he wanted to have sex. But that wasen' the case, when I knocked on the door he just yelled come in. He was sitting in he's kitchen and when I saw him I got all speechless. He looked terribel! He had been in a fight! He was bleeding from the eyebrow and he's lip was chapped and he was blue and purple all a round and he's hand was not that good either since he had been fighting back! I don't get guys and fighting!! I ran towards him and siad " OMG!! What have you done?! " He just said in a irratateing voice " ask your ex boyfriend!" I just thought I as going to

explode of anger!!

What's he's problem!! I can't tall about Jensen now It's just makes me too upset!!

But I help Henrik wasing the wounds. Guys are such wimps they think evreything hurts like now I diden't vene had to touchin then he whined! But when we was done, he said " it's alomst like we have chanced role know " Then he pulled me down in he's knee and wisperd " Do you want tó be my nurse this afternoon, because I have some problem sometimes geting it up, do you want to help me? " ;) I just raised my eyebrow a little and smiled and said sure ;)

Then he lifte me to the bed and there you know the rest ;) And I can tell you he diden't have no such problem at all ;) haha

Now I'm home again and Jensen wasen't home so I haven't yelled ta him yet!!

But I'm planing to give Madde a call to her what she an nico are up to if she had goten her birthday present yet from Nico :)

Well before I call them I have to go and check on Linus.

See you later

Peace out

Tove